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jerri, they/them, queer. icon by editfandom. header by fknperfecticons. current hyperfixation are those damn gay hockey boys who definitely snuck up on me and are now taking over my life. usually mostly stranger things with occasional guest appearances from marvel and geraskier. basically just a mess, i dont know what's happening here either. always happy to talk about any of the above. find me on Ao3 at 8124buckyharrington.

[lucylehane]

your cab is definitely here

[parcai]

fixed it.

[littlegirlinvisible]

ILYA ROZANOV WEEK: DAY FOUR FAVORITE TRAIT   ↪ HIS EMPATHY AND KINDNESS 🥺💕

“When our childhood homes are chaotic and dangerous, we learn that the way to stay safe is to always be on alert — hypervigilant. Our nervous system never calms down because it’s constantly on the lookout for the next bomb that is going to explode [...] As the show goes on, we will learn that underneath Ilya’s extremely hard shell is the heart of a squishy teddy bear wrapped in a warm blanket, but it takes YEARS for Shane to see it. When we look at Ilya through the lens of what he learned as he grew up, it makes sense why he behaves the way he does. We can even have empathy for the level of hypervigilance and fear he lives with. I like to lay things out this way because it’s usually a hell of a lot harder to give ourselves that same grace. We have an idea of who we “should” be in our heads, and when we don’t live up to that we assume it’s because we’re a failure, a useless waste of space. None of that is true: we are behaving in ways that make complete sense when we understand how our nervous system was trained to respond to our environment.” — Reading Ilya Rozanov through the lens of trauma.

[hopeless-eccentric]

humiliating to be attracted to a conventionally attractive person. I thought I was a more sensitive and refined pervert than this

[cow-inthe-closet]

friend whos always planning everything: hey guys lets do something this week!! when are you all available?

friend whos always available: i can do whenever

friend whos constantly busy: im sorry i have work and then school and then the labyrinth and then more work :( i can do tuesday at 3:00 am for five minutes tho

friend with the randomly generated sleep schedule: (no response)

friend who went missing in the woods behind their house 12 years ago and hasn't been heard from since: (no response)

friend whos really into genshin impact: does anyone want to play genshin impact

[miss-americanbi]

grace you gotta lock in

[a-tangled-mermaid]

Sigh. At least I have this.

[ramslambsandwolves]

Post-outing alot of past Ilya lovers come out the woodwork to gossip about him in different magazines (ilya rozanov has bear kink? 2013 hookup spills the deets) and it becomes a thing involving lawyers and cease & desists & ilya isnt freaking out because he’s afraid of gossip but by how Shane is dealing with the rumors so he gently bring it up one morning like “we’re gonna talk about our feelings, please don’t be hiding your hurt from me.” And shane shrugs and sips his morning smoothie and says “i can’t be that mad at them: if i only fucked you once and could never again i think id be acting crazy too.” He won’t ever admit he feels like a kid taunting another with a toy like “hahaha i have the best Russian lover hockey boy toy & you’ll NEVER get to play with him again! He’s mine!”

[himbomarleau]

Thinking about a scenario where Marleau goes to all stars instead of Ilya because Ilya is injured and he ends up hanging out with Shane all weekend and they actually hit it off? Shane is nervous because he knows Marly is Ilya's bro and he doesn't want to embarrass himself in front of him. Marleau is sticking with Shane because he's a bit in awe of playing on the same team as The Shane Hollander. Eventually Shane starts letting out his bitchy one liners under his breath and Marleau is eating it up. By the end of the weekend they are a chirping machine. Marleau is teeing Shane up and Shane is landing the most devastating insults.

Marleau comes back to Boston and is like man Roz you would love Hollander if you could get past the rivalry and Ilya is just staring wide eyed at him. Marly is going off about how funny Shane is and talking up his hockey iq. Ilya is just like ha ha. Yes. If only I didn't hate his guts... meanwhile he's furiously texting "Jane" "Marleau is my friend. You can't have him"

[hiveswap]

"Is it a safe space to say i hate-" NOT IN THE MAINTAGS IT ISNT

[hiveswap]

"I hate [character] from [show] soo much #character, #characters's full name, #show,

ARE YOU INSANE

[enabuns]

Bigger than everything 🥲💗

[depsidase]

[unicorncryptid]

"my life isn't a crime, I'm not one of those people -"

"you sure? new parameters for Those People just dropped. check again."

[lizardywizard]

And if you truly cannot imagine this, if you're convinced that it will never happen to you, consider this one thing.

Would you want scammers to know the state of your loved one's dementia?

[headspace-hotel]

Oh. Shit.

[littlegirlinvisible]

CONNOR STORRIE Serving pure drama and cunt at the Saint Laurent Men’s Summer 27 show. The actor turned heads with a look featuring over-the-knee faux leather boots, which the press already dubbed “kinkiest” and “Berghain BDSM session-ready.” (June 23, 2026)

[mokka-with-oreo]

I forgot to post this here, oops

[barbie-verse]

heated rivalry twitter (70/?) intricate rituals or something

[johnny-depp-is-loved]

[mawofthemagnetar]

What do you mean “chat” is now referring to ChatGPT and not twitch chat? What? What? What the fuck? No?

When I address chat I am speaking to a presumed Greek chorus of real human people shitposting on their lunch break, not a machine that devours lakes to covert electricity into slop.