you've got to learn how to fly.

Hi! I'm Victoria Santamaria, but I'd prefer to be called Tori, actually. It sounds much nicer I'm the smartest person since, like, Aristotle or someone and you're probably going to like me better than anyone else you've ever met because I'm really awesome! ...Where am I? Tori Santamaria | 14 | dissociative fugue (Not Tori or Alex Steele, just a roleplayer.)

[-toritilla]

Degrassi...

[zigtherockstar]

What’s wrong with you princess?

[-toritilla]

Nothing!

Well, nothing except being here again, really. I thought I'd escaped for good. Wait...

...

Zig!?

You look so... different!

[-toritilla]

Degrassi...

How... unsettlingly familiar.

[degrassiholic-blog]

[ricardoshoyos]

[sassyniners-blog]

[-toritilla]

I'm as ready as I'll ever be.

Let's go then!

[-toritilla]

How about we do both? I know a karaoke bar in the city I can take you to. We can dance while others sing or sing and watch others dance.

Yes! I'm ready as soon as you are!

[rachmar]

[-toritilla]

That's good. Is there anything specifically that you want to do?

Can we go dance or do karaoke or something!? I wanna do something I've never done before and I'm sure you've done a billion fun things I haven't, pick one!

[-toritilla]

If you want to go tonight, then we can go tonight.

Yes! Okay, I'm so excited now.

[-toritilla]

If you need to get out of here, then I don't have any other choice but to take you out. We just need to be careful is all. When do you want to leave?

Yay! I'm good with careful! Tonight, I guess? Can we go tonight?

[-toritilla]

Nothing's wrong with you, Princess. Listen, I'm not going anywhere, I promise. Okay? How about we go out, alright? You can get a breath of fresh air and away from all of this.

Bee! You'd actually go out with me!? Can we please? Thank you! I already feel a teeny bit better just knowing I'm gonna get out of here!

[-toritilla]

What do you mean?

I... I don't know. I always thought there was nothing at all wrong with me but now everyone's leaving my by myself and maybe I am just normal and messed up? It's like... I just need to get away from here and, I'm not sure... change.

[paniqingg]

[-toritilla]

Do you want to talk or something? I'd not, that's cool. Just let me know if there's anything I can do.

No. I just... I need to do something new.

[-toritilla]

You okay, Mini Me?

...Not really...

[dtconfessions-blog]

[themayaphilharmonic-blog]

Solitary isn’t avoidance, Tori. And don’t give me all that he didn’t tell you nonsense. I wouldn’t have known if I hadn’t seen him being let out! That was hardly anytime. He was so excited to see you! Not me. He didn’t say “Oh, Maya, fantastic to see you.” it was “Hey, yeah. Just got out. I can’t wait to see Tori, I’ve missed her.” I can’t help who I like, but I can help how I act. He wasn’t available to me, and he’s never been or is going to be available to me. I’m not his type. You are, and he’s crazy in love with you. I supported your relationship because it seems to be one of the things keeping either of you happy in this stupid hell hole and I’m sick of you accusing me. Especially when you kissed me and looked like a stupid drunken floozy. I’d never of done that.

[-toritilla]

You're the only person who's told me he was in solitary, Maya, so how am I supposed to acknowledge that as a fact?

Where the fuck does that play into our conversation!? Of course you wouldn't have Maya. Saint Maya, right? Why are you making a big deal of it anyway? Newsflash: It. Didn't. Mean. Anything. And I sure as hell didn't make you kiss me. I was just being a good friend instead of letting you sit around whining for the rest of the night and I sure as hell didn't instigate it either! It was so fucking chaste there's no reason for you to even still be thinking about it!

Just go, Maya. Just... stay away from me.