Trippin' On Words

[kookminficrecs]

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[sarah-yyy]

rebuttable presumption masterpost

by popular demand, ta-da! 

if you’re new to rebuttable presumption, here’s a quick 10 point summary to the verse.

quick answers to FAQs: 1) idk if i’ll ever put this up on ao3. it’s going to be a nightmare to edit, and, unfortunately, i don’t have that sort of time on my hands; 2) if you want to play around with this verse (e.g. write any of the aus that i’m not writing ahahaha), go for it; 3) i know there’re still bits y’all want to read (e.g. wangxian wedding) - there’re still prompts i’m keeping in drafts, and will be occasionally dropping extras, but for all intents and purposes, the main timeline is done and any extras shouldn’t affect that timeline, so i’m marking rp verse as completed. 

current as at: 9 january 2021

status: completed (unscheduled extras will be added from time to time)

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[writingshit-ifeel]

This was so amazinggg!!!

[writingshit-ifeel]

A Good Night’s Sleep

Fandom: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù陈情令 | The Untamed (TV)

Pairing:  Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn

Summary:  Lan Zhan wakes from his sleep so he can cuddle his husband to sleep.

AO3 link: A Good Night’s Sleep

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It is quarter to nine when Lan Wangji stands up from in front of his desk in the Jingshi and walks towards his door. He was reviewing some of the reports submitted by the juniors while Wei Wuxian was outside, wanting some fresh air. Lan Wangji was worried, and had wanted to follow, but Wei Wuxian assured him that he would be fine and if he truly felt like he needed Lan Wangji, he would come to him right away. So Lan Wangji had sighed and let Wei Wuxian go, trying to give him the space he needed despite wanting to hover.

Opening the door, and feeling the cool night air brush against his skin, Lan Wangji steps out, wanting to find Wei Wuxian. He just wants to make sure if his husband is doing alright. He walks across the rabbit garden, and stops as he spots Wei Wuxian sitting on a rooftop of one of the rooms. He is clutching a jar of Emperor's Smile in his hands as he stares upwards towards the sky, taking long slow sips.

Lan Wangji is taken back to the first time they had met, Wei Wuxian wanting to sneak in alcohol into Cloud Recesses and Lan Wangji stopping him and getting him punished. A fond smile plays on his lips as he relives the times after the fateful encounter. He is still surprised by the fact that someone like Wei Wuxian was interested in someone who was as strict and rigid as Lan Wangji.

Coming back to the present, and looking back up at Wei Wuxian, Lan Wangji is mesmerized. He has been married to this beautiful man for almost a year now but every time he looks at him, his breath is taken away. Wei Wuxian’s silky dark hair is in its usual ponytail, tied with a red ribbon, a few stray strands at the front framing his face. His silver eyes are staring up at the sky as a light smile plays on his thin lips and his cheeks are flushed from the cold and the alcohol. His body is relaxed, and he is leaning back on his elbow while one of his legs is propped up.

Lan Wangji is filled with so much emotion that he feels like he is going to burst into a rainbow. This amazing, strong, gorgeous man is his husband now. Wei Wuxian is his and he is Wei Wuxian’s.

Finally.

Lan Wangji feels a sense of pride at that. He is so proud to have a husband as kind and loving as Wei Wuxian. Someone so amazing, how did he get so lucky?

Lan Wangji loves Wei Wuxian so much he wants to protect him forever. He wants to take him in his arms and he wants to shield him from all the ugliness of this world. He wants to hold him when he is sad or doubting himself and remind him just how beautiful he is. Remind him that he loves Wei Ying with all his self.

After making sure that Wei Wuxian is not sad or hurt, Lan Wangji makes his way back to Jingshi. He could have joined his husband, but he knew that Wei Wuxian sometimes needs to be on his own and he doesn’t mind giving him that as long as Wei Wuxian is not hiding too much pain inside him. Besides, he knows Wei Wuxian will be back soon, after finishing his drink.

It’s almost nine when Lan Wangji gets in their bed and pulls the cover over himself. Even though he hates it sometimes, he has become a slave to his routine of sleeping 9 to 5 on a normal day. He can stay awake on days of night hunt, or when Wei Wuxian was talking to him about anything and everything (which is almost everyday), or when they were making love (which was also almost everyday). But there was no reason for him to stay up tonight, so when the clock strikes nine, Lan Wangji is already being pulled into a dreamless sleep.

Wei Wuxian stumbles into the Jingshi at ten. He is not drunk, just a bit tipsy. His eyes land on a heap of white on the bed and his heart blooms. Lan Wangji is laying perfectly still on their bed, wearing his night clothes, his forehead ribbon removed, folded neatly and kept on the side table. Wei Wuxian removed his own outer robes and skips towards the bed to join Wangji. He stops at the foot of the bed and looks down at the sleeping form of his partner. He sleeps completely still, in a straight form unlike Wei Wuxian who is always sprawled across the bed, his limbs spread out. But Lan Wangji doesn’t mind, letting their limbs entangle. His beautiful dark hair is spread around like a halo. He truly looks like the angel he is.

As he gets into the bed for the night, he feels a shift, and looks up to see Lan Zhan’s eyes slightly open. His beautiful golden orbs are only half visible as his eyelids hang heavy due to sleep. He extends his arms to Wei Wuxian’s side of the bed, letting Wei Wuxian rest his head on his arm. They both turn to face each other as Wei Wuxian snuggled further into Lan Zhan curling himself and placing his head on Wangji’s chest. They let their legs tangle, trying to be as close as possible. Lan Wangji’s other free hand drapes across his waist, holding him securely to himself. Wei Wuxian can feel the warm breath of his husband on the top of his head. He shudders in delight at the closeness, enjoying the cold sandalwood scent that had surrounded him in the embrace. He can stay like this forever.

Wei Wuxian knows that Lan Zhan has probably gone back to sleep now. He sighs contentedly as he hears the steady heartbeat below him. It feels so safe and amazing that Wei Wuxian might actually cry. He loves Lan Zhan so much. He loves how he wakes up from his sleep just to hold Wei Wuxian. He shifts a bit to look up at that face of his beloved. His face is completely relaxed, his eyes closed, just like before. But now, if he looks closely, he can see a light content smile play on Wangji’s lips and Wei Wuxian’s heart bursts. Such a beautiful smile, only for him. Only with him.

“Lan Zhan,” He whispers, suddenly wanting to say something, “I love you.” Its all he can say even though he has so much he wants to say to him.

“Mn,” Lan Wangji hums after a few seconds, sleepy and groggy, “I love you too.” A small kiss is planted on his forehead and Wei Wuxian smiles broadly. No other things need to be said. This is enough between them. This is perfect. Staying like this in each other's arms.

Wei Wuxian kisses his Wangji's lips once again, before snuggling back into his chest and going into another night of peaceful sleep.

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A/N: Thank you for reading! This was my first fic for this fandom! I hope to write more for sure! Requests are also open! You can request me any pairing from the fandom! Thank you! 

[damn-shawty]

与你 (With You)

How long have you waited for?

Playing a song that I couldn’t hear

The melody you wrote for me

Was what brought me back to you

This lifelong promise that was for something more

A song I played that you could not hear

Feelings that you did not comprehend or see

A poem of wanting meant only for you

Have years gone by without your smile?

This dream I’ve woken up to

Never fails to leave me breathless

As I remember you stand by my side

Will not forget those painful words and smile

These thirty three scars I’ve gotten for protecting you

And four thousand rules remain worthless

If I cannot have you by my side

The cloud pattern that lay under my fingertips

Tells me a story only you could understand

Our reunion felt of one that of a dream

Emperor’s Smile is nothing compared to yours

You were just out of my reach, but I will not let this chance slip

I wish that we could roam together on the newly cultivated land

A life and second chance that is almost like a daydream

Yet will my dream also become yours?

Were you the one I’ve filled my memories with?

The chaos inside begins to fade into nothing

Knowing that the ribbon tied between us

It took a few moments, but I’m here now

You were the one I’ve filled my memories with

As I’ve endure these years of waiting and longing

Time has waited for neither of us

Yet you are finally here with me now

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There are many ways to read this poem. You can go back and forth each line or read each stanza how it is presented. There are two people speaking in this poem, one without italics and one with italics. It can be read as WWX/LWJ or your ship or two lovers (although the references won’t make much sense).

Took me around a month to finish this poem and find pictures I liked for it to post it on Instagram (treeveswrites)! Hope you all enjoy :)

DO NOT COPY/PASTE / STEAL / REPOST 

[erenjeagers-deactivated20171121]

im on season 3 in my supernatural rewatch and i’t  S sort of hilarious because gordon’s like “sam winchester is the antichrist and opened the devil’s gate on purpose and must be killed” and the demons are like “SAM OUR  O V E R  L O R D” and dean’s like “bobby waht if the sam i brought back from the dead isn’t my brother he’s so cold and what if he’s turning evil what if azazel was right”

and then you have the guy they’re all talking about

like im not even here to deny that sam can be chillingly boy king-ish. but he hasnt been this season at all o m  g  he’s literally been a candycane 

[sam-winchester-admiration-league]

and then Sam lost his fight with the curtain and knocked himself out.

all hail the boyking of hell…..  or not.

[reverentsam]

that really soft, gentle voice sam uses to console people who are upset, reblog if you agree

[cagetraumasam-archive]

okay, so some people think sam is “the boring brother” which is just so wild to me. like,,, his personality may not be as in-your-face as deans, but he has LOTS of personality and quirks!!! for example

diverse music taste, he’s into some pop (i think i remember there was  a thing about that in season 4), 80s “hair rock,” as well as the show’s Iconic Classic Rock songs

knows a bunch of languages? a little spanish, latin (well enough to recite an excorcism backwards???), i think i remember sumerian?, some french, enochian, a littel asl

Knows Some Arts Stuffs bc of college

also just randomly remembers things from his college classes over ten years later WTF HOWS HIS MEMORY SO GOOD

was good at creative writing in high school and probably still would be if given the opportunity 

genuinely enjoys history podcasts (he let mick listen to one bc he’d been meaning to listen to it forever in s12)

fascination with serial killers???? sam?????

strong phobia of clowns

likes farmers markets!

LITERALLY CANNOT LOOK AT A PERSON WHO IS SAD WITHOUT GETTING SAD HIMSELF THE BOY HAS HIGH EMPATHY LEVELS

wears the same type of clothes always (relatable), but can actually rock a cardigan

dreamed of marshmallow nachos as a child? iconic.

is lowkey kinda a disaster but has everyone convinced he’s the Functional One (examples of his disaster-ness: (not an exact quote) “didnt we have like half a bag of coffee left” “i killed it” and literally tries to ask a therapist what ‘catharsis’ is)

named a dog Dog once, presumably bc he didn’t want to get attached, before eventually renaming him Riot

likes soda!! THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ME. like i know he’s known for being the healthy eater and he is for sure, but also once in s2 he left a bar to go back to the motel and gets a soda from the vending machine. adorable. ALSO SMOOTHIES

likes people but is also very introverted and lowkey socially anxious (imo)

when faced with God, wanted to ask him All The Science Questions

babbles when nervous

can do yoga

sits weird on furniture all the time (again, relatable)

used to insist on doing “honest work” rather than hustling pool and whatnot

feel free to add more

in conclusion: sam isn’t boring you guys are just biased

[gen-spn]

all of these and also

makes rlly bad jokes ie: “Did I miss anything?” (2x14), “You were fRaMeD,” (11x7) “yeah,,okay.” (7x5)

when he’s actually drunk (in Playthings or Party On, Garth for example) or high (Sam, Interrupted) or fever-sick like in 8x21, he’s very a) giggly, b) honest, and c) sweet but dorky (and straightforward)

sometimes canNOT help himself and has grabby hands—like the squeezy thing, the bear with the pull string, that weird dressed-up taxidermy animal. AND THEN he turns around and tells Dean off for the same exact thing snkskjsksj 

apparently? maybe? watches law shows? (”I saw that on The Good Wife.” 7x4) 

pretends not to be judgy, but totally is about the stupid little things lmao

wanted to be exactly like his big brother when he was little and defo mimicked him ALL THE TIME

good with kids

when Dean is gone is one heckin! scary boi!

on the note of actually being the disaster brother, “ Let me tell you, whoever said Dean was the dysfunctional one, has never seen you with a sharp object in your hands.” 

when he tries to use ASL for the first time in years he confuses his signs and accidentally flips Eileen off akfldjal;kfjla what a mess ™ (prolly ONLY remembers the profanity he learned, how very human of him)

good at math/distances? like the time he figured out where dean was based on a train whistle and the train schedule?

always wants people to forgive themselves but won’t forgive himself >:(

[bluefirecas]

I have been waiting for content like this since forever.

[writingshit-ifeel]

Me listing all these points to anyone who calls Sammy boring!!

[supernaturalsongchallenge]

SUPERNATURAL SONG CHALLENGE - JUNE 2019 - ROUND 5

Welcome to the fifth round of the Supernatural Song Challenge! This is to take over the gap left in the absence of the SPN Song Creations Challenge. For this challenge, you may choose your own character! For this month, our theme is: IMAGINE DRAGONS.

TO ENTER:

Reblog this post until May 31st.

Send us an ask saying ‘participating for June + your chosen character + what you’ll be making’. (e.g. graphic, gifset, poem)

If we do not receive your ask, you will not receive a prompt.

You can follow the official challenge blog and track the tag #spnsongcc for updates, but this is not mandatory.

NEXT:

By June 2nd, we will reply to your message with ten prompts options.

The deadline for this round will be June 30th.

Tag your creation with #spnsongcc within the first five tags.

Your work should have a caption that includes a link to the challenge blog and your URL. For an example caption, check out the official blog.

If you find yourself unable to post on time, send us a message as soon as possible.

FINALLY:

Your creation will be reblogged to the official challenge blog.

There are no winners or losers, this is purely for fun!

For more information, please check out the official blog.

[writingshit-ifeel]

Some Other Day

A/N: Here is my attempt at writing a one shot based on the quote above. I wrote this about 2 years ago and felt like posting it. :) I wont be specifing any ship or names unless requested. I like to write in a nameless format unless stated otherwise. I hope you like this. You can also request me to write imagines/one-shots/series. I can write for almost everything but I am ver familiar with Supernatural and Vampire Diaries. Feel free to request me anything though… just be specific with the name! Enjoy!!

Genre: 1 teaspoon fluff with a bucket full of angst.

Pairing: Him x Reader.

Warnings: Character Death.

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They always say, actions speak louder than words. Most of the time what you do and how you behave conveys what you feel. And the phrase cant be any truer. Actions do speak very loud.

But words, they are reassurance. They give you the reassurance that what you are making of the action is right. It gives weight to what you are doing. Words, are just as important as actions.

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It was a Saturday night, you were curled up next to your amazing, darling boyfriend, as you watched a comedy movie. A popcorn sat between you both as you both laughed and munched on the delicious snacks as you watched the movie. Movies were one of your favorite things in the world, and watching it with Him made it even more special. 

As another scene came up, where the heroine tripped and fell on her butt, you both burst out laughing, looking at each other after a second. Up close he was even more handsome. His smile was the cutest and the most beautiful thing you had ever seen in your life. The way his eyes shone when he smiled as he looked at you and the way his dimples near his lips made him even more attractive made your heart flutter. 

He loved how you laughed. Your angelic voice rang through his ears making him even happier and content. It was moments like these that you both realized you love each other. But realizing and saying it is a different thing. You realise many things, many times, but saying it out loud is harder. And so, even after 2 years of dating, you both thought of saying the three magical words, some other day.

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Your back was against the kitchen counter as you watched him cook. It was his turn to cook today and all you wanted to do was watch him cook. You smiled as you looked at the concentration on his face as he chopped the onions. Eyebrows furrowed in determination as his hands moved rapidly, almost skilfully.

You heart fluttered a little when he finally looked up from the onions once he finished chopping them and gave you the brightest smile before putting them int the pan.

You wanted to say it then, how much you love this amazing man in front of you. You wanted tell him how much you loved him, but something stopped you, again. You never figured out what it was that stopped you from saying those three words aloud but, whenever they were on the tip of your tongue, it made you pause and give up with just one thought in mind; some other day. 

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“I love you.” That was the first time in 2 years he said that to you. You were on your desk working with full concentration when you felt a hand go around your shoulders. He was hugging you from the back, the chair separating his chest from your back.

The moment the words flew out of his mouth your body stiffened as your heart raced. The work in front of you was forgotten and the words he just uttered rang loudly in your head, like an alarm.

‘I Love You,’ he had never told you that before even though he showed it to you in several ways.

You knew it was him showing his love for you when he sang you to sleep even on the days he was exceptionally tired from work, just so you could sleep faster and better.

You knew it was his love when he stayed up the whole night taking care of you when you suffered from the flu.

You knew it was his love when he kissed you so gently and reassuringly whenever you were sad. Like taking away your pain slowly, layer by layer and filling you with warmth.

You knew it was his love when he lay his head in your lap and told you jokes and made funny pick up lines for you.

You knew it was his love when he ditched his plans with his best friends and took a leave from work just for you when you felt lonely and depressed.

You knew it was his love when he brought you your favorite food at the oddest of times when you were on your periods with the damn cravings and took care of you when you went through terrible cramps.

He was amazing at showing you his love. You could see it in every action of his, how much he loved you. You always knew he loved you without him telling you. You could feel it. But him saying it just made it even more real and beautiful.

And you wanted to say it back. You wanted to give him the same happiness you felt at that moment but something stopped you again. The feeling returned and it frustrated you cause you didn’t know what this feeling was. You just knew it stopped you from saying those words and left you with just one thought; Some other day.     

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“I love you.” He smiled at you as he kissed you on your forehead before pulling you close. You smiled as you snuggled into him pulling the covers around the both of you tighter.

He said it everyday now, never leaving a chance to tell you. It had already been 6 months since he first told you but you couldn’t repeat it till now. You knew it disappointed him a bit every time his words were left un-repeated but he never said anything. Maybe he knew. Just like you did maybe he knew that you love him more than he can imagine.

You envied him and how easily he seemed to be saying those words to you day by day. And God knew how much you wanted to tell those words back to him, just as easily, but the same damned feeling was back leaving the same words back in your mind; some other day.

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“Are you ever going to say it back?” This was the first time in 3 years of dating He asked you this question. As he demanded you an answer you could see the disappointment, anger and sadness swimming in his eyes. The day was going perfectly fine. You both had the perfect date. In the morning you both went shopping, had street food as lunch and a fulfilling dinner in a nice cozy restaurant. And after you returned home He kissed you on your lips and you kissed back with just as much feeling. But, between the kisses he said the words that were now familiar to him but you couldn’t seem to repeat.

“I am sorry,” your head hung low as looked down guiltily. He had every right to be disappointed, angry and sad at you. Heck you even expected him to hate you!!! And that scared you. You could bare anything but his hate. “I-I” Your voice trembled as tears threatened to fall. Tears of frustration and fear. You feared he will leave you. You were frustrated too.

How could you not say the three most beautiful words to him? Why is it that after all these years, you still hesitate? It had always been hard for you to express Love in words but after so many years of being together you just wanted to say it too.

You wanted to give Him every happiness but this one, you couldn’t. And you didn’t know why. All you knew was this damned feeling stopped you and you just couldn’t figure out what they meant.

A tear slid down your cheek and guilt took over Him. He never wanted the love of his life to cry. He was just sad cause you had never said the words he longed to hear. He knew you loved him but his heart wanted you to confirm it in words. His ears wanted to make note of your voice and tone as you said those beautiful words out loud to him. He wanted to record it in his mind and hear it again and again. But making you cry for it was never his intention.

“Shh,” He pulled you in a hug resting your head on his shoulder. “Don’t cry my love,” He said in a soothing voice as he ran his hand through your hair. “There is no rush. We have a long life ahead of us. You can tell them to me some other day.”    

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It was a month after the confrontation when two of you were on another one of your dates where you walked around the city trying to find different places to hangout. It was 8:30 in the evening when you both spotted a cozy and small restaurant for dinner. It was across the road and calling out for you both. Hunger was eating you up after spending the whole day roaming around. 

“Let’s go there,” You smiled pointing to the beautiful looking place. It had a beautiful ambiance and the outside of the restaurant just drew you to it.

“Sure love,” He smiled and took your hand in his. The lights turned green and you both started crossing the road, laughing and talking, when a loud honk was heard and you saw a big truck approaching the both of you. You were to his right the truck about to hit you first. Your mind went blank and you braced yourself to be hit but the next thing you knew you were pushed away making you fall a few steps ahead on your knees and just a second later a loud scream rang through your ears.

“NOOOOO!!!!” You screamed as you turned and scrambled to where he lay one the ground, in pain. Tears slipped down your cheeks as you hiccuped. “Why did you do it?” You sobbed. He was in pain, a lot of physical pain, but it hurt him ten times more when he saw your broken-hearted tear streaked face. He desperately wanted to wipe away the tears that flowed down your cheeks but the pain wouldn’t let him. He found himself helpless as you pleaded him to stay awake. He didn’t regret it though. He would do it all oer again. He would give his life for you, without hesitation.

“Please stay please,” You begged in a broken voice as your heat ached at his state. Sobs raked through your body as blood started flowing out the back of his head and he struggled to breathe. Tears shone in his eyes too breaking your heart even more.

The shouting people around you, some calling the ambulance, some taking photos, some trying to help just became white noise. The only thing you were focused on was the person you loved so much. Love. You still had to tell him those words. It was then you realized why you couldn’t say those words. You finally understood what you felt when you wanted to say it.

Fear. That’s what stopped you every time. Fear of losing him. Fear of parting from him. Fear of everything being a lie. Fear of falling deeper than him. Fear of everything being snatched away. And the fear was now coming true. So why was it that right now was the moment you wanted to say those words the most?

You wanted him to know how much you loved him cause maybe this would maybe be the last time you got to say it. But life was too cruel and He was too cruel. He knew you were going to say it and so fighting the pain and using the last bit of his strength he brought his finger up and put it on your lips. Shaking his head he silently asked you not to say them. And you knew why. You could read him like an open book.

He didn’t want you to say it because he wanted you to move on. He knew these were his last moments and he wanted you to forget him, make him just a memory. He didn’t want your first time saying those words be the last. That would be too selfish of him. So how much ever he wanted to hear them he stopped you. Cause if you said those words it would be harder. Even in his last moment he didn’t fail to tell you he loved you. Not through words but actions so selfless your heart ached to the point you felt nothing but pain.

And all you could do in that moment was hope that he knew you love him so much. You hoped he knew that it was your love for him when you laughed at his silliest and even not so funny jokes.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you scolded him when he was late from work and for not taking enough rest and giving himself time.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you kissed him when he was sleeping. His face so peaceful that all you wanted to do was stare at him and kiss him.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you stared at him instead of seeing the movie cause watching his expressions change was much more interesting.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you cooked him his favourite food when he came back even though you didn’t like it.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you gave him the longest hugs in the morning and didn’t allow him to get out of the bed, trying to convince him to cuddle.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you texted him in middle of the day to take you out on dates after work.

You hoped he knew that you loved him. A lot. And you hoped he knew that every single time he said I love you, you said I love you too, in your head. Your sobs were loudest and your heart ached as you watched Him struggle through his last breaths. Trying to stay awake longer just for you.

You trembled as his fingers weakly moved towards the tears on your cheeks and he attempted to wipe them away. The tears didn’t stop and you cried harder as his hands feel by his side, his body giving up.

You knew there was no hope for him and you were close to fainting. But you wanted to be awake. You wanted to be there for him. Because even though you couldn’t say the words you wanted to show it to him. So with whatever strength you had left you picked his head and kept it on your lap just the way he loved. Closing your eyes you leaned your head an kissed his beautiful lips hoping that it could say the words you always wanted to say. I love you.

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As you stood in front of his grave you realized that the some other day never came. Life wasn’t long for you both and you had missed your chance. You realized you would now never experience the joy of saying the three magical words. World was too cruel. Life was too cruel. And most of all He was too cruel. If only he didn’t encourage your thoughts and let you say those words a month ago. If only life was as long as he claimed it to be. If only you said those words. Maybe you wouldn’t be as heartbroken and forlorn as you were today. And maybe you would be in a little more peace knowing that wherever He was, he knew you loved him. But now you could only hope he knew cause your words were left unsaid.

Sometimes, you should say things, even the scary ones, cause you never know the next moment life may never give you the chance to say it, ever.

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A/N: Hope you all enjoyed! Requests are open to everyone. You can also submit your own writings! Thank you! 😄💜

[vinylackles]

the softest dad (◠‿◠✿)

[writingshit-ifeel]

Some Other Day

A/N: Here is my attempt at writing a one shot based on the quote above. I wrote this about 2 years ago and felt like posting it. :) I wont be specifing any ship or names unless requested. I like to write in a nameless format unless stated otherwise. I hope you like this. You can also request me to write imagines/one-shots/series. I can write for almost everything but I am ver familiar with Supernatural and Vampire Diaries. Feel free to request me anything though… just be specific with the name! Enjoy!!

Genre: 1 teaspoon fluff with a bucket full of angst.

Pairing: Him x Reader.

Warnings: Character Death.

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They always say, actions speak louder than words. Most of the time what you do and how you behave conveys what you feel. And the phrase cant be any truer. Actions do speak very loud.

But words, they are reassurance. They give you the reassurance that what you are making of the action is right. It gives weight to what you are doing. Words, are just as important as actions.

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It was a Saturday night, you were curled up next to your amazing, darling boyfriend, as you watched a comedy movie. A popcorn sat between you both as you both laughed and munched on the delicious snacks as you watched the movie. Movies were one of your favorite things in the world, and watching it with Him made it even more special. 

As another scene came up, where the heroine tripped and fell on her butt, you both burst out laughing, looking at each other after a second. Up close he was even more handsome. His smile was the cutest and the most beautiful thing you had ever seen in your life. The way his eyes shone when he smiled as he looked at you and the way his dimples near his lips made him even more attractive made your heart flutter. 

He loved how you laughed. Your angelic voice rang through his ears making him even happier and content. It was moments like these that you both realized you love each other. But realizing and saying it is a different thing. You realise many things, many times, but saying it out loud is harder. And so, even after 2 years of dating, you both thought of saying the three magical words, some other day.

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Your back was against the kitchen counter as you watched him cook. It was his turn to cook today and all you wanted to do was watch him cook. You smiled as you looked at the concentration on his face as he chopped the onions. Eyebrows furrowed in determination as his hands moved rapidly, almost skilfully.

You heart fluttered a little when he finally looked up from the onions once he finished chopping them and gave you the brightest smile before putting them int the pan.

You wanted to say it then, how much you love this amazing man in front of you. You wanted tell him how much you loved him, but something stopped you, again. You never figured out what it was that stopped you from saying those three words aloud but, whenever they were on the tip of your tongue, it made you pause and give up with just one thought in mind; some other day. 

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“I love you.” That was the first time in 2 years he said that to you. You were on your desk working with full concentration when you felt a hand go around your shoulders. He was hugging you from the back, the chair separating his chest from your back.

The moment the words flew out of his mouth your body stiffened as your heart raced. The work in front of you was forgotten and the words he just uttered rang loudly in your head, like an alarm.

‘I Love You,’ he had never told you that before even though he showed it to you in several ways.

You knew it was him showing his love for you when he sang you to sleep even on the days he was exceptionally tired from work, just so you could sleep faster and better.

You knew it was his love when he stayed up the whole night taking care of you when you suffered from the flu.

You knew it was his love when he kissed you so gently and reassuringly whenever you were sad. Like taking away your pain slowly, layer by layer and filling you with warmth.

You knew it was his love when he lay his head in your lap and told you jokes and made funny pick up lines for you.

You knew it was his love when he ditched his plans with his best friends and took a leave from work just for you when you felt lonely and depressed.

You knew it was his love when he brought you your favorite food at the oddest of times when you were on your periods with the damn cravings and took care of you when you went through terrible cramps.

He was amazing at showing you his love. You could see it in every action of his, how much he loved you. You always knew he loved you without him telling you. You could feel it. But him saying it just made it even more real and beautiful.

And you wanted to say it back. You wanted to give him the same happiness you felt at that moment but something stopped you again. The feeling returned and it frustrated you cause you didn’t know what this feeling was. You just knew it stopped you from saying those words and left you with just one thought; Some other day.     

***

“I love you.” He smiled at you as he kissed you on your forehead before pulling you close. You smiled as you snuggled into him pulling the covers around the both of you tighter.

He said it everyday now, never leaving a chance to tell you. It had already been 6 months since he first told you but you couldn’t repeat it till now. You knew it disappointed him a bit every time his words were left un-repeated but he never said anything. Maybe he knew. Just like you did maybe he knew that you love him more than he can imagine.

You envied him and how easily he seemed to be saying those words to you day by day. And God knew how much you wanted to tell those words back to him, just as easily, but the same damned feeling was back leaving the same words back in your mind; some other day.

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“Are you ever going to say it back?” This was the first time in 3 years of dating He asked you this question. As he demanded you an answer you could see the disappointment, anger and sadness swimming in his eyes. The day was going perfectly fine. You both had the perfect date. In the morning you both went shopping, had street food as lunch and a fulfilling dinner in a nice cozy restaurant. And after you returned home He kissed you on your lips and you kissed back with just as much feeling. But, between the kisses he said the words that were now familiar to him but you couldn’t seem to repeat.

“I am sorry,” your head hung low as looked down guiltily. He had every right to be disappointed, angry and sad at you. Heck you even expected him to hate you!!! And that scared you. You could bare anything but his hate. “I-I” Your voice trembled as tears threatened to fall. Tears of frustration and fear. You feared he will leave you. You were frustrated too.

How could you not say the three most beautiful words to him? Why is it that after all these years, you still hesitate? It had always been hard for you to express Love in words but after so many years of being together you just wanted to say it too.

You wanted to give Him every happiness but this one, you couldn’t. And you didn’t know why. All you knew was this damned feeling stopped you and you just couldn’t figure out what they meant.

A tear slid down your cheek and guilt took over Him. He never wanted the love of his life to cry. He was just sad cause you had never said the words he longed to hear. He knew you loved him but his heart wanted you to confirm it in words. His ears wanted to make note of your voice and tone as you said those beautiful words out loud to him. He wanted to record it in his mind and hear it again and again. But making you cry for it was never his intention.

“Shh,” He pulled you in a hug resting your head on his shoulder. “Don’t cry my love,” He said in a soothing voice as he ran his hand through your hair. “There is no rush. We have a long life ahead of us. You can tell them to me some other day.”    

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It was a month after the confrontation when two of you were on another one of your dates where you walked around the city trying to find different places to hangout. It was 8:30 in the evening when you both spotted a cozy and small restaurant for dinner. It was across the road and calling out for you both. Hunger was eating you up after spending the whole day roaming around. 

“Let’s go there,” You smiled pointing to the beautiful looking place. It had a beautiful ambiance and the outside of the restaurant just drew you to it.

“Sure love,” He smiled and took your hand in his. The lights turned green and you both started crossing the road, laughing and talking, when a loud honk was heard and you saw a big truck approaching the both of you. You were to his right the truck about to hit you first. Your mind went blank and you braced yourself to be hit but the next thing you knew you were pushed away making you fall a few steps ahead on your knees and just a second later a loud scream rang through your ears.

“NOOOOO!!!!” You screamed as you turned and scrambled to where he lay one the ground, in pain. Tears slipped down your cheeks as you hiccuped. “Why did you do it?” You sobbed. He was in pain, a lot of physical pain, but it hurt him ten times more when he saw your broken-hearted tear streaked face. He desperately wanted to wipe away the tears that flowed down your cheeks but the pain wouldn’t let him. He found himself helpless as you pleaded him to stay awake. He didn’t regret it though. He would do it all oer again. He would give his life for you, without hesitation.

“Please stay please,” You begged in a broken voice as your heat ached at his state. Sobs raked through your body as blood started flowing out the back of his head and he struggled to breathe. Tears shone in his eyes too breaking your heart even more.

The shouting people around you, some calling the ambulance, some taking photos, some trying to help just became white noise. The only thing you were focused on was the person you loved so much. Love. You still had to tell him those words. It was then you realized why you couldn’t say those words. You finally understood what you felt when you wanted to say it.

Fear. That’s what stopped you every time. Fear of losing him. Fear of parting from him. Fear of everything being a lie. Fear of falling deeper than him. Fear of everything being snatched away. And the fear was now coming true. So why was it that right now was the moment you wanted to say those words the most?

You wanted him to know how much you loved him cause maybe this would maybe be the last time you got to say it. But life was too cruel and He was too cruel. He knew you were going to say it and so fighting the pain and using the last bit of his strength he brought his finger up and put it on your lips. Shaking his head he silently asked you not to say them. And you knew why. You could read him like an open book.

He didn’t want you to say it because he wanted you to move on. He knew these were his last moments and he wanted you to forget him, make him just a memory. He didn’t want your first time saying those words be the last. That would be too selfish of him. So how much ever he wanted to hear them he stopped you. Cause if you said those words it would be harder. Even in his last moment he didn’t fail to tell you he loved you. Not through words but actions so selfless your heart ached to the point you felt nothing but pain.

And all you could do in that moment was hope that he knew you love him so much. You hoped he knew that it was your love for him when you laughed at his silliest and even not so funny jokes.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you scolded him when he was late from work and for not taking enough rest and giving himself time.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you kissed him when he was sleeping. His face so peaceful that all you wanted to do was stare at him and kiss him.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you stared at him instead of seeing the movie cause watching his expressions change was much more interesting.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you cooked him his favourite food when he came back even though you didn’t like it.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you gave him the longest hugs in the morning and didn’t allow him to get out of the bed, trying to convince him to cuddle.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you texted him in middle of the day to take you out on dates after work.

You hoped he knew that you loved him. A lot. And you hoped he knew that every single time he said I love you, you said I love you too, in your head. Your sobs were loudest and your heart ached as you watched Him struggle through his last breaths. Trying to stay awake longer just for you.

You trembled as his fingers weakly moved towards the tears on your cheeks and he attempted to wipe them away. The tears didn’t stop and you cried harder as his hands feel by his side, his body giving up.

You knew there was no hope for him and you were close to fainting. But you wanted to be awake. You wanted to be there for him. Because even though you couldn’t say the words you wanted to show it to him. So with whatever strength you had left you picked his head and kept it on your lap just the way he loved. Closing your eyes you leaned your head an kissed his beautiful lips hoping that it could say the words you always wanted to say. I love you.

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As you stood in front of his grave you realized that the some other day never came. Life wasn’t long for you both and you had missed your chance. You realized you would now never experience the joy of saying the three magical words. World was too cruel. Life was too cruel. And most of all He was too cruel. If only he didn’t encourage your thoughts and let you say those words a month ago. If only life was as long as he claimed it to be. If only you said those words. Maybe you wouldn’t be as heartbroken and forlorn as you were today. And maybe you would be in a little more peace knowing that wherever He was, he knew you loved him. But now you could only hope he knew cause your words were left unsaid.

Sometimes, you should say things, even the scary ones, cause you never know the next moment life may never give you the chance to say it, ever.

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Some Other Day

A/N: Here is my attempt at writing a one shot based on the quote above. I wrote this about 2 years ago and felt like posting it. :) I wont be specifing any ship or names unless requested. I like to write in a nameless format unless stated otherwise. I hope you like this. You can also request me to write imagines/one-shots/series. I can write for almost everything but I am ver familiar with Supernatural and Vampire Diaries. Feel free to request me anything though… just be specific with the name! Enjoy!!

Genre: 1 teaspoon fluff with a bucket full of angst.

Pairing: Him x Reader.

Warnings: Character Death.

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They always say, actions speak louder than words. Most of the time what you do and how you behave conveys what you feel. And the phrase cant be any truer. Actions do speak very loud.

But words, they are reassurance. They give you the reassurance that what you are making of the action is right. It gives weight to what you are doing. Words, are just as important as actions.

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It was a Saturday night, you were curled up next to your amazing, darling boyfriend, as you watched a comedy movie. A popcorn sat between you both as you both laughed and munched on the delicious snacks as you watched the movie. Movies were one of your favorite things in the world, and watching it with Him made it even more special. 

As another scene came up, where the heroine tripped and fell on her butt, you both burst out laughing, looking at each other after a second. Up close he was even more handsome. His smile was the cutest and the most beautiful thing you had ever seen in your life. The way his eyes shone when he smiled as he looked at you and the way his dimples near his lips made him even more attractive made your heart flutter. 

He loved how you laughed. Your angelic voice rang through his ears making him even happier and content. It was moments like these that you both realized you love each other. But realizing and saying it is a different thing. You realise many things, many times, but saying it out loud is harder. And so, even after 2 years of dating, you both thought of saying the three magical words, some other day.

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Your back was against the kitchen counter as you watched him cook. It was his turn to cook today and all you wanted to do was watch him cook. You smiled as you looked at the concentration on his face as he chopped the onions. Eyebrows furrowed in determination as his hands moved rapidly, almost skilfully.

You heart fluttered a little when he finally looked up from the onions once he finished chopping them and gave you the brightest smile before putting them int the pan.

You wanted to say it then, how much you love this amazing man in front of you. You wanted tell him how much you loved him, but something stopped you, again. You never figured out what it was that stopped you from saying those three words aloud but, whenever they were on the tip of your tongue, it made you pause and give up with just one thought in mind; some other day. 

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“I love you.” That was the first time in 2 years he said that to you. You were on your desk working with full concentration when you felt a hand go around your shoulders. He was hugging you from the back, the chair separating his chest from your back.

The moment the words flew out of his mouth your body stiffened as your heart raced. The work in front of you was forgotten and the words he just uttered rang loudly in your head, like an alarm.

‘I Love You,’ he had never told you that before even though he showed it to you in several ways.

You knew it was him showing his love for you when he sang you to sleep even on the days he was exceptionally tired from work, just so you could sleep faster and better.

You knew it was his love when he stayed up the whole night taking care of you when you suffered from the flu.

You knew it was his love when he kissed you so gently and reassuringly whenever you were sad. Like taking away your pain slowly, layer by layer and filling you with warmth.

You knew it was his love when he lay his head in your lap and told you jokes and made funny pick up lines for you.

You knew it was his love when he ditched his plans with his best friends and took a leave from work just for you when you felt lonely and depressed.

You knew it was his love when he brought you your favorite food at the oddest of times when you were on your periods with the damn cravings and took care of you when you went through terrible cramps.

He was amazing at showing you his love. You could see it in every action of his, how much he loved you. You always knew he loved you without him telling you. You could feel it. But him saying it just made it even more real and beautiful.

And you wanted to say it back. You wanted to give him the same happiness you felt at that moment but something stopped you again. The feeling returned and it frustrated you cause you didn’t know what this feeling was. You just knew it stopped you from saying those words and left you with just one thought; Some other day.     

***

“I love you.” He smiled at you as he kissed you on your forehead before pulling you close. You smiled as you snuggled into him pulling the covers around the both of you tighter.

He said it everyday now, never leaving a chance to tell you. It had already been 6 months since he first told you but you couldn’t repeat it till now. You knew it disappointed him a bit every time his words were left un-repeated but he never said anything. Maybe he knew. Just like you did maybe he knew that you love him more than he can imagine.

You envied him and how easily he seemed to be saying those words to you day by day. And God knew how much you wanted to tell those words back to him, just as easily, but the same damned feeling was back leaving the same words back in your mind; some other day.

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“Are you ever going to say it back?” This was the first time in 3 years of dating He asked you this question. As he demanded you an answer you could see the disappointment, anger and sadness swimming in his eyes. The day was going perfectly fine. You both had the perfect date. In the morning you both went shopping, had street food as lunch and a fulfilling dinner in a nice cozy restaurant. And after you returned home He kissed you on your lips and you kissed back with just as much feeling. But, between the kisses he said the words that were now familiar to him but you couldn’t seem to repeat.

“I am sorry,” your head hung low as looked down guiltily. He had every right to be disappointed, angry and sad at you. Heck you even expected him to hate you!!! And that scared you. You could bare anything but his hate. “I-I” Your voice trembled as tears threatened to fall. Tears of frustration and fear. You feared he will leave you. You were frustrated too.

How could you not say the three most beautiful words to him? Why is it that after all these years, you still hesitate? It had always been hard for you to express Love in words but after so many years of being together you just wanted to say it too.

You wanted to give Him every happiness but this one, you couldn’t. And you didn’t know why. All you knew was this damned feeling stopped you and you just couldn’t figure out what they meant.

A tear slid down your cheek and guilt took over Him. He never wanted the love of his life to cry. He was just sad cause you had never said the words he longed to hear. He knew you loved him but his heart wanted you to confirm it in words. His ears wanted to make note of your voice and tone as you said those beautiful words out loud to him. He wanted to record it in his mind and hear it again and again. But making you cry for it was never his intention.

“Shh,” He pulled you in a hug resting your head on his shoulder. “Don’t cry my love,” He said in a soothing voice as he ran his hand through your hair. “There is no rush. We have a long life ahead of us. You can tell them to me some other day.”    

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It was a month after the confrontation when two of you were on another one of your dates where you walked around the city trying to find different places to hangout. It was 8:30 in the evening when you both spotted a cozy and small restaurant for dinner. It was across the road and calling out for you both. Hunger was eating you up after spending the whole day roaming around. 

“Let’s go there,” You smiled pointing to the beautiful looking place. It had a beautiful ambiance and the outside of the restaurant just drew you to it.

“Sure love,” He smiled and took your hand in his. The lights turned green and you both started crossing the road, laughing and talking, when a loud honk was heard and you saw a big truck approaching the both of you. You were to his right the truck about to hit you first. Your mind went blank and you braced yourself to be hit but the next thing you knew you were pushed away making you fall a few steps ahead on your knees and just a second later a loud scream rang through your ears.

“NOOOOO!!!!” You screamed as you turned and scrambled to where he lay one the ground, in pain. Tears slipped down your cheeks as you hiccuped. “Why did you do it?” You sobbed. He was in pain, a lot of physical pain, but it hurt him ten times more when he saw your broken-hearted tear streaked face. He desperately wanted to wipe away the tears that flowed down your cheeks but the pain wouldn’t let him. He found himself helpless as you pleaded him to stay awake. He didn’t regret it though. He would do it all oer again. He would give his life for you, without hesitation.

“Please stay please,” You begged in a broken voice as your heat ached at his state. Sobs raked through your body as blood started flowing out the back of his head and he struggled to breathe. Tears shone in his eyes too breaking your heart even more.

The shouting people around you, some calling the ambulance, some taking photos, some trying to help just became white noise. The only thing you were focused on was the person you loved so much. Love. You still had to tell him those words. It was then you realized why you couldn’t say those words. You finally understood what you felt when you wanted to say it.

Fear. That’s what stopped you every time. Fear of losing him. Fear of parting from him. Fear of everything being a lie. Fear of falling deeper than him. Fear of everything being snatched away. And the fear was now coming true. So why was it that right now was the moment you wanted to say those words the most?

You wanted him to know how much you loved him cause maybe this would maybe be the last time you got to say it. But life was too cruel and He was too cruel. He knew you were going to say it and so fighting the pain and using the last bit of his strength he brought his finger up and put it on your lips. Shaking his head he silently asked you not to say them. And you knew why. You could read him like an open book.

He didn’t want you to say it because he wanted you to move on. He knew these were his last moments and he wanted you to forget him, make him just a memory. He didn’t want your first time saying those words be the last. That would be too selfish of him. So how much ever he wanted to hear them he stopped you. Cause if you said those words it would be harder. Even in his last moment he didn’t fail to tell you he loved you. Not through words but actions so selfless your heart ached to the point you felt nothing but pain.

And all you could do in that moment was hope that he knew you love him so much. You hoped he knew that it was your love for him when you laughed at his silliest and even not so funny jokes.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you scolded him when he was late from work and for not taking enough rest and giving himself time.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you kissed him when he was sleeping. His face so peaceful that all you wanted to do was stare at him and kiss him.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you stared at him instead of seeing the movie cause watching his expressions change was much more interesting.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you cooked him his favourite food when he came back even though you didn’t like it.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you gave him the longest hugs in the morning and didn’t allow him to get out of the bed, trying to convince him to cuddle.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you texted him in middle of the day to take you out on dates after work.

You hoped he knew that you loved him. A lot. And you hoped he knew that every single time he said I love you, you said I love you too, in your head. Your sobs were loudest and your heart ached as you watched Him struggle through his last breaths. Trying to stay awake longer just for you.

You trembled as his fingers weakly moved towards the tears on your cheeks and he attempted to wipe them away. The tears didn’t stop and you cried harder as his hands feel by his side, his body giving up.

You knew there was no hope for him and you were close to fainting. But you wanted to be awake. You wanted to be there for him. Because even though you couldn’t say the words you wanted to show it to him. So with whatever strength you had left you picked his head and kept it on your lap just the way he loved. Closing your eyes you leaned your head an kissed his beautiful lips hoping that it could say the words you always wanted to say. I love you.

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As you stood in front of his grave you realized that the some other day never came. Life wasn’t long for you both and you had missed your chance. You realized you would now never experience the joy of saying the three magical words. World was too cruel. Life was too cruel. And most of all He was too cruel. If only he didn’t encourage your thoughts and let you say those words a month ago. If only life was as long as he claimed it to be. If only you said those words. Maybe you wouldn’t be as heartbroken and forlorn as you were today. And maybe you would be in a little more peace knowing that wherever He was, he knew you loved him. But now you could only hope he knew cause your words were left unsaid.

Sometimes, you should say things, even the scary ones, cause you never know the next moment life may never give you the chance to say it, ever.

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Some Other Day

A/N: Here is my attempt at writing a one shot based on the quote above. I wrote this about 2 years ago and felt like posting it. :) I wont be specifing any ship or names unless requested. I like to write in a nameless format unless stated otherwise. I hope you like this. You can also request me to write imagines/one-shots/series. I can write for almost everything but I am ver familiar with Supernatural and Vampire Diaries. Feel free to request me anything though... just be specific with the name! Enjoy!!

Genre: 1 teaspoon fluff with a bucket full of angst.

Pairing: Him x Reader.

Warnings: Character Death.

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They always say, actions speak louder than words. Most of the time what you do and how you behave conveys what you feel. And the phrase cant be any truer. Actions do speak very loud.

But words, they are reassurance. They give you the reassurance that what you are making of the action is right. It gives weight to what you are doing. Words, are just as important as actions.

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It was a Saturday night, you were curled up next to your amazing, darling boyfriend, as you watched a comedy movie. A popcorn sat between you both as you both laughed and munched on the delicious snacks as you watched the movie. Movies were one of your favorite things in the world, and watching it with Him made it even more special. 

As another scene came up, where the heroine tripped and fell on her butt, you both burst out laughing, looking at each other after a second. Up close he was even more handsome. His smile was the cutest and the most beautiful thing you had ever seen in your life. The way his eyes shone when he smiled as he looked at you and the way his dimples near his lips made him even more attractive made your heart flutter. 

He loved how you laughed. Your angelic voice rang through his ears making him even happier and content. It was moments like these that you both realized you love each other. But realizing and saying it is a different thing. You realise many things, many times, but saying it out loud is harder. And so, even after 2 years of dating, you both thought of saying the three magical words, some other day.

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Your back was against the kitchen counter as you watched him cook. It was his turn to cook today and all you wanted to do was watch him cook. You smiled as you looked at the concentration on his face as he chopped the onions. Eyebrows furrowed in determination as his hands moved rapidly, almost skilfully.

You heart fluttered a little when he finally looked up from the onions once he finished chopping them and gave you the brightest smile before putting them int the pan.

You wanted to say it then, how much you love this amazing man in front of you. You wanted tell him how much you loved him, but something stopped you, again. You never figured out what it was that stopped you from saying those three words aloud but, whenever they were on the tip of your tongue, it made you pause and give up with just one thought in mind; some other day. 

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“I love you.” That was the first time in 2 years he said that to you. You were on your desk working with full concentration when you felt a hand go around your shoulders. He was hugging you from the back, the chair separating his chest from your back.

The moment the words flew out of his mouth your body stiffened as your heart raced. The work in front of you was forgotten and the words he just uttered rang loudly in your head, like an alarm.

‘I Love You,’ he had never told you that before even though he showed it to you in several ways.

You knew it was him showing his love for you when he sang you to sleep even on the days he was exceptionally tired from work, just so you could sleep faster and better.

You knew it was his love when he stayed up the whole night taking care of you when you suffered from the flu.

You knew it was his love when he kissed you so gently and reassuringly whenever you were sad. Like taking away your pain slowly, layer by layer and filling you with warmth.

You knew it was his love when he lay his head in your lap and told you jokes and made funny pick up lines for you.

You knew it was his love when he ditched his plans with his best friends and took a leave from work just for you when you felt lonely and depressed.

You knew it was his love when he brought you your favorite food at the oddest of times when you were on your periods with the damn cravings and took care of you when you went through terrible cramps.

He was amazing at showing you his love. You could see it in every action of his, how much he loved you. You always knew he loved you without him telling you. You could feel it. But him saying it just made it even more real and beautiful.

And you wanted to say it back. You wanted to give him the same happiness you felt at that moment but something stopped you again. The feeling returned and it frustrated you cause you didn’t know what this feeling was. You just knew it stopped you from saying those words and left you with just one thought; Some other day.     

***

“I love you.” He smiled at you as he kissed you on your forehead before pulling you close. You smiled as you snuggled into him pulling the covers around the both of you tighter.

He said it everyday now, never leaving a chance to tell you. It had already been 6 months since he first told you but you couldn’t repeat it till now. You knew it disappointed him a bit every time his words were left un-repeated but he never said anything. Maybe he knew. Just like you did maybe he knew that you love him more than he can imagine.

You envied him and how easily he seemed to be saying those words to you day by day. And God knew how much you wanted to tell those words back to him, just as easily, but the same damned feeling was back leaving the same words back in your mind; some other day.

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“Are you ever going to say it back?” This was the first time in 3 years of dating He asked you this question. As he demanded you an answer you could see the disappointment, anger and sadness swimming in his eyes. The day was going perfectly fine. You both had the perfect date. In the morning you both went shopping, had street food as lunch and a fulfilling dinner in a nice cozy restaurant. And after you returned home He kissed you on your lips and you kissed back with just as much feeling. But, between the kisses he said the words that were now familiar to him but you couldn’t seem to repeat.

“I am sorry,” your head hung low as looked down guiltily. He had every right to be disappointed, angry and sad at you. Heck you even expected him to hate you!!! And that scared you. You could bare anything but his hate. “I-I” Your voice trembled as tears threatened to fall. Tears of frustration and fear. You feared he will leave you. You were frustrated too.

How could you not say the three most beautiful words to him? Why is it that after all these years, you still hesitate? It had always been hard for you to express Love in words but after so many years of being together you just wanted to say it too.

You wanted to give Him every happiness but this one, you couldn’t. And you didn’t know why. All you knew was this damned feeling stopped you and you just couldn’t figure out what they meant.

A tear slid down your cheek and guilt took over Him. He never wanted the love of his life to cry. He was just sad cause you had never said the words he longed to hear. He knew you loved him but his heart wanted you to confirm it in words. His ears wanted to make note of your voice and tone as you said those beautiful words out loud to him. He wanted to record it in his mind and hear it again and again. But making you cry for it was never his intention.

“Shh,” He pulled you in a hug resting your head on his shoulder. “Don’t cry my love,” He said in a soothing voice as he ran his hand through your hair. “There is no rush. We have a long life ahead of us. You can tell them to me some other day.”    

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It was a month after the confrontation when two of you were on another one of your dates where you walked around the city trying to find different places to hangout. It was 8:30 in the evening when you both spotted a cozy and small restaurant for dinner. It was across the road and calling out for you both. Hunger was eating you up after spending the whole day roaming around. 

“Let’s go there,” You smiled pointing to the beautiful looking place. It had a beautiful ambiance and the outside of the restaurant just drew you to it.

“Sure love,” He smiled and took your hand in his. The lights turned green and you both started crossing the road, laughing and talking, when a loud honk was heard and you saw a big truck approaching the both of you. You were to his right the truck about to hit you first. Your mind went blank and you braced yourself to be hit but the next thing you knew you were pushed away making you fall a few steps ahead on your knees and just a second later a loud scream rang through your ears.

“NOOOOO!!!!” You screamed as you turned and scrambled to where he lay one the ground, in pain. Tears slipped down your cheeks as you hiccuped. “Why did you do it?” You sobbed. He was in pain, a lot of physical pain, but it hurt him ten times more when he saw your broken-hearted tear streaked face. He desperately wanted to wipe away the tears that flowed down your cheeks but the pain wouldn’t let him. He found himself helpless as you pleaded him to stay awake. He didn’t regret it though. He would do it all oer again. He would give his life for you, without hesitation.

“Please stay please,” You begged in a broken voice as your heat ached at his state. Sobs raked through your body as blood started flowing out the back of his head and he struggled to breathe. Tears shone in his eyes too breaking your heart even more.

The shouting people around you, some calling the ambulance, some taking photos, some trying to help just became white noise. The only thing you were focused on was the person you loved so much. Love. You still had to tell him those words. It was then you realized why you couldn’t say those words. You finally understood what you felt when you wanted to say it.

Fear. That’s what stopped you every time. Fear of losing him. Fear of parting from him. Fear of everything being a lie. Fear of falling deeper than him. Fear of everything being snatched away. And the fear was now coming true. So why was it that right now was the moment you wanted to say those words the most?

You wanted him to know how much you loved him cause maybe this would maybe be the last time you got to say it. But life was too cruel and He was too cruel. He knew you were going to say it and so fighting the pain and using the last bit of his strength he brought his finger up and put it on your lips. Shaking his head he silently asked you not to say them. And you knew why. You could read him like an open book.

He didn’t want you to say it because he wanted you to move on. He knew these were his last moments and he wanted you to forget him, make him just a memory. He didn’t want your first time saying those words be the last. That would be too selfish of him. So how much ever he wanted to hear them he stopped you. Cause if you said those words it would be harder. Even in his last moment he didn’t fail to tell you he loved you. Not through words but actions so selfless your heart ached to the point you felt nothing but pain.

And all you could do in that moment was hope that he knew you love him so much. You hoped he knew that it was your love for him when you laughed at his silliest and even not so funny jokes.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you scolded him when he was late from work and for not taking enough rest and giving himself time.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you kissed him when he was sleeping. His face so peaceful that all you wanted to do was stare at him and kiss him.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you stared at him instead of seeing the movie cause watching his expressions change was much more interesting.

You hoped he knew that it was your love when you cooked him his favourite food when he came back even though you didn’t like it.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you gave him the longest hugs in the morning and didn’t allow him to get out of the bed, trying to convince him to cuddle.

You hoped he knew it was your love when you texted him in middle of the day to take you out on dates after work.

You hoped he knew that you loved him. A lot. And you hoped he knew that every single time he said I love you, you said I love you too, in your head. Your sobs were loudest and your heart ached as you watched Him struggle through his last breaths. Trying to stay awake longer just for you.

You trembled as his fingers weakly moved towards the tears on your cheeks and he attempted to wipe them away. The tears didn’t stop and you cried harder as his hands feel by his side, his body giving up.

You knew there was no hope for him and you were close to fainting. But you wanted to be awake. You wanted to be there for him. Because even though you couldn’t say the words you wanted to show it to him. So with whatever strength you had left you picked his head and kept it on your lap just the way he loved. Closing your eyes you leaned your head an kissed his beautiful lips hoping that it could say the words you always wanted to say. I love you.

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As you stood in front of his grave you realized that the some other day never came. Life wasn’t long for you both and you had missed your chance. You realized you would now never experience the joy of saying the three magical words. World was too cruel. Life was too cruel. And most of all He was too cruel. If only he didn’t encourage your thoughts and let you say those words a month ago. If only life was as long as he claimed it to be. If only you said those words. Maybe you wouldn’t be as heartbroken and forlorn as you were today. And maybe you would be in a little more peace knowing that wherever He was, he knew you loved him. But now you could only hope he knew cause your words were left unsaid.

Sometimes, you should say things, even the scary ones, cause you never know the next moment life may never give you the chance to say it, ever.

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[yoonjih]

EXID + loving men very much

[foryoujikook-blog]

What if the Fake Love is our love?

This thread makes sense and my heart breaks a little. https://twitter.com/_kakon_/status/997416719646801922?s=19

Im gonna share her posts. Credits all belong to her 💜

[foryoujikook-blog]

[lolbtsaus]

Some real cute Tae moments

Is time for my bias my man my cup of tea

When he smiles and my heart is h i s

This:(((((

Never has a boy made me feel this (t h i s) soft I literally can’t even say I’d fight him bc I wouldn’t be able to even throw up some fists

How is someone so pretty so adorable and so quick to make me want to fling myself at him

A PUP WITH A PUP MY FA V OR I T EST DUO

Also other pups plz interact with him !!! plz I need it for my heart he’s such a dog stan send that boy to a dog cafe asap and watch his face light up

When he wears hoodies and I cry a lil bit

When he wears glasses and I cry a lot

This entire moment is literally to this day one of my favorite Tae moments bc look at him:(( look at my sweetest lil squishy cheeked teddy bear

Side note sleepy tae is the cutest thing

Look me in the eyes and tell me you didn’t just tear up a lil bit bc I did I teared up a lot

Look at this gif and remember he’s playing with the kiddo behind his seat and now you’re definitely crying

It me