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Six weeks after Cas' death, Dean buys a wedding ring.

It's not a conscious decision. He's been on autopilot since Chuck's defeat, going through the motions of living while feeling completely hollow inside. The last thing Cas did was die so Dean could live, so Dean's gonna pretend until it's true, because he can't let Cas have died for nothing.

The enormity of his grief is overbearing and he can't even put into words everything he's lost. How can he explain what they were to each other when they never spoke it out loud, not until Cas' last, awful speech that didn't even allow Dean time to respond?

The silence is swallowing him up, everything he didn't get to say.

And then Dean sees the ring.

It's a battered thing, shining dully in the glass counter at a pawnbroker's just outside of Topeka. It's one of a pair, and Dean snatches both of them, stuffing one far into his pocket and the other on his left hand.

The weight of it settles something in his chest.

People start treating him differently. Well-meaning strangers will start conversations in friendly, cheerful tones, catch a glimpse of his ring and the flatness of his eyes and put two and two together. Their voices will go soft, their whole demeanor shifting to a gentle carefulness. Like Dean has a terminal illness.

Good, Dean thinks. He doesn't want to be pitied but it brings him some type of satisfaction, knowing that the grief gnawing at him from the inside has become visible.

If his love couldn't be acknowledged while Cas was alive, at least it is now.

And later, when Cas finally returns to him, Dean doesn't say a word. He just reaches into his pocket, pulls out the ring still resting there. It's warm, and Cas' breath catches when Dean takes his hand and slides it onto his finger.

yourhorselamp

my hot take is if leliana and morrigan were men they’d be the biggest ship in the fandom by now

like half the fandom already ignores lel as a character for the crime of woman but these two… they’re foils of each other they’re parallels they’ve known each other for decades they’re both represented with the same bird they are both manipulated by older women to be people they’re not and don’t even mention THE GODDAMN DRESS AT THE WINTER PALACE ??? leliana’s veneer of kindness and morrigan’s veneer of cruelty… and they both conceal so much complication and grey morality that overlaps perfectly. where lel chooses dark morri chooses light and vice versa. these two could simultaneously fix each other and make each other worse why are we not talking about this.

recurring characters since day one whose stories have been dancing around each other and intertwining all this time? if they were both mediocre straight white men yall would be FOAMING AT THE MOUTH be so serious

luulapants

One of the best stories I ever read as a child was a fantasy novel by some local dude selling books out of a suitcase on the sidewalk downtown, and I don't remember what it was called or who the author was, and it's so obscure that no matter how many elements I remember, I've never been able to find it through web searches. I only vaguely remember the story - it was a love story, something about a tower on an island and two characters on a quest to discover their forgotten past. They fall in love and at the end the only way to stay together is to allow themselves to forget again, and you realize that they're right where they started, in the exact same tower, and they're doomed to go on this same quest over and over again, never completed, but that also means they'll fall in love over and over again forever. And I remember how that ending blew up my little child brain into a million pieces.

I don't know what happened to the book, and I'll probably never read it again, but if you're somewhere out there and you were once selling fantasy novels from a suitcase on the sidewalk in the suburbs of Chicago, and if you ever felt like your writing never meant anything or went anywhere except a hundred copies you had printed yourself and sold for almost nothing, please know that your story buried itself in my young brain and has probably shaped my worldview in ways even I don't understand.

luulapants

There are a lot of sweet, well-meaning folks in the notes advising me on how to search for this book, and I want you to know that I will never find this book. And that's okay.

This author self-published, which at that time meant he paid out of his own pocket to print 100 copies and sold some but not all them for cash on the sidewalk in one small town. E-books weren't a thing. There is no digital record to find. Even if I remembered any of the names or details, it wouldn't be searchable. No librarian has it in a catalogue.

The vast majority of books written before the modern day are lost media. Countless artists poured their hearts into stories that were read by few and lasted only as long as the paper they were printed on. Most of the art ever made has been destroyed or thrown away. Most of the music ever written will never be heard again. The expectation of permanence in art is very new, and even now, there are millions of works of art that will never be recorded or posted or shared. Millions more that will never even be completed.

Creation, with few exceptions, is a mandala. A vulnerable song performed for dear friends by a campfire, but the singer soon forgets how it went. A poem shared in a coffee house that rattles the audiences' bones but will never be heard again. A sketch of a lover on hotel stationary that the maid will throw away tomorrow. Our current reality exists by the influence of art that no one remembers.

Permanence is not purpose.

luulapants

One of the best stories I ever read as a child was a fantasy novel by some local dude selling books out of a suitcase on the sidewalk downtown, and I don't remember what it was called or who the author was, and it's so obscure that no matter how many elements I remember, I've never been able to find it through web searches. I only vaguely remember the story - it was a love story, something about a tower on an island and two characters on a quest to discover their forgotten past. They fall in love and at the end the only way to stay together is to allow themselves to forget again, and you realize that they're right where they started, in the exact same tower, and they're doomed to go on this same quest over and over again, never completed, but that also means they'll fall in love over and over again forever. And I remember how that ending blew up my little child brain into a million pieces.

I don't know what happened to the book, and I'll probably never read it again, but if you're somewhere out there and you were once selling fantasy novels from a suitcase on the sidewalk in the suburbs of Chicago, and if you ever felt like your writing never meant anything or went anywhere except a hundred copies you had printed yourself and sold for almost nothing, please know that your story buried itself in my young brain and has probably shaped my worldview in ways even I don't understand.

luulapants

There are a lot of sweet, well-meaning folks in the notes advising me on how to search for this book, and I want you to know that I will never find this book. And that's okay.

This author self-published, which at that time meant he paid out of his own pocket to print 100 copies and sold some but not all them for cash on the sidewalk in one small town. E-books weren't a thing. There is no digital record to find. Even if I remembered any of the names or details, it wouldn't be searchable. No librarian has it in a catalogue.

The vast majority of books written before the modern day are lost media. Countless artists poured their hearts into stories that were read by few and lasted only as long as the paper they were printed on. Most of the art ever made has been destroyed or thrown away. Most of the music ever written will never be heard again. The expectation of permanence in art is very new, and even now, there are millions of works of art that will never be recorded or posted or shared. Millions more that will never even be completed.

Creation, with few exceptions, is a mandala. A vulnerable song performed for dear friends by a campfire, but the singer soon forgets how it went. A poem shared in a coffee house that rattles the audiences' bones but will never be heard again. A sketch of a lover on hotel stationary that the maid will throw away tomorrow. Our current reality exists by the influence of art that no one remembers.

Permanence is not purpose.

infernaldaydreams

Oh grey warden...

persephoning

I will say that the protagonist of DA4 does seem like a little freak doing crazy shit with a larger group of little freaks, and that's good. That's natural. That's exactly what any good Dragon Age MC should be. We don't need the divinely appointed crap, the touched by the gods junk, we need some nut causing as many problems as they solve.

dalishious

I really loved Dragon Age: Absolution. It’s beautifully animated, the actions sequences are well executed with stunning design, the characters are great (especially Miriam), the story is really good and well-paced, and the voice actors all do an incredible job. I have zero complaints. I was expecting mediocre at best, and was absolutely blown away by how hugely enjoyable it is.

deryuj

point-maitimo

« — I appreciate that you were willing to come here. — And expose myself to all this exquisite finery and exotic wines? Such hardship. »

Dorian is adorable! For some reason, I associate him with violet colors, snakes and as well as with fire magic. So I got a very hot tarot card :)

thesilvershire

Please back the Heroscape reboot’s crowdfunding campaign

Heroscape is a tabletop strategy game that was a huge part of my childhood, and after being discontinued 12 years ago, it’s coming back—but only if it gets 8000 backers on Hasbro’s crowdfunding website. I don’t have a ton of followers, but if I can convince even one person to help resurrect Heroscape, I’ll be happy. Below is a quick summary of Heroscape’s lore and gameplay.

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zestyaardvarks

For questions regarding this project or Has Lab, click here Limit of 5 per customer Not available to ship to Quebec, Canada. Standard shippi

Fair warning, this is what I'll be talking about until the campaign ends on November 15th. In short this is our one chance to bring back a fantastic board game and I really want it to happen. The first hurdle is the biggest, but should this succeed, Heroscape has the potential to be bigger and better than ever.

The new and improved site for the revival of Heroscape. Now with additional info about the exact contents, how to build a map, how to play the game, and links to the WIP rulebook PDF and cards page. If you don't know, Heroscape is a tabletop strategy miniatures game with fully modular terrain designed to build 3D battlefields. It's meant to be a more accessible alternative to other expandable games like Warhammer and DnD. No need to build the models, just open up the box, build a battlefield, draft an army, and get to rolling dice.

If you're a fan of tabletop strategy, rpg, and miniature games, seriously consider backing this. I realize it's $250 and not everyone has that kind of cash laying around, but considering the insane amount of stuff in here, it's absolutely worth it. There will literally never be a better deal from companies like Games Workshop, and most of their good deals don't even come with everything you need to simply sit down and play.

queenqueso

To the person who put this together, BLESS YOU

dungeonsdonuts-deactivated20200

This is quite possibly the best and most complete 5e D&D reference set ever. The concise info design on this is amazing!

venatusmaps

The Upper Level of the Drowned Archives–a two part dungeon that I collaborated with my supporters on Patreon in designing. The Lower Level and a brief writeup on the dungeon as a whole and running it going up on here next post! You can now grab both the Upper Level featured here and its accompanying Lower Level from my website!

dnd-5e-hombrewdaily-blog

Every Monday I will give you guys a “Homebrew of the Week” this is the first one. The Grove Guardian is a really cool creature that I’ve used in my own campaign as pets for elves. They worked really well, and they look very beautiful and majestic. This was made by JoshTheGent on Pinterest, go check him out he makes awesome stuff!