diet cake

tw: weight, disordered eating spectrum. I don't wanna ruin my other blogs so I made this one.

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Good news! No longer being a wuss about food. I'm avoiding using measuring cups and measuring spoons, plus avoiding counting or even looking at calories.

How I stay fit though, is using the instinct to stop and "eyeball" the measurements. It is helping me feel both in control and totally free from restriction at the same time. This change in my eating behavior was gradual but it happened and I feel great about it!

Remember to walk DAILY and eat what you want when you want to avoid single-sitting snack binges. For sugar addicts, drinking FRUIT smoothies daily for 2 weeks will eliminate candy or sweet carb cravings. But stay consistent or they will come back with a vengeance. Stay well-fructosed and carbed up!

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Merry Christmas to my random bout of intense body shape hatred, and a happy new year to my ability to ignore it and focus on my health.

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Got through a whole 4 days eating under 1850 calories. My body got the cleanse it needed!

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How to resist eating during fasting window:

1.🌸 Meal prep. Go into the kitchen and make pancake mix, muffin mix, any kind of mix you can store in the fridge to use for the week. Overnight oats and chia-flax pudding will also do.

2.🌸 Keep drinking water. If water is boring, add zero calorie flavor syrup. If that's roo boring, blend ice and water in a blender to make a slushy or "snow cone" ice cream--- drizzle with zero calorie flavor syrup. The cold will also suppress appetite.

3.🌸 Drink tea! Remember, NO SUGAR. Great appetite suppressing teas are mint, chamomile, green tea and if not tea, then black coffee.

4. 🌸 Take a walk or do something engrossing, like play mobile games, draw, watch a movie, or do an activity that requires constant physical activity or focus.

You can do this.

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Really into pastel colors lately. Is it part of my sugar addiction?

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Accidentally under-ate, so I'm extra excited about eating tomorrow. I went for a very long walk without my wallet, so I couldn't buy anything. And also only had the mental energy to make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches before getting back to reading a super engrossing novel when I got home. If you are intermittent fasting with a 5pm fasting time, you are not allowed to eat past that time. So.... yeah. IF helps me feel very organized but I do prefer to eat. I love food.

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Feeling good can't wait to have a heap of spaghetti for dinner! If you have a leisurely activity that requires standing up for more than 2 hours, you can eat WHATEVER you want. Go eat. Eat now. Right now. Listen to me. Or I'll punish you.

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I'm only a few years away from turning 30 and still get called "sweetie" when I'm by myself in a store. I guess being mistaken for a teenager has its perks cause people are extra nice to me sometimes. This is good cause I'm sensitive and honestly when someone is even slightly mean it makes me sad for a long time.

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It's getting frustrating now. A plethora of online stores etc do not carry anything smaller than a size 14. There are so many pretty dresses that simply aren't available in my size and it sucks. I don't know if this is an american problem or what. But I'm starting to wonder what the appeal to getting thinner is when the world is not getting thinner.

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I'm reading Tiny Pretty Things and I know this isn't the goal of the book but now I really want to try the grapefruit + tea ballerina diet

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I want to hug a skinny girl pls

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Apple cider vinegar tastes disgusting but all my skin problems (acne, eczema) are clearing up out of the blue so that liquid butt in a bottle is definitely the real deal and worth the gag reflex suppression

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"Just a side and a drink."

Going out for burgers? Fries and a shake.

Chinese? Veggies and a soda.

Mexican? Chips, salsa, and horchata.

Theres no place you could go where you could just as easily order just those 2.

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This is legit

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So since my daily total right now is less than 1500 I'm just gonna eat globs of icing leftover from the cupcakes I made last week. Might as well.

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This past winter after going for a job interview I went to Trader Joe's looking for their new vegan reese's so my basket was pretty much empty and I saw this girl she was probably 15 who looked like Tumblr thinspo, I mean she had to be 00, and as soon as I even looked at her she turned away and I knew she knew that I knew. I just hope she's okay, she seemed really antsy or agitated being there :(

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Ok this is about to be a mouthful. Also I do not promote anything just sharing my story

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So a few years ago I gained some healthy weight after basically going through one of the darkest periods of my life (terrible losses, some abuse, some utter bullshhhhh) and people said things like "wow you look healthy" "oh you put on some weight?" And "niiice your butt got bigger". At the time I felt really good about it and enjoyed flaunting my curves. Then after a few years of routine and pleasantries the trainwreck of the 2018 holiday season pulled up last year.

Not only did I lose my job, home, friends (there was drama I had to cut people off and excommunicate a psycho "ex" who threatened to kill me)(also I'm fine now, and I'm lucky to be roommates with relatives) but I also developed some OCDs triggered by a relentless search for stability and control.

I ended up doing a 500-800 calories per day VLCD (which wreaked havoc on my skin but made me feel and look AMAZING) to a weight maintenance diet (nothing over 2200, generally 1100-1800). So that's where I'm at and there's nothing anyone can do to convince me to stop. Like this feels PERFECT. The restrictions are "open" and changeable within 2200.

I keep it managed and organized and I recommend anyone with Disordered Eating to keep a folder/notebook etc that makes you feel good about tracking your calories etc and allows you to scrutinize how you're going about it + makes the sense of control tangible without relying on insane results. Needless to say I'm VERY happy with my current weight but maintaining it is my new obsession and that's not gonna change.

Honestly I'm just here for the community and to exchange tips. I don't want anyone to pursue a super low VLCD there are other ways to do it so we should all just try our best to stay healthy ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡