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Something You Might Regret Later

Summary: Bucky was supposed to watch Yelena and Bob, to make sure their dynamic worked but more he watched, more he got jealous of Bob. It was becoming unbearable and his solution was simple: Asgardian Ale. What he did not know was only Yelena knew where it was and the affects of it.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Yelena Belova

Warnings: +18, yearning, jealousy, mentions of Bob, Bucky being a dense idiot, alcohol consumption, Asgardian ale, no one is drunk, vaginal fingering, tit sucking, vaginal sex, unprotected sex, rough sex, Yelena and Bucky speak Russian

Word Count: 4.9K

All work is mine, please do not repost or translate without my permission.

A/N: Hello! I know this ship isn't everybody's cup of tea but it's mine. And I watched Thunderbolts a little late, okay? So this is what I came up with after finishing the movie. If you like it great, thank you very much for reading it, if you don't I don't need to hear your opinion about this ship and/or Yelena's sexuality in your pov. Just scroll down and read something else please. Thank you.

+ I don't speak Russian. I tried my best to make it realistic with my nonexisting knowledge. I'm sorry if I butchered Russian. I'm open to any suggestion to make it sound better.

Everything felt a lot harder than it was supposed to be. This was supposed to be an easy task. He was just supposed to keep an eye on Bob and Yelena, to make sure their dynamic is working. So Bob wouldn’t lose control again. Yet, watching them being this close was hurting Bucky. He had no idea when it started. Probably little by little. Just like a boiling frog. He didn’t notice how much it hurt before it was too late.

The feeling was brand new. Being jealous of someone who had no idea. They are living in their own bubble, being close, sharing and balancing each other. He had no idea how much he wanted that. How much he actually needed that. To open up to someone, to be himself unapologetically. Not hiding anything. Not holding back. And the other person still wanting you after seeing every part of your darkness. He knew that was too much to ask for. Yet, there was something about Yelena that made him feel like it was possible. She made him feel seen without saying much. She looked at him like she understood. She wasn’t much of a talker but she knew exactly what to say. Even when she was sassy. She made him feel things he didn’t think he was capable of. At least not anymore.

Bucky sighed, putting his drink back. He was pretending to look at his phone while casually watching Bob and Yelena talk. He wished he could hear what they were talking about. It would be a huge breach of their privacy but he just wanted to hear what made Yelena laugh like that. Or maybe hearing them actually flirt would help him to get over this feeling. He didn’t know what to call it. Jealousy seemed too extensive. Envy? Yeah, he envied what they have and not knowing the nature of their relationship was just driving him crazy.

“I need something stronger.” He murmured to no one. He stood up and walked towards the booze cabinet without glancing over Yelena and Bob. He vaguely remembered Steve talking about the Asgardian ale Thor brought once. It was so strong that Steve actually felt buzzed after years of not being affected by alcohol. Bucky was hoping that bottle was hidden somewhere because that’s exactly what he needed. He needed to numb himself so he could sleep without overthinking once. Just once.

He opened the cabinet, looking at the bottles and trying to identify them under the dim light. He didn’t notice how much noise he was making. He didn’t have much patience and the bottles were rattling continuously. Suddenly he felt the presence of someone right next to him. He was so focused on finding that bottle that he didn’t realize Yelena was standing next to him. Her smell suddenly filled all his senses.

“What are you doing?” Oh, how much he loved the way she spoke English.

“Just looking for something.”

“I can see that.” She didn’t say anything else but the question was hanging in the air and for some reason, Bucky couldn’t ignore it like he normally does. He looked up from the place he bent over.

“Steve mentioned a bottle of ale.”

“The Asgardian one?” It surprised Bucky that she knew about it but then, it must be something people talked about a lot. An alien liquor that got you drunk with one sip. It would take him more than that but… He could see why it would be a huge topic of conversation. So, of course she knew about it.

“Yep, that one.”

“Rough night?” She sounded genuinely curious. The way she was so caring always made him want to open up to her but he didn’t want to burden her. She was already carrying a lot herself. Yet, in moments like this, he found it so hard to not be honest with her.

“Let’s just say, rough patch.” He kept looking for the bottle while answering

“It’s not there.” She sounded so casual. Bucky stopped going through the bottles and stood up.

“Where is it, then?” One eyebrow raised without intending.

“Let’s just say, somewhere Bob can’t reach.” That made sense. A lot of sense actually. He cursed himself internally for not thinking about it before. Of course they hid it. It wasn’t a normal bottle of alcohol. In the hands of Bob, it would be so much more dangerous. They had no idea how it would affect him and of course, of course Yelena thought about it. She knew it would be bad for Bob and she made sure it was somewhere safe. He felt that burning sensation in his chest again. The one he didn’t want to call jealousy. Someone thinking of you like this… He never had that. He would likely never have it and he had to make peace with that fact. He just breathed out like he was running out of patience.

“Good thinking.” He didn’t know what else to say.

“If you want a shot or two, I can help you with that.” That truly surprised him. He wasn't sure if it was because of the offer or that it was still in the tower.

*

Bucky decided to be cautious. He had no idea how strong the liquor was so he just took a sip and waited. Nearly five minutes passed, nothing happened.

“You need more than that.” Yelena finally broke the silence. She had been waiting for him to realize that on his own and take at least another sip but it didn’t happen.

They were sitting in a room together. He had no idea what this room was exactly for but Yelena explained it was designed for stronger individuals when they might get out of control. Someone like Thor, Hulk or Bob… Stronger than any other room. Sound proofed. Equiped with so much shit that made Bucky’s mind spin. So they hid the bottle here. In a safe. And that’s how they ended up in an extra secure bedroom together. Bucky stopped his mind from wandering elsewhere.

“How do you know that?”

“Because you are a super soldier.” There was something in her voice when she said super soldier but he couldn’t put his finger on it. “Even Alexei would need more than that and you are definitely stronger than him.”

Bucky raised his eyebrows. He didn’t expect her to notice or comment on that difference. He noticed it on the first day but didn’t say anything about it. It was probably because of the different serums. That was the only explanation he could come up with.

“What about John?” He couldn’t help but fish for more.

“Oh, one sip is more than enough for him.” That made him chuckle. “If I knew this would make you smile, I would’ve roasted him waaay before.”

“Why is that?” He sounded confused for some reason.

“Because you don’t smile enough.” Bucky didn’t know what to say. It was definitely true but he wouldn’t in a million years think that Yelena would notice it or at least comment on it. He reached for the shot glass and took another sip. A big one this time. Hoping he would finally feel the buzz. “Just drink it all, will you?”

“I don’t know…” Before Bucky couldn’t finish his sentence, Yelena stopped him.

“You don’t know how much it would effect you and you are trying to be cautious, I get it. One shot wouldn’t kill you. We both know that. Just let yourself enjoy things without overthinking, will you?”

“That’s…” Bucky didn’t know how to continue but Yelena did.

“That’s something you haven’t done in a long time and you deserve it.”

He looked into Yelena’s eyes, trying to figure out where all of this was coming from.

“I see how much you try every day. How deliberate you are. You don’t let yourself slip. You are too hard on yourself. Just take the shot and I promise, I won’t let anything bad happen to you.” After the look in Bucky’s eyes changed she added: “Or anyone else.”

“You might need Bob to stop me.” He said before taking the shot. He was trying to lighten the mood because what the hell was supposed to say? She was right and he was still shocked she paid that much attention.

“He seems to be the only one who can stop you.”

“He’s super strong.” Bucky admitted without much hesitation.

“Scary strong.” That made Bucky look back at her.

“You think so?” Everybody thought so but Yelena…

“Yes.” She hesitated for a second. “Yours, on the other hand, seems to be on the perfect level.”

Bucky’s eyes opened with surprise. Did she really say that?

“Are you flirting with me, Yelena?” The words shot out of his mouth. It was supposed to be private question. He was supposed to keep that to imself. Oh, the Asgardian ale…

“Finally you are catching on.” Bucky froze for a second. Yeah, he didn’t expect to say those words out loud but he definitely didn’t think he would hear this response in return.

“But what about Bob?” The question slipped out of his lips while his face move closer to hers.

“What about him?” She sounded almost dismissive.

“Won’t he…”

She completed his question. “Be hurt? Why would he?”

“You two are close.” He didn’t want to say the actual words. Not out loud.

“Yeah we are.” their gazes met and as if she finally understood what he actually meant she added: “Not like that.”

“Oh.” Something passed Bucky’s eyes. Like he was trying to consider the possibilities and all the outcomes while feeling the buzz. Like he was afraid to make a mistake and Yelena noticed that. Before Bucky could say anything, Yelena closed the distance between their faces and their lips met for the first time.

Bucky closed his eyes, trying to savor the moment he dreamed so many times. The softness of her lips wrapped him up like a warm blanket. That was something he hadn’t felt for ages. That lit something inside him. His lips started to move with purpose, with passion and he finally took the lead. He moved his hands on her face, fingers grazed over her cheeks. One of his hands moved behind her head, pushing her closer to him and Yelena moaned in return. She moved away from her seat, drawn to him like a magnet without breaking the kiss. In seconds, she was sitting on his lap and that made him moan loudly. His hands quickly moved to her ass, pulling her closer to him. They were already close and somehow it wasn’t enough. That made Yelena finally feel his boner through his pants and she moaned inside his mouth. Suddenly, Bucky grabbed her by her ass and stood up. It looked like she weighed nothing to him. He carried her to the bed without any effort but it didn’t sound like it. They were both breathing pretty heavily after that kiss. Bucky carefully put her on the bed. They were looking at each other with millions of questions in their eyes.

“Are you sure?” Bucky finally broke the silence.

“Yes, of course I am. Are you?” Yelena raised her upper body on her elbows.

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

“Because you might be drunk and I don’t wanna take advantage of you.”

That made Bucky laugh but Yelena looked pretty serious. He gave her a look and then clarified.

“I’m not drunk. A little tipsy.” Then he realized that Yelena had been drinking too. He felt so stupid not thinking that maybe she was drunk. He should’ve thought about it before things got heated. “Are you?”

“Nope. Maybe a little tipsy.” She echoed his response. Bucky smiled in return, feeling relieved.

“A little tipsy and for some reason, feeling relaxed. Like a bit too relaxed maybe.” He was saying things he normally would think twice before uttering.

“Steve didn’t tell you that?” Yelena smiled back while asking.

“Nope.” It took him a second to realize Yelena already knew that. “Wait… Is that why you offered it to me?”

“I thought you already knew.” She sounded a little defensive. Like she was caught doing something wrong. Then she admitted. “I was hoping to figure out if you are into me or not.”

A warm smile spread on Bucky’s lips. This wasn’t some random thing that happened. Not a drunk decision either. She wanted to see if he was interested in her. And the word interest wasn’t even covering how much he actually wanted her.

“I wasn’t sure if I was doing a good job hiding it.” He moved closer to her, feeling more confident now.

“Maybe. Maybe not.” She looked so small under him.

“Hmm…” Bucky was already lost in thought. He was trying to decide what to do first. There were so many choices. So many possibilities.

“Bob was sure you were jealous of him though.” Hearing his name brought him back to reality.

“Let’s not talk about him right now.” He leaned in slowly for a kiss.

“I guess he was right.” Before Bucky captured her lips, he saw the grin on her face.

“Yelena…” he murmured between kisses. It was the softest warning she has ever received.

“I guess you really are the jealous type.” She knew what she was doing. She just wanted to see him break. He was so guarded all the time. Reserved. Precise. It made him so much hotter but Yelena needed to see what was behind those walls. She wanted to see him open up a little. Witness a side of him no one has seen.

“I am. I also don’t like hearing the name of other men in the bedroom.” Of. The way he said those words made Yelena even wetter. That’s when she knew she was on the right track.

“You were fine when we were talking about Steve.” She acted coy while Bucky moved just a little bit back, to look at her eyes. “What?” Yelena asked when he didn’t say a word.

“I know what you are trying to do.” His voice was almost rough. He could see through her act but that didn’t mean she wasn’t succeeding.

“Is it working yet?” Her voice was cute yet impatient. She said it with the tiniest smile on her face. So charming and irresistible.

“What do you think?” Yelena looked at him for another second before answering.

“It seems like I might need to push you just a little bit more.” She looked directly into his eyes before daringly saying: “Bob.” Bucky’s jaw clenched and that’s all she needed to see. “Just a bit more?”.

“Don’t do something you might regret later.” She knew he wasn’t threatening her. It was a genuine warning. He thought she wouldn’t be able to handle him. He was planning to take it slow. Now, he wasn’t so sure if he could do that.

“I am not that fragile. I know I can take it.” She sounded more serious than before, just wanting to let him know that this wasn’t just a game. She knew what she wanted.

“You don’t know that.” Yelena could hear a hint of fear, hidden behind his stern voice and she just wanted to reassure him.

“I do. I have been watching you. I know what you are capable of. I also know you overthink. All the time. So I want you to let go with me.” All that sounded great. He’d love to do that if…

“Let’s not…” Yelena understood that he wasn’t going to accept it willingly. So she pushed one more time, hoping it would be enough.

“Well, Bob said…” She didn’t get to finish her sentence. Bucky suddenly grabbed her hands and pushed them together on top of her head.

“Fine!” She could see that that was his last straw. Then before letting her say a word, his lips captured hers.

His hands were all over her body, trying to discover every corner but her clothes were not letting him actually feel her. Suddenly, Bucky stopped kissing her and just tugged her top out of the way. He looked surprised just for a second because she wasn’t wearing a bra but then he just smiled lazily because it was just one less layer to remove. One less layer between his lips and her breasts. Without waiting any longer, his lips moved to her right nipple. Capturing it with his lips, tongue wrapping around it and swirling over and over again until he finally heard Yelena moan. One of his hands grabbed her left breast and massaged it roughly. His continued tongue movement finally made her back ache, making her moan even louder. That reaction encouraged him to take the next step. His flesh hand moved down on her body and slipped into her pants. His middle finger slided between her folds, gently at first but when he felt how wet she was, he dragged his finger into her core. When his middle finger entered her, her body jolted like it was electrified. He started to move his finger in and out steadily while he kept licking her right nipple. The sounds she made got louder and louder but when he finally added the second finger, she started to shake unexpectedly. That made him pause, just for a second. Just as he was about to continue what he was doing, Yelena cursed him in Russian.

“Svoloch'! Pochemu by tebe ne perestat' vyyebyvat'sya?” Bastard! Why don’t you stop fucking around? That made Bucky smile.

“Ne kapriznichay, davay-ka naberis' terpeniya!” Don’t be a brat, come on, be patient! Yelena looked surprised.

"Nu togda perestan' uzhe menya draznit'!" Well then stop teasing me already! She nearly yelled but it was rather cute.

“Khorosho.” Fine.

Bucky just continued what he was doing before. Two fingers in and out of her in a steady rhythm while his mouth went back to her nipple, teasing her. It didn’t take her long to go back to shaking uncontrollably. She moaned loudly while Bucky let her ride every last drop of her first orgasm but as she continued to make the most delicious sounds he had ever heard, Bucky realized he couldn’t wait any longer. He wanted to be inside her, as soon as possible. When she was done, he removed his fingers and licked them impatiently while she breathed heavily. Then without waiting he hastily removed her pants in one quick movement. It took her by surprise but she didn’t seem bothered by it. Then Bucky unzipped his pants while Yelena watched the gorgeous view from the bed. He threw the pants without care and came close to her without taking his shirt off.

“You forgot something.” She pointed with her eyes.

“Didn’t forget it.”

“Take it off, Bucky.” She sounded so firm all of a sudden. She knew why he wanted to keep it on and she wasn’t going to have it.

Bucky didn’t feel like fighting. So he obeyed without making her repeat herself. The t-shirt was on the floor in a second and Bucky was back being on top of her in another.

“Now, that’s better.” She said while she threw her head back a little to be able to kiss Bucky. Her hands lightly roamed on his chest and shoulder. He moved his head just a little back to prevent her from kissing him.

“Condom or no condom?”

“If you are clean, no need for a condom.”

“Good.” It was like he was holding himself back until this green light. After he got the answer he was hoping to get, his hard dick was already pressed against her entrance.

Yelena opened her legs a little more and that was enough of an invitation for Bucky. He rubbed the tip of his cock on her wetness, teasing her a little and getting ready before he made a move to fully enter her.

“Fuck!” Yelena wriggled under him. He was thinking exactly the same thing. His eyes were closed, trying to contain himself. God, it became even harder when she wrapped her legs around his torso. The wetness, the warmth and her eagerness… Everything was so overwhelming. He took a deep breath and hoped he wouldn’t embarrass himself. Then he opened his eyes and started to move.

Yelena pulled him for another kiss and he dived in. It was messier this time. Raw, wet, tongue and teeth… It was so easy to lose himself in this sensation. Feeling wanted and needed. His lips moved onto her neck, kissing, nibbing and licking while he kept moving.

“You feel so good.” He whispered into her ear. Then he kissed her earlobe, jaw and neck.

“I’m close.” Yelena whispered back. “But I need…” She paused because of a moan she couldn’t stop.

“What do you need, doll?”

“I need it harder.” Oh, he would gladly go harder but this position wasn’t allowing him.

Bucky suddenly moved back and he could read the disappointment on Yelena’s face. Maybe she thought he was edging her or showing off but that expression was soon erased on her face when Bucky flipped her over.

“On your hands and knees.” Sounded a lot like when he would give orders.

“Finally we are getting somewhere.” Yelena teased him while getting into the position.

“Lower your upper body.”

“I know how this position works, smart-ass.”

Bucky didn’t say anything, instead he grabbed her feet and pulled her closer to the edge of the bed so he’d be able to enter her easily. That seemed to impress Yelena. He moved his flesh hand onto her pussy, feeling her wetness and stimulating her clit at the same time. Then he grabbed himself and quickly reentered her.

“Akh ty..." Oh you… She couldn't finish her sentence when he started to move the way she wanted. “O Bozhe… da…” Oh, god… Yes…

Yelena speaking Russian was definitely doing something to Bucky. He didn’t know why it felt like this. Maybe it felt more raw or autentic… Like she was reverting back to her mother tongue because she couldn’t think straight anymore. He didn’t know if that was the case but it just felt like that.

Bucky continued moving fast and added force little by little. That turned Yelena into a moaning mess. Her face was buried into the sheets, hands were spread and gripping onto the sheets. Then Bucky noticed she was also moving her body with him and trying to amplify the pleasure.

“Shit…” He murmured. It really wasn’t enough for her. He grabbed onto her hips and added more force.

“Fuck, yes!” She cried out. Her moans got louder while she started to tremble. She tried to keep it down by pressing her mouth onto the bed.

“We are in a safe room, Lena, you can scream.”

“Idi v zhópu!” Screw you! Bucky laughed in response. Despite her reaction, Yelena actually stopped muffling her moans. Now he could hear her pleasure fully. “Yeshchó…” More…

“Jesus Christ…” Bucky breathed out. She wasn’t making it easy for him to hold back but what did he expect? “Sil'neye... ili bystreye?” Harder or faster?

“Both.” Yelena responded in English but then added: “Ne ostanavlivaysya… govori po-russki.” Don’t stop… keep speaking Russian.

“Pochemu? Tebya eto vozbuzhdaet?” Why? Does it arouse you? He knew the answer was yes when she moaned in a way that sounded like a cry.

“Ага.” Uh-huh. That’s all Yelena managed to say out loud. She was too busy riding out her orgasm. When she finally breathed out loudly, Bucky knew she was done coming.

“Are you okay?” He wanted to make sure he didn’t go too hard on her.

“I am… great.” She was still trying to catch her breath.

“Nu chto, gotova k sleduyushchemu raundu?” So, ready for the next round?

“Let me breathe for a second.” She said then added: “Kakoy khvastun!” What a show-off! Bucky wanted to laugh but held back. Only a big smile formed on his face. “Oh, that’s what makes you smile nowZ. Why am I even surprised?”

Bucky pulled her by the ankles, again and since she was still on her hands and knees, it wasn’t hard to bring her back to the same position.

“No, no, no.” Yelena said in a tone that screamed she had other plans.

“Yes, yes, yes.” Bucky objected. “I want to try something.”

“I thought we already tried this one.” Even though she just refused his plans verbally, she wasn’t moving away or changing the position she was in.

“I thought you said you could take more.” That did it. It convinced Yelena because damn… she was curious.

“Posmotrim.” Let’s see…

They quickly fell back to the previous rhythm. Just as Yelena was about to protest, Bucky’s flesh hand moved from behind and started to massage Yelena’s clit.

“Oh, blin!” Oh, shit! She gasped while clinging on the sheets harder. She wanted to say something but it was so hard to speak while the pleasure spread throughout her whole body. She could feel it from her head to toe. She never felt pleasure this intense in her life. The noises she made were nonsense and outright embarrassing.

“Tak priyatno, tak bezuprechno.” So good. so perfect. That made Yelena moan louder. “Davai, ya ryadom.” Go on, I'm right here.

The sound that came from Yelena would be concerning in any other context but there was no sign on her face that showed discomfort. She dropped on the bed with a scream. That’s when Bucky finally stopped. Yelena’s hand moved to her face, like she was trying to hide herself. She kept taking deep breaths while Bucky just sat on the bed, waiting for her to collect herself.

“Okay, that was not the same.” It took Bucky a second to understand that she meant the last two positions didn’t feel the same like she suspected in the beginning.

“Wanna take a break?” He asked while he leaned back on his elbows but Yelena had other plans. She quickly seated herself on his lap and looked directly into his eyes.

“Ty uzhe ustal?” Tired already? He simply looked gorgeous. His hair was a total mess, eyes were still fiery and lips were swollen.

“Ya? Nikogda ne ustayu.” Me? I never get tired. And him speaking Russian really did something to her.

“Otlichno!” Great! She raised her whole body on her knees and created space between their bodies just to grab his still-very-hard cock and align him to her entrance.

“Doll…” He tried to object.

“Prosto day mne.” Just let me. Bucky just nodded and Yelena responded with a smile. Then in a second, he was back inside her. “I want us to come together.”

“Ne nuzhno toropit'sya.” There is no need to rush.

“U nas yest’ vsyo vremya v mire. Ne nuzhno sderzhivat’sya.” We have all the time in the world. No need to hold back. She said while moving back and forth in a steady rhythm. Her tits were bouncing with every movement and it was mesmerizing Bucky. He instinctively grabbed both of them. A lot harsher than he originally intended but Yelena just moaned and that encouraged him further. He squeezed them without holding himself back. Then brought the left one into his mouth and started sucking, so hard that Yelena yelped.

“Shit, sorry.”

“Keep going.” She didn’t sound bothered but Bucky was worried.

“But…”

“I’m close to coming, James, stop holding back.” Oh, that was unexpected. Yelena calling him James… That was a first. And it just pushed him closer to the edge.

“Say that again.” He sounded so hoarse.

“Say what?” Yelena tried to understand what was working.

“My name.”

“James?”

All of a sudden his hands were on her hips, helping her move faster. “Yes.” He managed to say.

“Come on, James, come with me.” Yelena’s voice clearly showing she was on the edge of the orgasm.

“Let go.” Bucky commanded.

“Only if you let go with me.”

“Let go and I promise to follow.”

“If you…” Yelena wanted to threaten him. If he was lying to her, that wasn’t going to end well for him but she didn’t need to say that. Bucky already knew it but instead of convincing her, he just started to fuck her back. Yelena couldn’t hold it back anymore. She moaned out loud while seeing the stars and that was the undoing of Bucky. He kept fucking her back. His eyelids fluttered and his fingers dug harder into her hips. That was definitely

going to leave a mark on her but neither of them cared. Raw moans spilled from his lips while he started to see white spots because of the intense pleasure. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, his orgasm ended. Bucky tried to take a couple of deep breaths to calm himself down. That was probably the longest orgasm he ever experienced in his life. He took a couple more breaths. Yelena was still on top of him, Bucky was still inside her and they were just looking at each other, feeling pure bliss.

“Now I believe you.” Bucky was the one speaking first.

“Huh?” Yelena had no idea what he was talking about.

“You really can take it.” He said with a huge smile on his face. Yelena slapped his shoulder, hard.

"Kakóy zhe ty idiot." You really are an idiot.

“Ya tvoy durachók.” I’m your idiot.