May 12
working in industrial cleaning has completely shattered my will to live to the point im even starting to miss the times i used to work in a factory and came home with nose bleeds and green skin and rashes from all the shitty metal dust i sanded and inhaled. i am so fucking done and my jewelry making on-the-side is literally going nowhere... what am i even supposed to do to have a shot at a decent and independent life... im constantly struggling and making zero improvements. the jobs are always shitty, my mental and physical health is only getting worse. at least i have my loved ones. not all but most of them. at least i have my loved ones, at least i have my loved ones, at least i have my loved ones. i feel like i don't belong anywhere
