I'm not ok

why do people even want to be around me

[zultaculu]

Hewo

about time I actually make a pinned post

Im Zulta/Vivenna/Vivie/Viv/Vee/Vi (take you're pick)

Yes I did name myself after the Warbreaker character(though I pronounce it a little differently)

Ace Demiromantic Lesbian || Genderfluid Transfem(Genderfae)

Im a bit of a kinky ace, so you might see me reblog some of that stuff

Please dont make sexual comments or jokes about me, it makes me uncomforable. Im fine with sex jokes as long as they arent about me.

age- 20

Started HRT on 03/18/2025

Pronouns - She/They

Cat wolf girl creature

Im an artist, composer, gamedev, writer, and many other nerd things

I use pikaOS as my main OS, with kde plasma on my desktop, and niri on my laptop. Home server runs Debian 13

art tag

I post random stuff here

Side blogs

@nyarch-official - linux/general tech blog

@firefox-kit - firefop

@zultadev - gamedev/programming

@owlcloningfacility - in universe blog for a side project

Website

Pronouns Page

Matrix

Last updated - May 12, 2026

[demilypyro]

See this shit is so weird. Cause I know you went to the doctor today. I know what the diagnosis and the advice was, and I know you went and bought painkillers afterward. But the actual memory of being in the doctor's office? Being in the store? Blurry as fuck. I don't remember the doctor's face.

It's like only the most important information gets transmitted. Less a memory than a witness account by someone who was there. I wasn't there.

[zultaculu]

I really want to actually finish the song im working on, but everytime I try to work on it, everything I do sounds wrong agggggggggggggggggggg

[angelbabymikaa]

hey does anyone have an extra will to live i could borrow its cool if not no worries

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

I have a will to live… just not a will to survive.

They’re very different things.

[juniper-petunia]

they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids

[pomegranateteeth]

All the people want is vampires and a direct deposit of $5000

[sardonyxlestrange]

Some last minute birthday pictures. I’m soo not used to being in front of a legitimate camera lol, I’ve gotten used to phone cameras.

I hope the nervous awkwardness isn’t apparent in my face😬

[puppygirl-hornyposting2]

[ikaros-unearthed]

reblog to give both of us bigger tits

[gendernewtral]

can we go back to acknowledging that ignoring someone’s chosen pronouns is always misgendering, even when you’re using neutral ones instead

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

"What would asexual people even need community for lol" Okay let me get this straight, you as a queer person cannot conceptualize why someone who wants and needs to live their life in a way that significantly breaks with societal norms and expectations in ways that will result in various structural barriers, alienation, isolation, judgment, invalidation and outright hostility might have a need to connect with other people like them? This is crazy talk to you?

[roguedeer]

Being asexual and racist is embarassing as fuck. Being racist at all is obviously embarassing as fuck but the amount of racism and especially antiblackness i have been seeing from asexuals recently is obscene.

One of the only asexual activists is Yasmin Benoit, a Black woman. She has raised so much awareness for the community. She was the first asexual person to lead Pride in London, she started the #thisiswhatasexuallookslike movement and is THE leading voice for the community.

And you all will celebrate international asexuality day on April 6th but we wouldn't even have that if she hadn't cofounded it.

Edit: why are you all too scared to repost this. Cmon. Be vocal about being against racism

Edit 2: if you feel the need to announce in the comments that you're not reblogging for whatever reason just know that I genuinely do not care.

But also know that I will look through your account and if I notice that youre actively a racist or you just dont reblog stuff about that I will ridicule you in a reblog. Idc idc. Not reblogging is fine but if you feel the need ti announce it youre annoying asf.

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

I think something people don't seem to get about sex repulsion is that it's not some easily definable thing? It can fluctuate. I can be repulsed by sex irl, but not by it in media. I could actively seek it out in media while also being absolutely queasy at the thought of that same thing happening irl. I can sometimes feel repulsed by it in media, and sometimes not. I can sometimes feel neutral about sex irl and sometimes be actively disgusted by it. I can enjoy casual touch but get averse when that touch becomes sexual.

I just feel like people treat sex-repulsion like it's a monolith and you need to fit into one particular slot where you're either repulsed by all things sex, or you're neutral about all things sex, or you actively enjoy all things sex. Where's the in-between? Human experiences are not so easily carved out and defined

[bitchautism]

can everyone get woke again. I miss her. I miss woke.

[bitchautism]

and by woke I mean aware of racism. the original meaning. don't do stupid bullshit here. woke = aware of racism . ok

[sheepgirlmaidtummy]

it means to stay aware of Anti Black Racism specifically, this is a term made by black people to talk about the injustices we go through, please please remember this. its anti black racism

[circusheart]

If I keep practicing I might even be a person soon

[shoujoromance]