abandon all hope

welcome to my personal hell, nah just kidding or maybe not. i guess it will depend on whether or not anyone likes it or not. bare with me though at the present i am kind of new at this.

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to the gun enthusiast who keeps reblogging my posts let me tell you something, when the uvalde school shooting happened there were armed officers at the scene who were too scared to enter the building because they were afraid they would get shot because of the type of gun he managed to get his hands on. your choice for president has been shot at 2 times already and no one thinks that at the very least putting the ban that keeps nut jobs from having guns would be a good thing? be so for real right now, putting a system in to affect that would check in on legal gun owners so that we know its safe for them to continue to own their guns is too taxing but you were trying to pass a bill that would check on the citizenship status of people voting?? come the hell on now, there is not a reason for a regular citizen to own an ar 15 or an ak 47. be up front and say it with your whole chest man you just dont care..........

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my 13 year old asked her sister the other day how she is suppose to focus on learning when people wanna shoot her in the head... she just started 7th grade.....

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so there is a lot of talk about how teenagers are too young for certain things based on the development of their brains. im not saying they are not but consider for a minute that seeing people they know riddled with bullets is probably not good for them. seeing their teachers bleeding all over the classroom floor, as they at 14 try in vain with hoodies and t-shirts to staunch the flow of blood spreading across the floor. hearing the pop that the gun makes as the person doing the shooting makes their way through the school. that shaking undeniable fear that leads to the bravest among them soiling themselves in fear their time has come. hearing the police in the building shouting clear as they go room to room, making sure it is safe. that clench in your gut when they get to the room that the kids are in and fearing that is not salvation, that is death on the other side of that door. then they open it and the first thing your teen mind sees is the gun, not the man carrying, it's the gun .terror is not the word that describes how that feels. but if you've been there i'm sure you have a word for it.

now if what i wrote is too graphic for you to read just remember every kid who has lived through one of these has seen it first hand...........

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i want you to know the fact that my 13 year old said that a misshapen clump of cells has more rights than her, really says a lot about what is happening right now.................

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so the right to life is only appropriate when it involves fetuses in the confines of the womb. got it....

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awkaward

A new Pediatrics study says gun deaths among children are at an all-time high. In Season 2, #JonStewart spoke with Okla. State Sen. Nathan Dahm on why he supports banning drag show readings to protect children but opposes regulating guns. #theproblem #gun #freespeech

so this was last year when drag queens reading books to the kids was soooooo scary. i also want to point out the quote he makes about how the government does have a responsibility in certain instances to protect children.

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Something on my mind

You knowhow someone said females are not rehabs for broken males?

Bitch neither are males. I don't care if you think he can take. If you did not like it when your step daddy threw you around as a five year old why the fuck you beatin your boyfriend? And don't give me that I'm just playing shit or I'm a girl what harm could I do. Bitch you dropped him with that swing for what? Cause you had a whim? Get outta here. Your parents neglected you as a kid, so you treat your partner like shit thinking it ain't hurting them cause they love you enough to take it? Fuck off and get help. If you are the abuser in this read my words carefully, you need help seek it. If you are abused in this I don't care what your gender is. Get out you deserve better.

Sorry not sorry but fuck we let chick's get away far to much especially if they have trauma. Where did the manual go wrong, letting them think if they went through some shit they gotta put their partner through it. Get an undamaged person and turn them into a head case with trust issues. Why cause someone did it to you? That is crazy to me......

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big political paradox

one side tells you not to have children if you can not afford them, then turns around and says don't get an abortion because that is murder, you say what do i do with the kid then you said don't have one if i can't afford one. they say put it up for adoption, so you give it to the state now that baby is being supported by the same government that said it shouldn't exist if it can not be taken care of by its parent.............

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guys and sexual assault and why we need to stop talking about how guys need to learn and say people.......

see i think that is why some people dont want to listen. but this is my opinion. because some want others to listen to the plight of one side when there are so many that need to be heard and not hurt. i dont negate the bad things that happen to females but a lot of females negate the bad things that happen to guys. i mean if no means no when a female says it why doesnt it apply to a guy. why is it not ok to perpetuate the stereo type saying that a female is consenting by how they act or dress but its completely ok to push the idea that a guy always thinks about sex there for could never not want to even if they say so? and no every one is not boys will be boys, but if a guy said that he told his girlfriend he was not into it but she kept feeling around until he was forced to go along with it no one would call it sexual coercion cause its a guy getting laid. its a dumb double standard. if you want to stand up for sexual assault victims understand how under reported this is among the male community because literally no one talks about it. this is not a black and white issue never has been. i am a female survivor of this and will speak up for both sides cause i am not doing any favors by not.

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according to statistics 1 out of every 10 rape victims are male. remember these are based on the number of reports. so just like with women this is drastically understated.

and if the him too hasthag means something other than allowing male victims to stand up with a platform to be heard ,as me too is mostly women then im going to change that. 

im a female survivor of childhood trauma, abuse, partner abuse, rape and a handful of other bad things. that being said i am tired of all the movements by  “feminists” that make it sound like no man has ever been raped, beaten, abused, or emotionally abused ever. how about we all accept humans are the problem and be offended when anyone is hurt like this?????? as if  being female is the reason this is happening and laughing at males coming out with their own trauma or belittling them and saying that is not the same. consent is consent. so maybe we just look out for each other...... both guys and lady’s huh.........

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how i feel about abortion rights. no one should be denied them and why.............

to be brutally honest I feel religion has no place in the decisions of women's matters neither do men. I don't care about the arguments about the men who want their kids the harsh fact for that is that statistically speaking there are entirely too few men who want that life. that being said why would you let a man decide what is best for you. as for the women trying to make decisions for other women. how about you actually be pro life and help the kids in foster care. or better don't cite antiquated tropes like keep your legs closed and don't have sex. and if they are going to keep the kid they could have aborted don't shame them for needing any type of assistance for having it. pro life should mean one thing and that is life matters. but no one wants to have that talk................

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check out this cover of one of the best songs in existance. played on last nights series finale.

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My opinion on Dean and Cas, Season 15, Epiosde 18

Ok, look, if you were not listening, that was a brother telling another brother he was not the overall garbage he thought he was his entire life. Now, I know Destiel fans are taking it how they want and I can be ok with that. Only if others will stop saying mean things about Dean. His best friend in the entire multiverse said "You are the world to me and the world is important to me because of you" and I saw a lot of back lash after, in regards to Dean's reaction. So, I will put it the way I put it in the comments of something I saw.

Imagine thinking your entire life you were a piece of shit. That the only possible good that ever came from you was in the acts of violence that you perpetrated in the name of a cause you were taught to believe was righteous? Imagine thinking that you were responsible for the life of your younger brother and if anything ever happened to him you were a piece of shit for letting it. Nevermind you are ten and wanted to play, not hide in the closet with a silver knife and sawed off shotgun. That you are personally responsible for the start of the first literal apocalypse ( the michael vs lucifer throw down). Because you were not even stronger than your dad.... that you became the thing forshadowed in a nightmare about what you would be if you kept down the path you fought so hard. Or that you were so empty that when the horseman responsible for the avarice of others came calling you were the only one to not succumb to it. That no matter the person or entity you were not worthy of love because love was above your grasp. seriously i could go on and on about this. but i won't i think you understand.

Now fast forward, you have a friend who has been there for you. literal thick and thin with this one. you have had a couple of blow ups but every time you come back to each other. you ask yourself if how and why because in your head you are not worth this kind of affection. they die, you die, they come back, you come back. no matter the vicious death cycle you both always found your way back to the other. but now, now you know in the words, in the tears, in the facial expression, this is the end. this is the last time you will see him in your reality or any other. he is saying he loves you and you are the best part of humanity and that you need to remember that no matter what. then a black portal opens and swallows him and the thing trying to kill you. after he shoves you to saftey leaving the same mark he left when he rescued you the first time. that is all you have left of him. that hand print on your jacket. your brother is calling to tell you that the rest of your family and friends are gone. he is looking for that brother that has always been strong never breaking. but you are on the ground a broken shell of what you once were because now you have to accept you are not a piece of garbage. that you do indeed matter, even though the person who felt this the strongest is not here anymore...............

that is what this episode was about. at least that is how i saw it. it was love pure and simple. if you saw anything else you know nothing of the complexities of human emotion nor thier intricate range............

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real love is not taking your anxiety prone girlfriend to a restraunt where there are candles and menus that she can hide under.......

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First 45 minutes of distance learning. We have five kids. We live in a small apartment. We monitor out children on the internet. So far they are having minimal issues. Some small technical difficulties but so far so good. No one is crying. But im not overly fond of the mandatory zoom meetings. Im not sure how you do zoom meeting for five kids in a house as small as the one we live in. If we have to separate the kids its going to be impossible not next to but impossible. Three of the kids have desktop computers, two have laptops. We could move one in to the kitchen but i dont know how the school feels about knives hanging on the walls. The three with desktops are sitting at the dining room. Table in a clump like on the office. Get ready for chaos 360.

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In retrospect homicidal clowns seems a lot less scary now than it did last year.

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am i wrong here?

 i asked my 8 year old if she knew what an African american was. she said no. then i asked if she knew what a black person was. she said no. then i get her school pictures back and i learn a lot of her friends are black. she will be 9 in august. and she has no idea that her friends are different from her in a way that stands out to most people. to her they are just her friends. 

what i want to know is am i wrong for not pointing out this difference to her? am i wrong for not telling her that her friends that are black are the people everyone is fighting about right now? do i burst this bubble of innocence that shows racism is most definitely taught. and if i do shatter this innocent reality of hers that exists on the playground among the tire chips and the swings what then? this is different from telling your child that the tooth fairy is not real or that Santa is in fact you or your family. am i wrong for not wanting to do that? i mean just because she may not know the difference in their races does not mean she is immune to the hate. she knows a bully when she sees one. so if her friend was being picked on she would stand up for them. i don’t want to make her feel because she is white and they are black it means anything. because to her in this moment it does not...............