Maladaptive deeply held belief: nobody could ever love me. Im going to die alone
Positive counterthought: maybe someone has an exceptionally rare form of mental illness that would cause them to make the grave mistake of wanting to fuck me
they HAVE saved people actually i’m 100% sure of that. i’ve learned about so many recalls i would’ve had no idea about otherwise !!!! from the bottom of all of our hearts thank you mamoru
when I was younger, I got food poisoning. I was supposed to recover from it, but I wound up with a bunch of nasty medical conditions instead. I never imagined I would become disabled from food.
so I am really glad I have been able to help spread the word every now and then about food safety and recalls, since it hopefully means a few less people going through what I have.
while I have your attention, I do not post every recall, even just for the US, so here are a few of the links I use!
recalls.gov/recent.html <- aggregate of official government recall links for the US! food, drugs, products, child safety seats, motor vehicles, and tires! (half the feeds are broken half the time, but hey, it works™! check the FDA enforcement reports for a more complete list of recalls, especially drug recalls!)
recalls for canada <- recalls for canada!
RASFF <- food recalls and safety alerts for the EU!
food safety news <- news about food safety in the US, canada, and around the world!
I was poisoned <- see where people have gotten food poisoning near you, and report your own! (worldwide!)
Earlier on I did a bit of meditation (aka, sitting with drony music on low and trying to not think about anything for like 30 minutes) my dearest brain of whom I'm not on the best of terms with right now decided to gimme a very very vivid image of Atem sat next to me. So vivid I could almost touch, hehe.
Anyway the second I stopped doing sadboi brooding hours, I immediately scribbled down what I saw.
I wish I could truly capture how ethereal this man is to me. One day I'll get there. My art is very steadily improving. Younger me would be proud that my Atem's look like this now I think... I hope ദ്ദി(｡•̀ ᗜ<)
i’ve always loved how Millenium World revealed that, like Yugi, Atem was the biggest crybaby growing up. sure we got his emotional angst fest during Douma/Waking the Dragons arc when he lost Yugi, but we all know it wasn’t canon in the manga even though it was pretty spot-on characterization, especially when you consider how over-the-top emotional and dramatic ancient Egyptian kings were when handling grief but i digress. this final arc, however, was Kazuki Takahashi actually confirming Atem used to sob till kingdom come. he used to be shy and frightened of the dark and he’d always run to his father’s arms for protection. as prince, he got frustrated over class distinctions and inequality, much like how Yugi always gets upset whenever he sees people getting mistreated and bullied, even in the earliest manga chapters. in the anime, every single flashback we have from Atem’s pov has him crying, and then he never does after his father’s death. Atem doesn’t even cry in the final duel against Yugi, which makes sense given how strong he had to present himself because he was pharaoh, but that look into his past really solidified that, had things been different, he really is just a boy like Yugi. a little king with the heart of a champion. and also the biggest crybaby. and, since Yugi does live on and follow in his other me’s footsteps, he does become stronger and more confident, but that childhood softness will never go away, just like how it never did for Atem. their souls are so intertwined that even their tears manage to cast the other’s shadow
At the end of the day, who really are you if everything you know about yourself stems from the life of a person you're pretending to live as?
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My name is Muto Yugi.
I like games. I like my friends. I like burgers. I have a grandpa at home who loves me.
My name is Muto Yugi.
I go to school everyday with my friends. I wake up at 5AM so I have time to do my hair.
My name is Muto Yugi.
I meet them everyday. We play games together.
My name is Yugi Muto.
I don't like the taste of burgers. I don't like eating.
My name is Yugi Muto.
I wake up at 1AM everyday. I sneak out through the window. There is this guard in my home that I don't know.
My name is Yugi Muto.
He grabs my arms and keeps me trapped in my home. He claims he's "worried" and that "I'm injured" but HES LYING!! HE WANTS TO TRAP ME INSIDE!!
My name is Yugi Muto.
The guard is wrinkled and says my name like he knows me. He's lying. It's a trick.
My name is Yugi.
My friends look at me funny. I don't like looking at them.
My name is Yugi?
I don't brush my hair. I don't wash my face. I don't go to school. Everyone is WATCHING ME at school. I don't know ANYONE AT SCHOOL.
My name is Yugi?
WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP SAYING I'M ACTING DIFFERENTLY??!! I'M NORMAL!!
MY NAME IS YUGI??
I don't know what school is I don't know who you are stop looking at me STOP LOOKING AT ME ST-
MY NAME IS-
I seem to fall asleep for days at a time I'm dressed my face is washed my hair is brushed I'm fed. It is my captive doing it. They're forcing me here. They're keeping me here against my will. I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape-
I DON'T THINK MY NAY NAME IS YUGI.
I don't recogniz recognise--I don't think I'm me wh--
Move eec each limb--the reflection isn't me
I don't know who I a--y myself. Please someon-
I DON'T THINK MY NAME IS YUGI
THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THA-
Sometimes when I wake up I'm a new version of me I haven't met and I don't remember where I am and I think. Like. I belonged somewhere far far away and got trapped here as a form of c o s m i c p u n i s h m e n t. Like. A sinner taken to the slaughter. And I stop sleeping and suddenly I realise these people I call my family are people I don't know OR love. But that's cruel right. And I wake up not remembering days. Weeks at a time. And suddenly the house I thought was mine feels like a prison and when I look in the mirror my face it changes every time and I feel sick and have to look away because that's not me.
And I begin fearing that I don't recognise myself in any of my memories and I dont recognise the friends the me I see in my memories fought so hard to get and I realise that I REPLACED HIM. I AM THE REPLACEMENT. And so I try to gamble my life away and I fill "my" body with meds and caffeine and I pity the "ME" I replaced so much that I run around and s l a u g h t e r everyone who ever hurt him because he deserves to rest in peace. Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually dead and this is my afterlife but haha.
That has to be a lie right. Right. Please. Tell me I'm right. Who the fuck am I now? Him? M-
i'm sorry i didn't respond to your DM for 23 days. the number on the notification icon got really big and i began having irrational anxious thoughts such as "what if people are in there trying to contact me"
"why do you keep calling things you find beautiful, inexplicable, and unsettling angels" i'm just doing what british wartime radar technicians did first
i don't think we give enough credit to yami yugi for being one of the funniest character concepts ever executed.
pharaoh atem gets sealed inside of the cursed amulet and finally reawakens after thousands of years with zero memories and the following thoughts, in this order:
1. i have GOT to dress sexier than this
2. I need Revenge.
3. I'm Feeling 🎲⭐️LUCKY!⭐️🎰
4. ohhh god oh fuck oh god. ohhh god oaaughhh hhhhh
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