Deafening silence
board games are the most therapeutic thing to me because they reinforce me to wait my turn. im so ready to do my next turn and im pretty sure what youre going to do already i have to basically punch me in the mouth to just enjoy the process. i used to be OBSESSED with winning. the only reason i know sleight of hand is so i could cheat at board games. but ive recently come to the conclusion that the PLAYING of the game is more important than the victor, at least among friends.
my most toxic trait seems to be my ability to just talk and talk and listen and then just keep talking and people think im annoying when really i just want to keep on talking because i heard everything you said, processed it, and i just want more human interaction....i think fast and i type fast. i have to listen to music or read a book when we text because silences for me are deafening.








