F0rced r€covery: tips, tricks, and what I’ve learned so far (Masterpost)
just in case any of you angels happen to find yourself in this situation, I wanted to give you something to detail what to expect and how to make it easier for yourself
Please keep in mind this is coming from my personal experience, and that this will look different for everyone. Please feel free to share your experiences if you would like them added on here <3
What your diet might look like
Depending on your current weight, how long you’ve been restricted, and how ill you are, you could be f0rced to consume 1200-2000 c@ls daily, spread out between three meals and two snacks. Scary number, I know. Do note depending on your previous c@lorie deficit you will most likely feel sick and nauseous the first week. And if you’re being made to cut caffeine you’ll feel very exhausted. You will also be expected to eat every bite on the plate
Exercise
In my case, if I get caught exercising I’ll be sent to inpatient without a second thought, and most of the time I’m to tired to get up anyway. But, when I get the chance I do try to. The best times to exercise without being caught are before your shower, when home alone, and at night when the rest of the house is asleep.
The mindset
if you don’t actually want to get better, which I’m assuming is the case if you’re reading this, then it’s not going to happen. You can continue to resist sure, but the battle will be much longer and difficult and could land you in inpatient, which would just make everything even longer and harder. So, despite how hard and painful it is, you’ll need to play along. Eat what they give you with minimal complaining, and as the weeks go on slowly start acting “normal” about food. Bring it up in conversations, point out foods your “craving”, things like that. I personally find eating in public settings easiest because everyone else is eating too so I feel less guilty. But as your caregivers start to see you “improving”, you’ll get more leeway and be able to get away with eating less. Soon you won’t be watched durning meals, and you’ll be believed if you lie about eating elsewhere. But you have to make sure you snack in front of them, accept offers of bites occasionally, and just keep the suspicion off you.
Tips
Never eat alone
Save food wrappers when you can and show them to caregivers as proof that you “ate”
when home alone dirty a dish and leave it by the sink
walk around/move whenever possible
fidget as much as you can
try not to engage in disordered eating habits around others like sorting food or taking 20+ chews
exercise whenever possible
get caffeinated liquid drink flavoring to put in your water, just make sure your caregivers don’t find it
when given the chance always choose the healthiest option, even if you don’t like it
remind yourself that it’s okay if you gain the weight because it’s out of your control and you’ll lose it all if not more in the future
I hope you all found this helpful. The intention of this was not to scare anyone, just to make people aware of what to expect and how to get through it.
I believe in you, please message me if you need someone to confide in or would like to share your story. But in the meantime,
I find it funny how back when I had an (undiagnosed) B.E.D. and was at a bmi of over 30 at 10-13 my parents didn’t even notice, but now that I started restricting c@ls and finally making it into the healthy bmi range, they throw a team of 6 £d specialists on me 😐
I also find it funny I was 10lbs 8oz as a baby it was like even the gods said ‘this one’s gonna be a big chungus’.
I just want it known that none of this is my choice.
Having 5 meals a day, no caffeine, upwards of 1500cals daily….I don’t want that
I have no say in what I eat and when, how much I eat and how much time I have to eat it.
they stuff me like a piñata and if I refuse to have every single bite, and if I’m caught doing so much as a few sit ups, they’ll send me away
I want nothing more than to ⭐️ till I can’t stand, believe me. But I can’t. And I feel like I’m making excuses to be a f@tty though deep down I know I’m not
I just need someone to tell me this isn’t my fault. That I’m not a fallen angel. Just some sympathy to keep me breathing for now so one day I really can be b0ne
Tomorrow is my first official private meeting with my €d therapist, and I need to know how I should act so they let me off the hook sooner and give me more leeway with this fuckass meal plan.
should I act closed off and say I don’t want help so it won’t work and just tell the truth? Should I act indifferent and unbothered by the changes? Should I lie and say I want to get better or lie and be over emotional?
please help me out guys, I can’t go on like this anymore
My parents forced me to have icky McDonalds for dinner (which I’m used to by now, so that isn’t the point) but on the plus side I got to have Diet Coke which is the first caffeinated thing I’ve had inWEEKS
I’m all over the damn place but feel so much better, well as better as I can anyway
These people are fucking CRAZY!!! The breakfast I was made to have was a cut up apple with a cup of peanut butter. So I shoved those down the best I could since my throat was closed from tears and disgust, and threw away half the cup of peanut butter I didn’t finish before heading upstairs to lay down (oh did I mention I’m not allowed to workout now? And if I do they’ll send me to inpatient or residential? Fun, right 😁🔫)
I made it halfway upstairs before my stepmom called me back down. And on the table was the half cup of peanut butter I threw away taken out of the trash with a spoon. I choked probably 5 times. This bitch made me eat peanut butter from the trash with a spoon. I’m sorry is that not crazy??? Is this normal and I’m just the weird one??? Cuz what the actual fuck!??
but no matter, the rest of the day I was nauseous, absolutely exhausted (because they stopped me from having any form of caffeine too🤭), and numb.
someone get me out of here. I’m starting to not be able to see my ribs. Someone save me.
as some of you might have seen in my recent posts, my parents got me a team of £d specialists to give me a meal plan and fatten me up.
today was the first day of that, and all I can say is I haven’t felt this depressed in a very long time
they shoved food into me, 5 meals every day for the foreseeable future. I feel like an over flowing water balloon. A piñata stuffed with slop. All day I’ve laid in bed m, cried, tried to ignore my nausea and closed throat, and counted the seconds till I’d be marched down and be fed like a pig getting ready for slaughter. That’s exactly how I feel, like a pig.
I can’t bare to look at the numbers. That’s why I’m changing this food log to a vent, because I need someone to talk to. Someone who understands why I want to step out of my skin and set it ablaze. I know they stuffed me with over 1200£, and said that it will only get more
I need to stay strong, god it’s so fucking hard. But soon I’ll be 18. Soon I can be on my own and never eat again. That, and you guys, it’s what’s gonna get me through this.
The parents have recruited me a team of eating disorder specialists that are going to give me a meal plan tomorrow. And if I don’t follow it they’re gonna send me away to a residential facility.
I don’t want to, I reallyyyyy don’t want to, but I can’t let them send me away. Someday I’ll be perfect, someday I’ll be small, but it looks like I might have to wait a bit longer
I’m gonna try to stay under 800£ though I don’t think that will be possible
please send me your luck and tips and experiences with this
Hey Max, I´m also looking for anna buddies, I am qu33n-of-saig0n here on Tumblr but for some reason I couldnt send an ask with that page, I could only send with my other acc but that other acc is not ana related so nvm. I am a girl from Brazil but right now I live in Germany, I´m 27.
Sometimes I feel so lonely because my whole family is half a world away, so I´m looking for friends who also have an ed and can understand what I´m going through.
Hey angel!!! I’m so sorry I didn’t get back to you sooner :(
I’d absolutely love to be buddies, and if there’s anything I can do to help please just lmk!!
