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[opencascadia]

New Year's ask meme: best movies of 2042 edition

edit: apparently some of these were censored in other countries, sorry! I tried to pick movies that weren’t but some of these I didn’t even think to check

Liberators 2: Awakening: best thing that happened to you in 2042?

Covenant: worst thing that happened to you in 2042?

Moondark: best thing about 2042 that didn’t happen to you?

Voyage of the Elves: worst thing about 2042 that didn’t happen to you?

Timebound: something you’d change about this year if you could?

My Life in Glory: something you’re looking forward to next year?

Johannes: something you’re not looking forward to next year?

Wrath: something you did this year that you’re proud of?

Whisper Game: someone new you met this year who made your life better?

Dancing with Samira: something new you learned how to do this year?

Times of Bondage: something new you want to learn how to do next year?

Saturn’s Blessings: something you tried for the first time this year?

Trustkeeper: something you want to try for the first time next year? Miriam in the Valley: your new year’s resolution?

[39-lashes]

sometimes i’m jealous when jeanne is holding bee and feeding her and i don’t know why

i guess it’s because they’re closer than i can be with anyone, in a particular way

it’s kind of a horrible thing to be jealous of

[39-lashes]

i can’t believe we’ve been in cascadia this long and we’re all too exhausted for sex threats even

i kind of miss sex threats

[39-lashes]

it’s so weird to have moved in here

lev and asher are really amazing helping with bee and just kind of generally but

i’m kind of afraid

cascadians are really different about who counts as a parent

what if one of them is better than me? i’m not her genetic father how does anyone know that i’m her dad

[39-lashes]

"she doesn’t have my genes but she’s definitely mine" That's a great way to phrase it. I'm sure you'll be a wonderful dad.

i hope so

she’s so important i’ll be so pissed at myself if i screw it up

[39-lashes]

is the baby yours?????

she doesn’t have my genes

but she’s definitely mine

[39-lashes]

how long until you know for sure a baby is okay

[39-lashes]

beatrice marie dulac is the best thing in the entire world and she has ten toes

hi from cascadia

[knowledge-is-prediction]

I am so glad I found out about this from tumblr guys

[39-lashes]

in my defense sleep is a myth made up by people without babies

please come and save us from this motel we are lost already

[knowledge-is-prediction]

yes, we’re coming

asher says he can take the baby tonight so you guys can sleep

[39-lashes]

asher is an actual angel

also i’m suspicious that he will immediately feed her to a bear or something but i think that’s because of the sleep

[39-lashes]

beatrice marie dulac is the best thing in the entire world and she has ten toes

hi from cascadia

[knowledge-is-prediction]

I am so glad I found out about this from tumblr guys

[39-lashes]

in my defense sleep is a myth made up by people without babies

please come and save us from this motel we are lost already

[39-lashes]

beatrice marie dulac is the best thing in the entire world and she has ten toes

hi from cascadia

[39-lashes]

wife

wife wife wife wife

(i have one)

(mine now)

[scarlet-thread]

It’s really cute how you typed “i have one” “mine now” with the hand that wasn’t tied to the bed.

Someone has someone.

[39-lashes]

yeah well.

i could do that too.

[39-lashes]

wife

wife wife wife wife

(i have one)

(mine now)

[39-lashes]

yesterday i went and looked at myself in the mirror and called myself all the awful shit that nobody would ever actually call me

“faggot” featured pretty heavily

i think i wish a lot of times that they would have said it. that somebody would have called me the names or hit me.

“pathologize” is a great word. making something into a disease is a really easy way to make people feel like if they just cut it out of themselves they’ll be okay again, like they can trust you when you act kind to them and just hate this one little part of them

it lets you be sweet and gentle while you poison somebody so they don’t even know it’s happening until they’re already dying

i think it’s better to be stabbed than smothered with a pillow honestly

so it’s nice to actually hear the words, hear what it sounds like when somebody hates you straight out without covering it up in lies about how they love you really

somehow the more i call myself names in the mirror the easier it is to like myself

(tomorrow i’m getting married to my fiancée. i am a man of many contradictions.)

[39-lashes]

is it possible to fuck up the process of getting married

asKING FOR ME

[opencascadia]

there are two kinds of ex-gileadites:

1) ones who think they are horrifying perverts the likes of which no one has ever seen before and whose fantasies would shock an entire room of porn-jaded Cascadians if spoken aloud, and who like to watch women in bikinis playing volleyball

2) one who think their sexual fantasies are like everyone else’s, modulo a few minor details, and who have these elaborate tapestries of fetishes and fantasies, stitched together from the jokes of late-night standup comedians and history textbooks and solemn warnings against pornography and subtext-heavy novels and That One Scene in a poorly censored movie– almost outsider-artist in character, the sexuality of someone who was never exposed to porn or to conventional ideas of what is sexy, and which grew wild and untamed and free

[RP blog]

[lilies-on-water]

@knowledge-is-prediction

[knowledge-is-prediction]

lily I never knew you liked watching women in bikinis playing volleyball

[39-lashes]

i know for a FACT there is another kind

[eudoxus-writes]

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[39-lashes]

gesundheit

[knowledge-is-prediction]

which is more fun to neither confirm or deny putting in the gileadite water: drugs, or mormons

mormons on drugs

[rp blog]

[treestoclouds]

where would you even get mormons on drugs? we don’t do drugs!!

[39-lashes]

first you put drugs in the water supply, then you have the mormons drink the water, and THEN