Thinking about Xenagos, but I'll put it under read more (also both Theros book spoilers!)
Thinking about how he was essentially the king of satyrs and eventually ascended as a God but still felt nothing
During most of the story, he fakes most of the positive emotions but mostly only genuinely feels irritation and annoyance, and I wonder if it's because he can't feel what the others feel in the revels
Being a satyr that can't fully be into a revel has to feels ostracizing, everyone having fun and revels being the whole thing satyrs do (to the point that people from outside the valley come to join in) and you can't even loose yourself in them like the others, the satyrs also being known for being in good spirits and just generally being cheery folk, but what happens if you don't feel any of that? It has to feel awful, even if no one was actively excluding you from stuff, your brain sometimes does that for them.
and we don't quite know what happened to make his spark awaken other than he described it as a moment of weakness, was it perhaps a want to be like the others that spiraled into a breakdown after realizing that he is just simply different and cant change it during the Bakkeia, or maybe something else? (I really wish we actually got info about this) was it something to do with hearing he was supposed to be a king, destined for something great but he can't even feel the euphoria like the other satyrs?
And now he's a part of that, part of euphoria they worship and he *still* can't feel it, he's the king of revels and he's still excluded from it all
And when he ascends into godhood it seems like he still cannot feel anything at all, despite ascending through a huge party and emotions probably being at an all time high he's *still* left out of it
The only time he seems to feel (I think) is when he's being literally skewered by an arrow from a goddess that controls the valley he and all the other satyrs live in, which if he didn't use the belief system of Theros it would've killed him most likely
((Which matches his colors of gruul, live fast die
Even faster apparently)
To add on, all the gods are made from belief from the mortals and such, and also seem to reflect their emotions on the domains the gods have, like Erebos and death for example
Erebos is gloomy and tyrannical, which lines up with the plane's thoughts about death
Xenagos becomes the God of revels, and perhaps its because he's still mortal, Elspeth sees an absence of emotions, I kinda wish we got a little bit on insight to what was happening with him during that time
I wonder if he had stayed a God longer if he'd feel the euphoria that the satyrs get from the revels or if he'd be forever numb to it all (a friend of mine described it like how Hera is a goddess of marriage, yet Zeus constantly cheats on her, it feels like a mockery)
I just find him interesting, he's a funky little satyr and I got attached :'3
