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this blog is 18+ with recurring themes of violence, horror, loss of self, monsters, general villainy, varying shades of toxic 'love', manipulation, PTSD and military themes, and more. so follow at your discretion. minors will be blocked on sight no questions asked.
as loved and butchered by olivia (moth) she/they 25+
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ah yes. me. my boyfriend from the future. and his multiple floof replicas of me.
Sorry I gotta take the next four to six business months off after getting actually physically stabbed in the heart 28 times by the opening prologue of Clair Obscur Expedition 33
*points at you all*
replies and shit tomorrow!!!!
I got so many replies written in my notebook during down time at work. But fuuuuuuuccccck me I need some sleep first. Shift was brutal.
we survived monday
UNSEEN WAR.
A collection of angst prompts that delve into the struggles of soldiers facing PTSD, survivor’s guilt, and the lingering scars of war. Themes of mental health, trauma, substance abuse, suicidal ideation, hypervigilance, combat, loss, identity, and alienation. Feel free to add your own edits as wanted or needed.
" I keep his picture in my wallet, like it’s gonna bring him back. "
" We were all just kids playing soldier, and now we’re men with scars. "
" They trained me to fight wars, but no one trained me to live after. "
" I'm not a fuckin' hero...I'm just a guy who got out alive. "
" Doc can take his fuckin' PTSD diagnosis and shove it up his ass. It’s just me trying to remember how to survive in this goddamn world. "
" We joked about not making it, but it was just that...a joke. Until it wasn’t."
" You ever wake up and think, 'Fuck, why didn’t that last bullet hit me instead?' 'Cause I sure do. Every single night. "
" They called it collateral damage. Like it wasn’t somebody’s damn family! "
" Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. I can’t keep doing this. "
" I miss home, but y'know what? Can’t even remember what home feels like anymore. "
" The worst part isn’t what we did; it’s how normal this shit is starting to feel. "
" Don’t fuckin' tell me to ‘man up.’ You weren’t there! You didn't see what I did! "
" Sometimes I wonder if it would’ve been better if I hadn’t made it back. "
" They said we’re heroes, but I don’t feel like one. Heroes don’t do what we’ve done. "
" There's nothing wrong with me. I'm fine, I don't need help. "
" Even back in society, when I look in the mirror, I still see myself in uniform; covered in sweat, dirt, blood, gunpower. I don't think I ever truly came back home. "
" Goddamn it, I told you to keep your fuckin' head down! The hell were you thinkin'!? "
" You can’t fix me, so stop fuckin' trying to. "
" If I have to fold one more goddamn flag for a funeral, I’m gonna lose it."
" We didn’t join up to be heroes. We just didn’t know what the fuck else to do. "
" Fuck. I shouldn’t have told him it was clear. It wasn’t clear. "
" They keep saying it wasn’t our fault, but it sure as hell feels like it. "
" Sometimes I forget why we were even there in the first place. "
" I’m tired of waking up every day wishing I hadn’t. "
" We’re not soldiers anymore. Now we’re just survivors. "
" I don’t pray anymore. Not after everything we saw. God can't save me from that shit. "
" You can’t just ‘leave it behind.’ It follows you. Every damn step of the way. It just—it just never fuckin' stops. "
" I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore, man. "
" He didn’t even scream. Just… lights out, done. Like that. "
" No amount of patches and medals will bring back what I lost over there."
" What the fuck was it all for? "
" I see that goddamned convoy goin' up in flames every time I close my eyes. "
" The meds don’t do shit except make me feel like a zombie. "
" We laugh, we joke, but deep down we’re all just broken toys. "
" Every time I hear a car backfire, I’m diving for cover like a goddamned idiot. "
" They gave me a medal but not a reason to fucking live."
" Do you remember his face? His fuckin' face when he realized he wasn’t gonna make it? "
" I can't walk into a crowded room without sizin' up exits like I'm still in enemy territory. "
" We all came home in pieces. Some of us just hid it better than others. "
" Don’t fuckin' touch me. You don't know what hands can do when they’re scared. "
" The shit they don’t tell you about surviving is how heavy the guilt feels. "
" It’s just a patch of dirt to everyone else, but to me, it’s where I buried my best friend. "
" Stop asking me to talk about it. Talking doesn’t fix what’s broken. "
" One more person says, 'Thank you for your service,' I'm gonna lose it. "
" They say it gets easier, but all I’ve done is get better at pretending. "
" I don’t miss the war, but I miss the people I fought it with. "
" I feel like I’m on patrol even in the grocery store, scanning for threats. "
" You know what the hardest part is? Knowing they died for nothing. "
" They say ‘thank you for your service,’ and I just want to scream. "
" Sometimes, I wish I’d stayed in. At least I knew who I was then. "
" You don't get to tell me what I saw out there, alright? You weren’t the one dragging what was left of him back to base! "
" Another goddamn name on the memorial wall, yeah, that’s what this mission fuckin' accomplished! "
" Don't give me that 'chain of command' bullshit. You knew it was a suicide run, and you sent us anyway! "
" Get your hands off me! I said I’m fine, stop treating me like I’m fuckin' broken! "
" You wanna keep yelling, or are you finally gonna admit you fucked up back there? "
" We’re soldiers, not fuckin' machines. How the hell do you not understand that after all these years? "
" I can still hear their screams. Every goddamn night. Do you think I sleep like this because I want to? "
" Stop telling me to 'let it go!' You didn’t watch him bleed out while begging for his mother! "
" I lost another one today, and all you can say is ‘it happens’? Fuck you! "
" What do you want me to say? That I don’t miss them? That I don’t hate myself for living? "
" You keep saying ‘it’s over,’ but it’s not over when it’s in my fuckin' head 24/7! "
" It wasn’t heroism, alright? I didn’t want to die. I didn’t want to live. I just wanted it to fuckin' end. "
" You think I signed up for this shit? No one signs up for nightmares that won’t go away! "
" I froze out there. I just… froze. And now he’s gone because I couldn’t move. "
" You call it a mission. I call it a slaughter. Tell me where the hell the difference is. "
" Don’t you dare say it’s ‘just part of the job.’ That was someone’s fuckin' life! "
" You really think any of this ‘therapy’ bullshit will bring them back? 'Cause it won't, asshole! "
" You don’t come back from war; you just bring it home with you. "
"If one more person tells me to ‘move on,’ I swear to God I’m gonna lose it. "
" Shut the fuck up, I can't handle your sunshine shit right now. "
" You ever think about how we’re all just disposable? "
" My hands won’t stop shaking. "
" I don’t need your pity, I need another goddamn drink. "
" It’s not PTSD. It's just me. I’m fucked up, plain and simple. "
" Fuckin' civvies don’t understand a goddamn thing we’ve been through. "
" They want me to talk about it, but how do you put hell into words? "
" I hate myself for making it back alive. "
" Don’t give me that 'brotherhood' bullshit! Where was that when you let them ambush us? "
" Put the gun down, man. Please. We’ve lost enough already. "
" You’re right; I’m angry. I’m angry because I’ve had to bury too many good men because of your decisions. "
" Don't act like you care now. "
" The blood never washes off, does it? It just spreads around until you’re drowning in it. "
" You call me weak, but at least I’m not afraid to feel something! "
" I told you not to bring that up, so why the hell are you making me relive it now? "
" Stop saying it's going to be okay! It's not, and it never fuckin' will be. "
" I don't need therapy, I need a fuckin' drink. "
" You see a fun fireworks display, I see flares 'n mortars tearing us apart. "
" I can't even look at my kids without wondering if they'd be better off without me. "
" I used to takin' long drives at night, but now I can't even get behind the wheel without feeling like we're about to hit an IED. "
" Every time I close my eyes, I see him...my best friend, blown to pieces. "
" Yeah, I take the pills and wash 'em down with vodka, what of it? "
" I didn't sign up for this life; I signed up for a job, and now I can't get out. "
" You want me to talk about it? Alright, fine. Let's talk about how I watched my buddies burn alive. "
" The VA? Yeah, they've got a line for everything. Too bad it never leads to real help. "
" Do you have any idea what it's like to be terrified of your own goddamn mind? "
🎧 - Quincy
⩇⩇:⩇⩇ playlist meme ⁝ @bells-of-black-sunday
What's Up Danger - Blackway, Black Caviar
'Cause I like high chances that I might lose I like it all on the edge just like you I like tall buildings so I can leap off of em I go hard wit it no matter how dark it is I'm insane but on my toes I could keep the world balanced on my nose I had a slumber party with all my foes Now I wear them like a badge of honor all my clothes If I'm crazy I'm on my own If I'm waitin it's on my throne If I sound lazy just ignore my tone Cause I'm always gonna answer when you call my phone Like what's up Danger?
🎧 - Drifter
⩇⩇:⩇⩇ playlist meme ⁝ @bells-of-black-sunday
Playground - Bea Miller
Who told you what was down here? Come along if you wanted a peek I've seen your face around here Come alone, tell me under the table What do you seek? Welcome to the playground, follow me Tell me your nightmares and fantasies Sink into the wasteland underneath Stay for the night, I'll sell you a dream What brings you to the lost and found, dear? Won't you pull up a seat? Everybody got a price 'round here to play Make me an offer, what will it be?
🎧 - Arthur
⩇⩇:⩇⩇ playlist meme ⁝ @bells-of-black-sunday
Rusted From the Rain - Billy Talent
I stumble through the wreckage Rusted from the rain There's nothing left to salvage No one left to blame Among the broken mirrors I don't look the same I'm rusted from the rain I'm rusted from the rain Dissect me 'til my blood runs Down into the drain My bitter heart is pumping Oil into my veins I'm nothing but a tin man Don't feel any pain
A low growling sound precedes a set of very sharp teeth sinking into the muscle of Arthur's calf. Deep raspy snarling reverberates through the wolfen creature as it's large square jaws seem to saw back and forth as it shakes its head like it's trying to shake prey around.
Across the cavernous foyer of the mall a sharp high pitched whistle punches through the air as a woman rushes across the linoleum tiles. Her dark hair and alert amber colored eyes are almost similar to the wolf biting Arthur. On both of her hips and one shoulder there were similar creatures that all seemed alert with their own intelligence as they appraised the scene.
"Raksh! That's no way to treat a stranger!" the woman snaps bearing canine like teeth of her own in a snarl as she glares sternly at the creature still gnawing adamantly at Arthur's leg. Snapping her fingers and pointing to the floor next to her feet in a very obvious command, the creature, Raksh, finally parts its jaws and releases the man before slinking back to his master's side.
Floating up it takes it's place on it's master's right shoulder, grumbling with irritation the entire time and earning a disappointed click of the woman's tongue.
"Sorry, I can patch that up for you. They get a little..." Voice trailing off trying to find the word that would fit. Bored? Impatient? Uneasy?
"They get a kind of way if we don't get out very much."
⩇⩇:⩇⩇ a lil dog shenanigan ⁝ @bells-of-black-sunday
🎧 - Viktor
⩇⩇:⩇⩇ playlist meme ⁝ @bells-of-black-sunday
Break Through it All - Kellin Quinn
Don't stop we're on a mission Overdriving over all the competition Counting up the damage when it's done We can't pretend to listen Sorry if it puts you in an imposition We won't stop until the battle's won What goes around comes back around again
🎧 - Garuda
⩇⩇:⩇⩇ playlist meme ⁝ @bells-of-black-sunday
UH OH! (feat. BENEE) - Sub Urban
Like a vampire stood out in broad day Should've been wiser while picking out What you were gonna say Fool me once, that's one too many Better luck next time you've met me where's the dunce who caught you meddling? Turn around (uh-oh)
what if we explored each other’s bodies [not sex] [i open your ribcage up and start messing around in that thang]
Pretty sure that's still sex
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Shoulders are built for sinking your teeth into
𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐂𝐘, 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐎𝐋𝐃 𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒. all these sentences quotes are regarding mature sentences regarding forbidden encounters, love and feelings as well things to be spoken in the bedroom, include mentions of jealousy as well olf lovers. please change names, locations and pronouns as you see fit. suggestiveness and level of spicy varies, please beware.
Forbidden Encounters
"Every stolen glance feels like a lifetime of desire condensed into a heartbeat."
"I shouldn’t be here, yet I can’t bear to leave."
"The world fades, and all that remains is the forbidden thrill of your touch."
"Loving you in secret makes every moment feel sacred."
"Our love is a fire we’re not meant to feed, yet it burns brighter each day."
"In the shadows, where no one sees, we exist as we truly are."
"Your lips are a sin I’ll gladly repent for."
"We dance on the edge of what’s forbidden, daring it to break beneath us."
"Every whispered promise carries the weight of what we cannot have."
"The risk makes the taste of you even sweeter."
Love and Feelings
"You’ve become the melody I can’t stop humming."
"When I’m with you, the world feels as though it’s finally in focus."
"Loving you is both my greatest joy and my deepest ache."
"You’re the reason my heart beats faster, even when you’re far away."
"I never knew I could miss someone this much until you."
"Your smile is the thread that stitches together my broken parts."
"You’ve left fingerprints on my soul I’ll never scrub away."
"The space between us is heavy with the words we don’t dare say."
"Your love is both my anchor and my storm."
"In your eyes, I find both sanctuary and chaos."
Bedroom Intimacy
"You are the storm I willingly drown in."
"Every touch of yours is a map leading me to places I never knew existed."
"I want to memorize the way your skin feels beneath my fingertips."
"Your whispers ignite fires I never want to extinguish."
"Each moment with you leaves echoes that linger in my veins."
"Let me trace your every scar and call it beautiful."
"When you’re in my arms, the world feels like it’s finally standing still."
"Your voice alone could unravel me."
"In the dark, with no one watching, I am yours entirely."
"You’ve taught me that desire is both a gift and a surrender."
Jealousy and Past Lovers
"Do they haunt you the way your memory haunts me?"
"I hate that I crave something they once had."
"Do their kisses still linger in your mind when you’re with me?"
"The ghosts of your past linger in the space I want to call mine."
"You say they’re gone, yet I feel their shadow between us."
"I’d rewrite your past if it meant I could have all of you."
"Do you think of me when you hear their name?"
"They may have known your touch, but I will know your soul."
"I don’t need to be your first, but I long to be your only."
"Your past doesn’t scare me, but the idea of sharing your heart does."
Deep Emotional Connection
"You’ve shown me what it means to truly feel alive."
"When I’m with you, time becomes irrelevant."
"Your love is a storm that’s made me stronger."
"I’ve never felt as seen as I do when you look at me."
"You’ve given me courage I didn’t know I possessed."
"Being with you is like breathing for the first time."
"I’d endure every heartache again if it led me back to you."
"Your presence alone silences my chaos."
"You’ve unlocked parts of me I thought were lost forever."
"When you hold me, the world ceases to exist."
Rekindling Old Flames
"I see fragments of who we were, and it makes me yearn for what we could be."
"The fire may have died, but the embers still burn within me."
"Every memory of you feels like both a blessing and a curse."
"Can we begin again, or is the past all we have left?"
"Loving you once was not enough; I want a lifetime of chances."
"The moments we lost now feel like the only ones that mattered."
"Your absence carved a void no one else could fill."
"I never stopped loving you; I just learned to live without you."
"You’ve become the story I can’t stop telling myself."
"Even after all this time, my heart still races at the thought of you."
Unspoken Longings
"I feel your absence more keenly than I feel my own heartbeat."
"You’ll never know how many words I’ve swallowed for your sake."
"I ache to tell you the truth, but fear keeps me silent."
"The weight of unsaid words is heavier than any truth I could confess."
"Loving you in silence feels like slow suffocation."
"If only you could hear the words I scream in my mind."
"Every unsent letter is a testament to my longing for you."
"I’m trapped between wanting to love you and fearing you’ll leave."
"The words I cannot say are etched into my soul."
"In my dreams, I tell you everything I’m too afraid to say aloud."
Yearning and Vulnerability
"You’ve become the ache I can’t soothe."
"I want to be the reason you smile and the one who wipes your tears."
"The closer I get to you, the more I fear I’ll lose myself."
"Your happiness is my greatest wish, even if it costs me my own."
"You’ve seen my brokenness, yet you still choose to stay."
"My love for you feels like both freedom and captivity."
"Every time I push you away, it’s because I fear I’m not enough."
"I want to be your everything, even if I’m only allowed to be your something."
"Your love has unraveled me in ways I never thought possible."
"To love you is to risk everything, and yet I cannot resist."
Sensual Intimacy
"I love the way you make me feel when you're this close."
"You’re so irresistible; I can’t get enough of you."
"Every part of you is absolutely perfect to me."
"The way you touch me drives me wild."
"I’ve been thinking about you all day, and now I can’t hold back anymore."
"You make my heart race every time you look at me like that."
"Your scent is intoxicating; I can’t stop breathing you in."
"I love exploring every inch of your body."
"Tell me what you want—I want to make you feel amazing."
"You’re the only one who knows how to set my soul on fire like this."
"The way your skin feels against mine is heavenly."
"When you’re near me, everything else just fades away."
"You’re so beautiful when you let go like this."
"I love the way your body responds to my touch."
"You’re my favorite kind of distraction."
"There’s no place I’d rather be than here with you right now."
"Your voice is like a melody, and it keeps playing in my mind."
"You taste sweeter than I ever imagined."
"Every time you touch me, it’s like electricity coursing through me."
"Being this close to you feels like a dream I never want to wake up from."
"I want to feel you from the inside."
"Don't stop. Make me whole."
"You can come just like this, I know you do."
"Beg me for it."
"Easy, baby, doesn't that feel good?"
realizing i am essentially a god presiding over my creations. and i choose to put them in chaotic situations. anyways heres me picking one up
