7It was an end of a decade but the start of an age
Now that the decade ends I'm thinking about the last ten years, how I changed and how I grew.
I started the decade with one of my saddest times of my life. Two months before the new decade I lost my mother, my guidance and my trainer.
She lost her battle against cancer and, at least for me, it was very suddenly and unexpected.
I turned 16 in 2010, graduated and needed to find my path without a mother.
I'm not going into details, but I will tell you, it sucked.
I thought I knew exactly what I wanted but I wasn't sure after the loss, a lot didn't feel right anymore. Before all that, I had it all figured out, I wanted to become a teacher, but I thought it was a waste of time to study and maybe spending half of my life in schools and unis just to die at young age, not living at all. Told you, it sucked.
I decided to do my higher education, I wanted it and I knew my mother would have wanted me to do it. Instead of studying after that, I was determined to become a nurse for children.
In 2016 I finished that goal, within those six years I had 5 or 6 colonoscopies (lost count) because I was diagnosed with FAP which is Genetic defect causing colon cancer. The last colonoscopy was in late 2015, that was the one when doctors told me they needed to remove my colon, otherwise I might end up like my mother and get cancer. This operation was going to be the physically hardest and exhausting thing I experienced so far. I decided to get it after my exam and after I found a job. I waited six month and in April 2017 I got it, things didn't turn out well and I ended up with a permanent ileostoma.
The last two years I adapted my life and work to it and even though I ended up being disabled for the rest of my life, I can tell that it was the best outcome. I'm happier and more carefree than before. I'm living my life to the fullest and still enjoying it, with my sister, my boyfriend and my friends.
Going to concerts is the most important hobby that developed in this decade.
I quit doing artistic cycling but I still miss it and forever will.
I grew up with it, it was my childhood and something I shared with my sister, my mother and my friends.
Maybe I'll return to it, maybe I won't.
I've still got my bike in my basement waiting for me in case I'll change my mind and my work schedule.
To sum up that decade, I can say, that I grew up to a women who overcome more than I could've imagined in my wildest dreams as a child. I grew up from a teenager who was self conscious, scared and well... sad, to a women who survived a lot and who is still standing strong.
Thanks to everyone who was there and shared my journey with me. Long live all the mountains we moved, I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you.
Oh and the best that happened before the decade ended is that I've got cats now!
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