Any angsty Monoma headcanons?
Angst is my favourite genre
He is very self-aware of when he goes out of control about 1a. He doesn't like it at all, because he makes a fool out of himself every time, and he works in order to control these outbursts better. He started by asking Kendou to stop hitting him, just dragging him away instead.
As he has spoken seriously about this issue to his classmates and asked of them to help him find better ways of containing himself, they don't laugh nor mock him during these moments
You know saying to someone "You should go to therapy/you're completely crazy/I wonder if you disorder has a name" (looking at YOU 1A) is not nice at all ? You don't know if the person actually has issues, don't know if they actually see a therapist, so don't make fun of them !
The regular level-headed Monoma actually kind of passes out during these episodes, so he doesn't remember what happened really well, and the repercussions such as rumours and students he doesn't know giving him the nasty side glance make him feel confused and lost in school
By this point, he even uses that loud and obnoxious part of him when people start speaking about him as "that crazy dude from 1b/dark side of ua" because he really doesn't have the strength to explain all the shit going on in his head to people who he just meets and who automatically label him as crazy.
-> see with Mirio, it was clear he wasn't actually going batshit, because it is implied he calmed down on his own before really meeting Eri. This is definitely a facade, something he puts up as last line of defense between judgements and his feelings, already hurt by everything
You know that feeling in your stomach when it just---drops and it's so cold ? That's the kind of feeling he has when he meets new people, terrified of what they are gonna greet him as. Having even Eraserhead call him too mentally deficient to interact with Eri safely was the last fucking blow, he entirely gave up on his image
The worst is people looking at him in the cafeteria for example as he has normal conversations with his friends. They seem to be surprised by the natural way he moves, the way he laughs, the way he speaks. It's the only thing he has against these rumours, and he is aware; he won't put up any facade in class or with his classmates
He definitely has had a bad childhood, if you see the hints given in his backstory of a panel long. He was isolated, not even looked at by his classmates who judged him useless and didn't want their quirks stolen. He was a little nobody, and it doesn't seem his parents or family helped him at all in the matter.
Yeah I know it's only one panel but it has too much potential I mean---the panel is empty. There's just one, FACELESS kid in the middle of it. It's disturbing how Horikoshi managed to hint to a devastating loneliness and an absence of face, of personality, wearing a constant mask that wasn't his, on a metaphorical level.
Anyways I could talk about this and more theories that he's linked to Toga or All For One but we're gonna stop there because it's getting too dark -mod copycat
