Writings by Jose A.

Poetry, Short Stories, and Philosophy by me, Jose A. I was born in 1989 in So. Cal, and now live in Arizona. I have a deep appreciation for the arts.

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The next video on my YouTube channel. Thania becomes Ramona Flowers from Scott Pilgrim. Subscribe to SubCulture Recall. Watch our videos if you haven't already. YouTube.com/SubCultureRecall #SubCultureRecall #RamonaFlowers #ScottPilgrim #Cosplay #youtube

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Group photo. Party and bullshiiit. 2014 Nov

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I donated $75 to season 3 of one of my favorite shows on YouTube. Excited to see what boardgames and RPG they have planned season. #boardgames #geek #tabletop #ilovetabletop

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Random Thought #2

INTENTION is the passion, manifestation and action in life. If you live life with intention life will align towards your desire. You equation can be put in any order. In order to bring upon manifestation of your goals and dreams in in life you must take action with intention and faith or confidence that you will accomplish your goals and reach your dreams. A confidence or faith so great that you feel as if you have already attained your goals and dreams. In turn this is what it is to live life with true passion. 

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Happy Earth Day. I took 2 trash bags durring this hike. I did not expect that I was going to fill them up with other peoples trash. I’m guilty of not being the most environmentaly conscious person as most of us but at least when visiting nature, the home of the animals and bugs that call it home, we should at least try to pick up after ourselves.

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Most challenging hike I've done. #Camelbackmountain #chollatrail #azhiking #mastermind (at Camelback Mountain)

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Awesome tabletop RPG based on Marvel civil war! Playing as Wolverine. Badass #marvelcivilwar #tabletoprpg #rpg

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Spring training again. Go Dodgers 2014! Send the good vibes so we can win!

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We traveled back to the wild west times. This place was cool. #wildwest #arizona #western (at Goldfield Ghost Town)

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Playing #pandemic. Sit just got real!

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Did all the wiring and assembly. Easier than I thought. Turned on, on the first try. #Electrical

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Ill Mystery

Never learned a lesson without being torn

mistakes teach us so we can keep going forward

With every climax in the story we are reborn

Either get knocked down or stand up stronger

Until we feel we can't take it any longer

Along the road avoiding a reality check

Just to see the check keep turning up a wreck

The bad in life always wares a mask

The focus on trying to keep on task

The destination is clear but the road I fear

I never asked to be a volunteer

So what is the deal with making me feel

Like the world is a mystery that we steal

And its all just making me ill. 

- Jose Alcazar

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Ice skating, celebrating. (at Arcadia Ice Arena)

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Composition Of Love

My fingers cascade down the sides of your delicate curves

A temple with angelic architecture I must admire

A magnetic force that electrifies all the nerves 

A love that lights a room on fire

My love for you is an artistic passion

So vibrant in how I want to compose it

A perfect mix of lust and compassion

A true love I'll take every chance to admit

Thania, the most beautiful girl I've ever known

In every form especially her heart colored in red

The painting brushed in our loves tone

It is the art that shows the unsaid

   - Jose Alcazar

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Out of Balance

Buried alive ready to die

as the world caves into something I've never wanted it to be

The skin is trembling off my bones

Chills running up my spine 

Can't help but to feel I'm going at this alone

The unknown is the darkness that turns me into stone

The sickness that is wasting me away

The deterioration of my mind is put on display

The pills are calling but I'm not willing to pay

I want to be better than the people who give into the desire

To feel good and not care about themselves or one an other

Living a life where they only care for the short term pleasures

Just to see themselves running after the feeling of an artificial "happy"

I want to be truly at bliss, balanced and sure.

Without the aid of the material world

I just want something that is pure

Balanced in mind body and soul

I once felt close to that feeling of being whole

With myself and nothing more

  - Jose Alcazar

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Random Thought #1

Things don't always happen the way you want them to, but everything is an experience and could be for the best. Life is good, and I see it becoming better. With effort and some faith I believe people could persevere to becoming the person they want to be. When I say faith... I don't mean it in a religious term. To me faith is knowing that life will work to arrange the roads leading to what you want, as long as you put some effort towards it. Sometimes what we fail to understand though is that the roads leading up to what you want might not always seem like the plans you had in mind. Some people will see this as something not being according to plan, and get frustrated. This is when usually you try to control a situation regardless on what is best, because you have become attached to the idea that things should be a certain way. At this point you are altering the roads that life is putting down for you to get where you want to be and be happy. This is all a result of not having faith. Fear is the problem because you fear that by something not seeming like the right path you are moving away from what you want, when in reality if you know what you want and have faith in yourself and life you will be on the path towards what you want. 

This mindset is hard to be in because we condition ourselves to think a curtain way. The point is that things might not always seem to happen the way you envisioned it but if you have faith, and keep putting in effort, life will have you on the right path even if it doesn't seem so. 

Ever since I've changed the way I think about life, I've noticed that by doing what I said, I have manifested curtain things in my life for the best. It is still a battle between the way I'm use to thinking but with some effort I always see things coming together. I feel at this very moment that great changes are coming my way. The signs are all there, and I feel it. I feel more motivated and happier about who I am becoming.

This might seem weird to people but maybe it will strike a chord with some. I know that this isn't easy to understand, and it wasn't for me at first, but all I got to say is that if you keep your mind open you start to see how things work in life. Then you will understand how to be happy. 

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Deathly Fear of Death

I'm trying to clear these fears

But what can I do when I can't figure out what's true

It is what haunts me at night

Trying to tell myself "everything is alright"

I can't let go of the thought

That for so long I have fought

Don't feel normal anymore

Don't even know what I'm looking for

Asking why I have these fears

That I've had for years

Wishing the answers were clear

Just to sleep at night

and feel that "everything is alright"

But the days just keep passing me by

What's in control of my life

When are we really meant to die

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- Jose A Alcazar