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Trigger warnings; | DDepression x SocialAD x BingeED

[ellenjakeman]

Taking meds, part 27 ‘Medication flowers’ paper flowers in soil in medicine boxes, studio wall 2015

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[yunnnz]

[7th May 2016] Met up with ‘ahma’ last Saturday, after 3 years? Long story to how we drifted and had misunderstanding towards each other. Glad to have it resolved after gathering courage few weeks ago. Anyway spent the whole day with her and all we did was… EAT. Would count it as a preparation for war? Hahaha i’ve been loaded with homework, assignments and whatnot. And even more packed schedules would be hitting me from next week onwards! Hoping for the best!

[yunnnz]

Mid-Week (2)

School started about a week ago, and we had “induction week” despite being year threes because SoE does it for every level. Was actually alright since it only lasted for three days. Skipped Tuesday because I was down with nasal infection but thankfully wasn’t major. Classes aren’t hitting me yet, due to the fact that majority of my tutorials come before lectures, so we did logistics/nothing and for biz modules we didn’t even have to attend. While IS modules on the other hand, were held for almost two full hours each, talk about first classes man. HAHAHA ohwell, hopefully I’ll get used to school, and definitely my IS classes (was literally shaking ‘cause I was so nervous tsk). Have honestly yet to convince myself about attending school but I’m just gonna hang in there till I do, since I’m not at my “limit” or anything...    

[jolly-bee-89]

[INFO] 160419 Hyunseung is officially leaving BEAST. The group will continue as a 5-piece and Hyunseung as a solo artist

Cube Entertainment’s official statement on Hyunseung’s leave from BEAST: Hello. This is Cube Entertainment. We want to thank fans who love BEAST, and at the same time, deliver a news to all. As of today, Jang Hyunseung leaves the team and Yoon Doojoon, Lee Kikwang, Yang Yoseob, Yong JunHyung, Son Dongwoon will be restructured as a 5-members group. In the future, Jang Hyunseung will concentrate on his personal music not as a Beast member, but as a solo artist. Jang Hyunseung and the five members have differing opinions in terms of music, which had resulted in changes in the team after much consultation and discussion. After given long thoughts over the issue, we have come to an agreement to Jang Hyunseung’s leave and reforming the group. Throughout these years, BEAST have worked their best to reach the common goals of both fans and BEAST’s. Because of this, this is not an easy decision made by the members and the company. 5-members BEAST is determined on releasing a new album in 2016 and to have domestic and international schedules soon. In the future, we hope that you would give your best cheers to BEAST and to Jang Hyunseung.

Trans: MrsDooB2uty

[yunnnz]

Totally saw this coming, but I can't help to be upset ㅠㅠ

[yunnnz]

Also got injeolmi bingsu since i’ve been craving for desserts, plus the weather was really sunny!🍧 Decided to give this place a try since it was near where we had lunch. Prefer my usual places but for the price it’s not bad, although the ice isn’t as fine/smooth, it melted rather quickly in our mouths so yeap!

[yunnnz]

Went to get my jjamppong fix today and it was pretty good, just that it could be even more spicy! They were generous with their seafood too, will return for their jajangmyeon next time 😋

[yunnnz]

[12th April] Wanted to get jjamppong @ beauty world but they were unexpectedly closed for vacation. Quite devastating and was heading to another Korean restaurant when i chanced upon this at timah shopping centre. Decided to settle because my friend and i were really hungry. But IT WAS A DISAPPOINTMENT it had no taste at all, just like boiled noodles despite the jajang. 😭 Won't head back ever again though my friend's tteokbokki was alright.

[yunnnz]

Had dinner @ Monster Curry!

[yunnnz]

Visited SEA Aquarium earlier today. Just some of the pictures i took. The glass used and lighting made it difficult to capture nicer pictures though. Still had lots of fun!

[yunnnz]

A gift from Tokyo. 🍵💖

[yunnnz]

Another new start,

Alright so, I’ve created a new blog (again) lmao. As I get closer to graduating from polytechnic, it hits me hard that I’m stepping into adulthood very soon. And that, scares me for the fact that my disorders are getting nowhere. Pains the people around me, which pains me even more. But I’ve been trying, very very hard so why isn’t it getting better? Anyway, when I was eleven, my form teacher suspected something ‘wrong’ and got me to see a school counselor ‘cause a friend of mine told her I slit my wrist. No idea why that happened but yes it all started from then. A year later, my dad was diagnosed with cancer; everything came tumbling down since then and I started to shut myself. Depression welcomed and embraced me that year, started from dysthymia to double depression. It has been seven long years, guessing it’ll still be a part of me even after leaving teenage years. Got to deal with social anxiety and eating disorder on the way as well, I don’t know how to look forward anymore.. Decided to blog again for various reasons but it’ll mainly be about my daily life, together with negative shits lol.