hey.

something whatever tw: vent

[x-n-hatch]

not a single person knows me completely. I can't stop lying a little bit to everyone

[x-n-hatch]

i never self harmed with cuts because my mother would've noticed. I picked at my skin, starved myself, scratch my legs until they bled. even in this I was too scared of other people's reaction to actually do things the way I wanted to

[crystalcastleschronicles-bl-blog]

I saw Crystal Castles live last week. I was against the railing, yeah. I still have bruises. 

[x-n-hatch]

i have all the impulses, and they're so strong in my head I feel on the verge of losing control every single day. I'm also way too self aware to go all out on everything like my body tells me to. my brain is a prison. this may be another symptom of whatever my last therapist was trying to diagnose me with, but I guess we'll never know cause I'm not going anymore

[x-n-hatch]

former therapist told me that "in regards to alcohol" I have "the same thought process of an addict" so I "have to be careful and aware" I DONT WANT TO BE CAREFUL AND AWARE I WANT TO RUIN MY LIFE

[delavegaaaaa]

“You can’t fix him” I don’t wanna fix him! I wanna FUCK him! I’m a pervert not a psychologist!

[x-n-hatch]

i have all the impulses, and they're so strong in my head I feel on the verge of losing control every single day. I'm also way too self aware to go all out on everything like my body tells me to. my brain is a prison. this may be another symptom of whatever my last therapist was trying to diagnose me with, but I guess we'll never know cause I'm not going anymore

[x-n-hatch]

I would need to be about 40% less self aware to do what my brain actually wants to do

[x-n-hatch]

they want a goth girlfriend until I don't have my tits out

[unfortunatesun]

[moderndaywarriorsawyer]

The Money Tubbs only comes around every 5628 seconds. Reblog the Money Tubbs and you’ll find money!

[modelinterrupted]

Bitttchhh the last time I reblogged some bullshit like this I booked a 2k 30minute shoot lmao

[goldpersonified]

I received 2k 2 days after reblogging this 

[yellow-cat]

she yay on my yippee til i hooray

[x-n-hatch]

I do sexualize men in a way that borders on misandry, but I think it's beautiful and I should be allowed to do it after the years I've spent having it done to me

[x-n-hatch]

using physical intimacy as a placeholder for actual human connection, because people pretend to care about what you say when they want to sleep with you. if I play my cards right I can talk about Evangelion lore and it'll be foreplay

[x-n-hatch]

sometimes I think I'm exaggerating when describing myself as a weird misunderstood animal who can't communicate with the rest of the world, but then I remember about the people that told me I am exactly like Allison in the breakfast club.

[x-n-hatch]

thinking about my former classmate who told me that before getting to know me she (and I quote) "thought i was one of those crazy people, like those that rock back and forth in a corner"

[x-n-hatch]

sometimes I think I'm exaggerating when describing myself as a weird misunderstood animal who can't communicate with the rest of the world, but then I remember about the people that told me I am exactly like Allison in the breakfast club.

[x-n-hatch]

the red pill is talking and showing your personality in front of people you don't know super well so they will think you're annoying and weird and they won't like you.

the blue pill is never talking or sharing anything about your personal life in front of people you don't know super well so they will think you're secretive and weird and they won't like you.

[fairycosmos]

the issue with growing up in the 2000s and 2010s was like there was this really big push toward "accepting your weirdness" overall but they meant like idk wearing mismatched socks or something not being tangibly beyond the norm in any way shape or form

[fhauly]

repeat after me: i am a sexy bitch and no one ruins my 2014