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artist photographer degenerate they | 28 | nyc

[ab-pos]

photo diary largely taken at like 8am following a recent unhinged shift at work… production friend and i coped by finishing a bottle of 1942 and bumping coke on the way to get bagels while we walked home together :’)

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shout out to the new york rangers for inviting françois arnaud to games as a special guest recently but also dropping all pretense and not wearing pride jerseys for the game OR warmups during this season's """pride night"""

not sure what's worse, the lack of even performative wokeness after the whole 2023 pride night debacle or the shitty ugly little delta-sponsored nylon bags they were giving away at msg lmao this team truly never stops embarrassing me

[moldavite]

i ask for very little and receive even less

[ab-pos]

yeah tbh i did download the leak of That album by That band a while ago but didn't listen to it until tonight after giving up on watching the replay of an olympic hockey game that was always going to disappoint me, and i guess this was my bad but like.....

having to endure the line "that girl is not my son" and the whole last verse of bike thief with no prior notice made me have to leave my apartment for the first time all day just to walk around outside for a while... like i'm genuinely so unwell over this in ways that i'm not even going to try to put words to lmao

[ab-pos]

as i should have expected this dogshit ass year has started with a bang (and i do mean that literally)

my partner had a knife held to his throat at an atm and got robbed of a considerable amount of cash which included money he was in the process of depositing to pay me back for a digital transfer i had loaned him literally one hour prior…… fortunately he was fine and it wasn’t worse but we both ended up absolutely fucked by this out of nowhere

impending snow postponed one of my already minimal shifts this month which I desperately needed to fall under this pay period in order to pay all of my bills so i ended up fucked even further

AND our whole our building lost power a full day before the snow even hit us because the road salt leaked into one of ConEd’s dilapidated transformers (one that has been causing issues for our building for almost a year now) and it fucking exploded under the sidewalk less than 200 feet from our front door. We are currently on day four of no lights, no heat, no hot water, no way to cook, no elevator in a 9 story building, AND NO FRONT DOOR ACCESS because there’s no mechanical back up for our key fobs. like….. it feels like -2° outside right now and we’re lucky to be able bodied and have the option to go out and get shit or stay elsewhere if we need but this situation is actually a whole crisis

BUT at the very least i did go over to my best friend’s place to charge all my shit and eat vietnamese stew and open belated xmas presents that included a lobster ornament, an inconceivably Me nail polish, and my favorite linoleum print that they’ve made thus far and that is probably what stopped me from snapping and making the fucking news tonight lmfao

(friend’s art obscured with scribbles & my badly scarred but freshly manicured hand bc i don’t trust it to not end up reposted on pinterest otherwise)

bring on a year of survival solely via unprecedented levels of rage and spite i guess

[peteneems]

[loveiscontrabandinhell]

michelle handelman, women with weapons

[milksockets]

penthouse september 1991

[homoidiotic]

Photos from The second coming : A Leatherdyke Reader (1996)

[xphaiea]

[sewercentipede]

Cathy Rose, Work, 2021 , Sculpture, hand-formed porcelain and found materials, 11 x 8 x 3 in 28 x 20 x 8 cm at Seager Gray Gallery

[ab-pos]

began 2026 by shaving all my hair off at midnight on new year’s eve for the first time in five years & i do not regret the decision at all

[milksockets]

louise bourgeois in extreme bodies: the use + abuse of the body in art - francesca alfano miglietti (2003)

[draconym]

I just saw an acquaintance use "👖🛝" in place of the word genocide and. like. at what point are we going to decide that this kind of self-censorship is too degrading to abide anymore.

[draconym]

"grape" "sewer-slide" "the panini" I feel like I'm surrounded by Rugrats who overheard the grown ups talking about the news.

[draconym]

I'm tired of seeing people excuse algospeak because "corporations are making us do it." Why are we all letting them do that. The Internet is real life. Get mad about it.

[ab-pos]

somehow the expensive limited edition thrasher film in my camera got absolutely fucked just sitting on my desk for couple weeks so i’ve been purging the last of it (edited to shit but would be nice if the film actually looked like this in person)

- me and j’s initials written in wet cement last year outside the door i leave from at work, taken on my way out in the snow this weekend

- trash can filled with pumpkins that we saw last night

- maybe i was there on undetermined days maybe i wasn’t who knows idk

[ab-pos]

slice of life, end of 2025 edition (in order)

spontaneous buzzcut turned non-committal mullet

taking full advantage of pomegranate season for once and eating the seeds with full fat honey greek yogurt or directly from my hands over the kitchen sink

my sweet boy and his green bean

i hate models (night 2) unexpectedly being maybe my favorite show of the year?? the dozens of electronic/house shows have definitely grown on me in general but this one specifically struck a chord and was such an ideal experience

sidewalk furniture gifted to me by the universe - three vintage dining chairs that have the same finish and style as my kitchen table with fully removable cushions… found right after it started snowing at 6am the other night when i happened to be wandering home after letting my new turkish software engineer friend/neighbor get me drunk and teach me to play bass again

[ab-pos]

extremely cursed ambulance encountered while leaving work today

[power-chords]

If you were writing a novel set in your city of origin, what’s the arcane environmental detail you would go out of your way to include in order to immerse the reader and flaunt your “locals only” intimacy with the terrain? For me it would be that sharp curve the northbound 6 hits that lets you know you are pulling into Grand Central.