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Dear Blue Cat, Talk to me. Tell me about Lily. Or about the Ether. Or about her, a girl who likes Lily and Debussy. — Philia

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Drowning drowning drowning

I can’t ask for help while i’m underwater

Can’t you just see the struggle and understand that i need to be saved?

Please save me

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Nostlagia will be the death of me.

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I still see glimpses of you in my dreams. I wonder if that’s all i’ll ever get of you.

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Blood for love? I’ll let you drain me

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Do you guys ever just like something so much and then you imagine some pretty girls you know wearing it and it looks so much better, cooler and prettier on them that you start hating yourself more, praying and wishing to god why he didn’t make you as pretty as them?

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I’m lonely i’m so fucking lonely

How do i stop this feeling

I can’t help but feel so lonely

Please make it stop

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The year is ending,

So is my life,

There’s no change.

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Everything i feel, i feel too much

From love to hate, be it nostalgia or regret,

sadness, rage, jealousy i feel it all too well

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Why do i have a heart so full of love, when there’s no one that wants to receive it? It’s unfair

What do i do with all this love? I can’t even use it for myself…

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Technically you didn’t choose the wrong one,

You chose the version of them that you knew.

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Don’t let the loneliness drive you to do things that are bad for you.

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My heart lives in the past.

My whole life, filled with nostalgia,

yearning for a time that will never come again.

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I’m sad even when there’s nothing happening in my life right now.

I wonder if I’ve gotten so used to bad things always happening to me that when there’s nothing going on, I feel extremely depressed and more lonely than usual.

Have i found so much comfort in pain that when there’s not any, my heart is still trying to create one?

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Yearning for someone

I’m always longing for another

Someone just for myself and no other

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Despite trying my best to fill it, the void continues to grow. is there no stop to this? maybe there is but only for a short period of time, it never truly ends. it’s always lingering and waiting. Maybe the only way to escape this is death but who knows? what if through death, lies a greater emptiness with no possibilities to stop, not even for a moment? I deeply fear that this is endless.

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Hoshino drowning in Okinawa

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After years of lurking, I post