Sweetest Taboo 💋

A gallery of glimpses, a whisper between worlds. Shadows and light, echoes of something half-remembered. Read between the lines—if you can.

[phaeon]

Dream Collection by John Galliano for Christian Dior Spring Summer 1998

[xxsweetesttabboo]

LUST

I sense the hunger in your eyes

You'll make me a fiend for you.

My eyes match yours with greed.

Your name unknown

Your body I need.

You and I?

Our energies should collide

In me, is where you should reside.

On top of you/ I ride

Orchestrating grunts and sighs

You gripping on my thighs

As we whisper to each other lies

Sweet little nothings

When we rise

On the bed they still lie

These are the truths

Communicated through eyes

From our bodies the heat arises

Temptation on the mind

I desire your flesh on top of mine

One night is fine

We can go back to our lives

This night I'm yours

I can taste your lips on mine

Your hands travelling down my spine

Kisses from my face to you know where

Kisses on top of underwear

Fingers rub on clits

Preparing to open my slit

Rubbing us together before you enter

Your soul my body recenters

Sparks fly when you put it in

We are laying in sin

However the fun has just begun

This is just round one

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Luvr Girl Eargasms

This is no ordinary love

This night we get it right.

Conquering your heart is my desire.

For you’re the only one I admire.

I dream of you in my sleep.

When you leave my heart weeps.

When together we merge heartbeats.

The sun whispers to me

Telling me of all the secrets

The moon has told of the gifts you give me

The wolves whistle with joy

The love we make isn't just noise

I'm your girl and you’re my boy.

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Soul Cries

Lying deep within,

A darkness contends.

There’s sorrow.

It’s the death of many tomorrows.

Escaping the abyss is one alarming wound.

Guttural cries beseeching the Lord,

Imploring not to be ignored—

Not a knock, but a pound

At the Big Man’s door.

The tears are plenty,

Filling oceans and rivers

As if they were empty.

An abyss swallows a person whole,

Leaving only a sound:

A cry from their soul.

Present in the body alone,

For the spirit has gone.

Blank stares, nothing inside,

But suffocating sadness—

A hollow shell where spirit resides.

Spirit urges the body

To leave and join its side.

But the body is strong,

While the spirit begs,

The body chooses to strive,

Humming along to hit a stride.

Anticipating lights

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Through stillness and movement,

I observe you.

The camera clicks, savoring

every piece of you.

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A Broken Jubilee

I can tell you tales of me

They may not make me so sweet

When I came across you

I just wanted you to admire me

Be infatuated with the love inside of me

On the surface?

So simple and sweet

Deceptive layout

Ik bc that's not the inner workings of me

Truthfully, I'm a maze

But when you put me on to new things

I'm amazed

My eyes take you in gratefully

It also breaks my heart

Because I know

My eyes have asked my brain

To place you in heights that are greater than me

I think I'm a witch

I feel you intuitively

I feel safest when you smile

I know you're happy with me

Unknowingly, Unfortunately

My eyes caused my heart to betray me

I'm trading respect for your approval

Crazy? I know

But if you, I can win

I can unlock this cage I'm in

Which enraged me

I'm fighting for the peace

Nobody gave to me

I'm looking you in your eyes

They show hate for me

I'm anxious inside

With the changes between the eyes

Trying to win you back

I can't walk away from you

When you need your fix, Why pretend?

There's no love and no care for me

You pretend, but your body gives you away

It's like a punch to the soul

Like a plunge to The chest

Our eyes twinkle no longer

Mine are sullen

Replaced with shame

And you?

You roll yours

Ready to leave

Ready to walk away

Another crazy bitch

Another story

You can run tell your friends

Another crazy bitch

That you enjoy fucking

Another bitch

Not worth your loving

Another bitch

Whose calls you screen

When I look you in your eyes, I see it

I'm the one that's trying to defeat it

I overstayed my stay

So you took that to mean run your game

I didn't have any worth back then

Fucking didn't change your mind

Could've fucked a hundred ways

A hundred damn times

Even good sex

Couldn't sway your mind

I hate to look in the mirror

Cause I swear every time

I tear myself down

Think your love is going to another

Delusions in my mind

When I look at you

I only see figments of her

How do you smile?

Does that twinkle remain?

Feeling like I lost

Wondering if she gained

Let me tell you a secret

That pedestal that I put you on

It isn't even stable at all

The ground hungrily awaits your fall

You thought you deserved my praise

Nigga you thought it

My self-respect

You thought you obtained

I never had it to lose

You ain't never think…

I grow tired of you

I been standing here

I was riding for you

I gave you love

Hoping that’d inspire you

I fucking listened

To the cries

The hurt inside of you

In return

You asked for me to be quiet

So you

Could heal all wounds inside of you

Pain?

You've dealt yours

and in the pain, I stand

Filled from anxiety within

Relationship?

the equivalent of sinking sand

That's how I felt

When you no longer gripped my hand

So if it's pain that you deal

Baby, sit back and receive

As a cater to you

Let me show my gratitude

As I unleash this pain

Imma serve this shit on platters too

For every dagger you threw

Watch me pull them out

And stab you, too

Let me show my dissatisfaction, too

Your presence repulses me

Mad at you?

Motherfucker I'm not even gonna glance at you

Why smile?

Especially when your topic of discussion.

I shrivel when you touch me

Let's not even get into the way you eat

It fucking disgusts me

Lol. Now I do too much?

It's cool when you do it

But when I…

You wanna scream

You wanna cry

You wanna start a fucking movement

That return on the pain

You can never handle

Broken and bruised up

We’re bogging standing with scars

Yours real. Mine useless

Not even worthy of your excuses

We part ways

Magically never seeing each other again

I still have shame

I didn't walk away

Before it began

New man?

Old patterns begin

Their always the problem

Because I never factored in

The problem

A girl broken

With no love from the beginning

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Even in curated spaces the smaller moments tell the story 💋💫

[xxsweetesttabboo]

Visions of you

Like a garden blooms,

your beauty is admired —

Across rooms.

Swift are your movements.

A flower in the wind.

Your sway an enticing sin

Yet your roots are of cement.

You never give in.

When the season is over,

I yearn for you.

I wish I had admired you longer.

My heart turns blue

When the summer is over.

It's cold now, and it's less vibrant.

No way to feel the heat when the sun isn’t shining.

The trees have died;

the environment has lost its traces of you.

Seas of white and hues of gray and blue,

Lacking the effervescence of you.

Lacking colors only you bring.

At night, the crickets don't even sing.

I miss their symphony and yours.

No song can match the intonation

of your voice.

I know you'd be here if you had a choice.

I put up with winter,

In hopes to see you in bloom.

Anticipating May or June,

I know you will come soon.

I can't be deterred.

Cause this time when you Bloom

I refuse to be disturbed.

This time, I'll hang on to your words.

I'll hover like a honey bee

Just to have you spend more time with me.

I'd memorize your colors

they were more buoyant than others.

Your a natural of course

No need to fuss and fight.

Your beauty is mesmerizing and bright.

Your stems shot up to reach the light.

It only makes sense for you to disappear

When the sun rays can’t quite reach here.

the atmosphere transitions from happiness —

to tears.

You don’t quite leave or die.

You take your party underground.

Slumbering and soaking up nutrients

To prepare to burst out of the ground.

Until that day I’ll wait around. 💫