see tragedy *

in everything

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     .   .   .   .   i    see    tragedy    in    everything.    established    sometime    in    2020.   canon   divergent     &     mixed     headcanon    based    hailey    anne    upton    from    one    chicago    /   chicago    pd,    very    low    activity    /    selective    &    plot    driven    (    i    also    would    prefer    to    not    write    with    any    voights,    i    don’t    support    his    policing    &    neither    does    hailey     ).   adorned   by   kris.

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[aayla-securas]

HAILEY UPTON AND ADAM RUZEK IN CHICAGO PD

6.06 | TRUE OR FALSE

[aayla-securas]

UPSTEAD’S FIRST AND LAST KISS. Chicago P.D. 8.03 / 10.03

[officer-ruzek]

hailey: ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* exists *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ adam: (ﾉ◕ω◕)ﾉ*✲ﾟ*｡⋆♡

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i miss hailey 

[detouch]

    the haunting of hill house     sentence meme.

    episode 1 - 3

it’s okay. go back to bed.

you okay? you scared? that’s okay. i get scared too sometimes.

why are you awake?

your big brother must have scared her away. big brothers are good like that.

the big dreams can spill out sometimes.

how long do we have to live here?

do you remember that storm?

i’ve never seen a ghost.

i don’t need to say goodbye.

i need you to call me.

there’s nothing easy about this house.

this door’s been locked for years and years and years and years, so if there’s a pony in there, it’s dead.

i know you don’t need me to tell you this, but literally everything is an emergency with [name].

look, i can’t deal with this right now.

that’s why everybody dumps their shit on me, isn’t it?

where’d you come from?

i’m just kind of a germophobe. 

i know you normally prefer the company of cold stiffs.

i mean, she’s sweet enough but - pile of issues.

who’s saying it’s quick? i’m a giver.

you’re like a guy. you’re worse than a guy, you’re like a frat guy.

when i said you could live here, i wasn’t expecting the pussy parade.

i’m drawing boundaries, which is something you might want to look into.

she’s got one foot in crazy and the other on a banana peel.

we gotta get out of here right now.

you keep your eyes closed no matter what you hear. you don’t open them. you promise?

you don’t just get to call me and tell me what to do.

a ghost can be a lot of things: a memory, a daydream, a secret. grief, anger, guilt.

i’ve seen a lot of ghosts. just not the way you think.

this is the worst of the bullshit- worse than the tabloids.

i need to start a real life for my own family.

no one will come any nearer than that.

something tells me they weren’t too scared of the dark.

science isn’t an exact science, you know.

how do you spell ‘no girls allowed’?

i used to have imaginary friends, too. they go away when you get bigger.

thanks. i needed a good scare.

you just stood there and watched him loot me?

i’m going to fix her.

every house needs a heart, and this is ours.

a house is like a person’s body.

when you’re little, you learn how to see things that aren’t there.

i told you, i’m too old for tea parties.

i don’t blame you for screaming.

there’s no such thing as ghosts and you know it.

you can pay me back when you’re a famous writer.

imagine the worst thing possible, assume it’s true, and go from there.

why are you banging on the wall?

i told you she was in trouble.

you know how when you take one of your pictures, you capture something forever, just the way it is? stories do that, too.

when we die, we turn into stories.

we’re all stories in the end.

this is too much for anyone.

codeine’s finally kicking in.

she’s gonna have a pretty messed up view of death coming out of this no matter what.

i’m sad, too. so sad, i can’t even tell you.

i handcuffed him to a radiator downstairs. he’s not going anywhere.

i just wanted to say break a leg - and if you make a run for it, i’ll keep the car running, okay?

you have another nightmare?

you can sleep with me for tonight.

you’re really freaked out, huh? ease up a little.

you’re squeezing too tight.

the stairs - the third step from the top, it makes a sound.

he’s always smiling, but he isn’t happy.

when i was little, i was afraid of a lot of things.

kids like us have been through more than other kids.

the foster care system isn’t the easiest place to grow up.

do you feel cold right there?

this whole house is cold.

you’re out of mustard and you’re almost out of turkey.

you always figure out how to help.

ugh, what is that smell?

i was trying to take ownership of something that doesn’t belong just to me.

i’m trying to do the right thing.

maybe it’s a middle child thing, but i just would rather focus on living my actual life right now.

want to let go of his arm?

you don’t have to be so mean about it.

there’s a ladder down here on the wall. you can come get me.

there’s something down here!

it’s okay, baby, we’re right here.

something grabbed me! monster! it was a monster!

we didn’t know you were into…?

sorry to bring this up again, but why the hell would she go to that house?!

don’t elaborate. don’t offer information that’s not requested.

i don’t want to have to tell them that i’m fucking pissed at [name] who should have known better.

nobody ever believes me.

i believe you.

i was just out and about and thinking about your case.

you just have to trust me on this. i haven’t been wrong before, have i?

i’m sure the guy will confess if you just get them here.

i really, really don’t like that you went down there by yourself.

we’ll talk a lot more about it as you get older.

if you’re feeling overwhelmed and you think nobody will understand, you can talk to me. about anything.

i’m pretty good at secrets.

you got a couple things wrong in there, by the way.

that was really wild stuff considering that you were asleep for, what, like ninety-nine percent of it?

i’m gonna get my fucking phD.

i thought i heard somebody down here.

make up something that’s gonna piss her off less than the truth.

we barely said two words to each other.

can we take a second and talk?

what do people usually talk about?

she just needed help and no one was listening.

so should we talk about your day or would you rather come to bed?

you get in, lock the doors, don’t unlock until you see me come outside.

don’t touch me!

touch me.

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           it’s    not    gonna    last    .    .    .    it    never    does    with    the    bad    boys    (    except    he    doesn’t    remotely    fall    into    that    .    .    .    even    if    he    didn’t    believe    it    himself    ).    wasn’t    by    the    book,    refused    to    fit    into    any    mold    .    .    .    but    his    heart    was    good,    &    there    was    a    trust    in    him    that    didn’t    waver    despite    the    hot    headed    tendencies.        lost    track    of    the    arguments    the    two    had    .    .    .    like    oil    &    water,    they    didn’t    mix    &    yet    .    .    .    comfort    was    found    in    him    (    beyond    the    idea    of    one    night,    kept    coming    back    to    him    like    a    moth    prepared    to    burn    in    the    flames    ).        that’s    the    part    that    terrified    her,    the    idea    of    relying    on    someone,    of    caring    about    him    the    way    she    did,    of    letting    someone    in    &    finding    nothing    but    disappointment    (    mixing    romance    with    work    .    .    .    it    didn’t    ended    well,    their    pasts    alone    were    prime    examples    ).    metal    rattles    with    the    slam    of    her    locker    .    .    .        he    never    did    know    when    to    let    something    go.        ❛                    we’re    not    doing    this    here.                        ❜    or    anywhere    if    she    had    a    say    in    the    matter,    the    moment    they    started    having    these    conversations    was    the    second    this    would    all    fall    apart.    ❛                    lets    just    go    home,    alright     ?                    ❜    

&.     @59054​     prompted:     “     why     can’t     you     let     me     in     ?     what     are     you     so    afraid     of     ?     ”

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maybe i’m still not over the fact voight watched hailey fall apart & tried to condemn her for it as if it literally wasn’t his fault in the first place. 

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the cpd fandom rlly just kept goin without us huh @59054

[detectiveupton]

ADAM RUZEK & HAILEY UPTON IN 8x16

i just want her back … i get it. 

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we gonna talk about their arm size difference or 

[cvldbones]

i’m still growing. sure, maybe yesterday i had a little too much to drink and i took a look at my life and felt like athena was whispering, “oh, you poor child. what have you done?” maybe i have some cuts and scrapes that still haven’t healed, maybe my heart is still bruised and so i cringe when i place it into your waiting palms. maybe i’m breathing a little ragged because i swallowed all the mirrors in my house so i wouldn’t stare at my reflection and try to rip my skin from its bones anymore. i have a crooked grin but smiles aren’t meant for perfection. my knuckles are bloody and raw from attacking the concrete cage i have built around myself, but today, i broke a hole and i saw daylight for the first time. and guess what? i’m still growing.

twenty doesn’t meant twice as sad // (h.q.)

[guardiicns-deactivated20200507]

“I explained to him I didn’t know how to love and he offered to teach me.”

— thrsdays-child, the sweetest thing he’s ever said (via wnq-writers)

[i-am-a-fish]

CALLOUT POST @ ALL WRITERS

write

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ardentl​:

@55055d .     hailey  upton .          ❝          we  got  coffee ,     muffins  and  some  doughnuts .          ❞

❝            no    loukoumades    ?            ❞    tease    filters    into    her    tone    as    her    lips    pull    into    a    small    grin,    situating    herself    at    the    edge    of    desk,   while    allowing    a    peek    into    the    filled    white    box    ❝            you’re    gonna    have    to    do    better    than    that.            ❞

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when jay & kim tell hailey that they are good 

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voight x adam requested by @59054​