Mika

♡ personal diary ♡

[yukimimochi]

I manifested going to Korea and it only took me around 15 hours 💗 Ill be going to Korea in 2 weeks then im going to Japan again 🥹 For a little bit of context my mum is kind of strict and my family is really poor, and my mother and I had a fight about my future. Just as I was starting to think it might be over for me, I changed my perspective and affirmed myself that I'll go to Korea and everything will work out for me. And now we've already booked flights!! 🎀

[yukimimochi]

The plane ride over will be nerve wrecking. I might cry, or smile from excitement but no matter what I do, I know ill try my hardest for a new life, the life I try so hard to grasp now. My goals aren't mere dreams, theyre my future, theyre what I think of when I wake up to the moment I fall asleep. If you cant live off passion, then what am I living off now? Some people will think im naive, others will think im brave. But no matter what other think I am, I know for sure that I, for a fact, love my future, and I plan on making my future self happy by fulfilling my forever dreams.

[yukimimochi]

One day, ill wake up. Rub my eyes, and roll out of bed. Yet unlike the days im living in today, the room won't be stale, and the mood won't be bitter. The room will be filled with decorations I like, including small things like floral patterns on plates or strawberry bowls, but it'll still feel more colourful than the tall dark blue cabinets, with nothing inside them. The house will always be to my own, and ill be able to breathe properly. No pressure, no expectations here. Just me and the little things I find joy in.