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I’ve been termed for the third time 😀

I was thinxnic

Honestly so sick of this shit - it’s not like reporting my account is going to magically cure my eating disorder. It’s going to make it so much more difficult for me to cope with my feelings so please, stop. I will just keep on making new accounts anyways so…

Rb to help me find my mutuals <3

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‘𝗌𝗎𝖿𝖿𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗇 𝗈𝖿 𝖽𝗂𝗌𝖼𝗂𝗉𝗅𝗂𝗇𝖾 𝗈𝗋 𝗌𝗎𝖿𝖿𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗇 𝗈𝖿 𝗋𝖾𝗀𝗋𝖾𝗍.’

TW ED / MENTION OF HOSPITAL ENVIRONMENT ‼️

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A dramatised piece of writing I had to do for college based on my ED experience:

‘Tick Tick Tick Tick’

People are abundant in this suffocating space. Elderly folks nodding off, children wailing, and drunks spitting out incoherent remarks. There’s a broken clock tripping over itself on a pale sterile wall. God, the sound is deafening and yet my mind’s symphony outweighs their chorus.

I just want to go home to the comfort of my own bed. I don’t even need to be here. I’m not sick enough to warrant this visit.

Urgent, she said. Ha! Life-threateningly urgent!

Urgent my arse.

Honestly, I’m not sick. I’m just…

Someone calls my name

Shit… I didn’t expect to be called in so early, the lady at the front desk said the wait time is around 4 hours, but I managed a mere 2 1/2.

I stand up abruptly. Bad idea - the room won’t stop bobbing up and down as if i was on the fucking titanic. All I could think is “Please don’t faint, that would be so mortifying”. I can feel the concerned and slightly jealous stares following my back as I leave the waiting room.

I’m fine. Not sick. And yet I have to now somehow explain the reason I’m there.

A tired doctor motions me to sit in front of him, he’s obviously sick of his job, sick of patients, and working night shifts. He uninterestingly listens to my bumblingly idiotic attempt in explaining the situation.

“To be honest I really don’t have expertise in this area, I’ll have to refer you to one of my colleagues”

Shit.

My heart rate immediately rises, to the point of feeling it in my throat.

A nice lady, whose face I can’t really recall listens intently to my retelling of why I’m there.

I’m stripped, measured, hooked up to an ECG, and I then I wait patiently to hear when I can go home.

I left that hospital 2 months later. And almost 2 times heavier.

kikikoko234

in theory, loosing weight is so easy, you just have to skip meals and wait. But i have a brain with a survival modus and thats the whole problem -_-

Losing weight is really just a game of…

Waiting

Patience

Persistence

if you’re willing to embrace these factors and keep up the calorie deficit, the results WILL come. You just have to be mentally strong enough until then.

It’s a mental challenge, not a physical one