[abhanabha]

Seasons shift, world moves on,

Stuck in place, feeling withdrawn,

Time passes, life unchanged,

Trapped in a cycle, feeling estranged.

[abhanabha]

I'm watching The Witcher and I hate the way Geralt looks at Yennefer.

I'm jealous of a fictional character.

I'M JEALOUS OF A FICTIONAL CHARACTER!!!!

I've never been jealous irl, never been jealous of real people.

[abhanabha]

I want to buy a nicer phone with nicer camera so I can take pretty pictures of the moon but I'm broke.

[abhanabha]

I own seventeen books, I've read all of them but never completed any.

[abhanabha]

Existing is exhausting

Life is chaos

Nothing makes sense

Eat that pizza

Sing that song

Write stupid poems

Laugh ugly

Cry a little

Hug your mom

And carry on

[abhanabha]

It's weird how half our generation Just wants normal things

We have very ordinary dreams

A nice cozy home and a pet

Simple home cooked meals

To love and be loved

A job that we don't hate

And weekends spent with people we care about

I wrote this post after a conversation I had with my papa. He said how this generation is not ambitious and is even lazy.

That inspired me to write this post, there's nothing wrong with wanting ordinary things. But it's weird how our dreams and wants are so different from the previous generations.

So if these are your dreams, there's nothing wrong with that. You get to decide what life you want to make for yourself.

I'm sorry if I confused anyone.

[abhanabha]

Change was the only thing I wanted in the past

I wanted to change the way I looked and laughed

I wanted to change how I felt

I wanted to change me

Only recently I realized that we should evolve

Evolve without changing who we are to the core

[abhanabha]

I wish I was a firefly

Flashing light

Attracting a lover with my Twinkling

Because burning seems easier than talking

[abhanabha]

Crying always gives me clarity but it also gives me a headache.

[abhanabha]

Sometimes it's the memories that I miss and how I felt in that moment

I miss the experiences and the way I laughed

I rarely miss the person, I mostly just miss myself

[abhanabha]

Go with the flow

Will never work for me

My brain, my life has no flow

I'm stuck

My surroundings are stagnant

So I force myself, I push myself

I create a flow

[abhanabha]

I want to be loved by someone but I hate being vulnerable.

[abhanabha]

The people around me

They experience intense emotions too

They have problems and struggles

They love and lie, just like me

They have other people in their lives

They are real

It's wild how I'm not the only one that has to deal with life

I'm not the only real person

[abhanabha]

I'm not even that old yet I feel sorry for my younger self.

Now I just want to live my life and let myself be happy, I want to let myself breath and understand myself so the future me won't have to feel this constant guilt for being too hard on her younger self.

[abhanabha]

I know myself the best yet I don't know who I really am. I recognize my face in the mirror but not the person I see in photos. I hear my voice all day everyday yet can't help cringing when I hear it on the phone.

I know myself but I don't know the person others see and hear.

[abhanabha]

Walking my dog around the block for the third time because I love her and she loves barking at trees.

[abhanabha]

I want to be famous.

I want to be recognized.

I also want to be the mysterious woman living deep in the forest.