ActuallyFrenchLestat

Any character can be a little meow meow if you try hard enough Arthur, 18, French READ MY INTRO

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

TW!! This used to be an ed blog (I’ve deleted most of it), and I am still struggling with severe mental illnesses. So yeah, there might be some triggering stuff about my own personal struggles. Those include trying to stay clean and sober. But NEVER AGAIN will I encourage that kind of behaviour. It will be tagged as #emstriggering so you can avoid those easily.

Now! My intro.

I make fanart. Commissions are open, if you wanna discuss with me, message me directly.

I wanna go back to fandoms ((current special interest being AMC’s Interview With The Vampire)) and having a somewhat appropriate presence online.

My name is ArthurI. My pronouns are he/them.

I’m eighteen French, queer and autistic.

Currently really enjoying The Boys

Armand is autistic. Fight me.

I draw a lot, my insta’s @/actuallyfrenchlestat , if you want to keep up with the doodles I won’t post on here.

My PM’s are always open! If you’re feeling down, if you want to rant about a character, actor, theory…

[redstonedust]

love characters who are like "this is how the world works. this is how it has to be (because if i'm wrong i have to face what i've done // if i'm wrong i have to face whats been done to me) "

[tlbodine]

This trait is much more endearing in fiction than in my mother.

[redstonedust]

to be honest even if vaccines did cause autism i would rather live in a world where everyone is vaccinated and some of those people have autism than an unvaccinated autismless world. like ok whatever. would you rather have autism or polio. autism or measels. idk about yall but im choosing autism every time. its not even a hard choice.

[beastliness]

hate it when the people who I love are suffering due to circumstances beyond my control 👎 there should be a sea monster that I can slay to fix the problem

[littlesleepypup]

☆ can we normalize carrying toys / plushies in public? ☆

as an autistic person that struggles with social anxiety, taking my comfort plushies with me always helps me be more comfortable.

it's not wrong to have comfort items, and we shouldn't be shamed for carrying them around!

[sculderand-mully]

i made this because they’re cute!!!!

[bifauxnenarmand]

show armand has ALWAYS had his book personality. he’s just a fake bitch. he WANTS you to think he’s normal. but he’s so bad at hiding it in my opinion

[bifauxnenarmand]

s3 armand is going to be about when you finally stop being a fake bitch because everyone already saw your ugly side and ADMITTING that you’re insane

[sonofcelluloid]

your honor, he’s unmasking

[sculderand-mully]

i fear i’m just into guilt recreationally

[once-delight]

The devil works fast but his minions work faster

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

Going somewhere you don’t know yourself because you were dormant when the host went there, but still still somehow knowing the way, while not recognising your environment, is not for the weak.

[nerdyagere]

Fun activities for age regressors:

- nap

- nap

- nap

- where did my plushie go.

- oh its on the floor sorry buddy

- nap

- nap

- na-

[littlest-bugz]

That moment when another alter said something really out of pocket and you reread the messages

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

Dissociated me is wild bro

Either I act like a little girl or I’m a really passive aggressive dude

My poor friends

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

Any more dissociated, I’d vanish. My head feels like actual hell. I don’t know who I am, I don’t know what’s real outside, I’m physically numb. I feel exhausted. And I have two more hours to go. Of classes. I don’t know why I feel this bad. Well I have a few clues, but nothing set in stone. I just feel like I’m on the edge of a switch, constantly and it’s getting worse. Switches for me are like two magnets on the same side pulling away from each other. It’s a hellish sensation.

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

Feels like I’m front stuck as nobody and everyone all at once. Awful awful.

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

Any more dissociated, I’d vanish. My head feels like actual hell. I don’t know who I am, I don’t know what’s real outside, I’m physically numb. I feel exhausted. And I have two more hours to go. Of classes. I don’t know why I feel this bad. Well I have a few clues, but nothing set in stone. I just feel like I’m on the edge of a switch, constantly and it’s getting worse. Switches for me are like two magnets on the same side pulling away from each other. It’s a hellish sensation.

[amity-candylust]

[caintooth]

seeing people my age talk about how scared they are of memory loss, which they only associate with old age, is so surreal to see as a 24 year old who has actively experienced memory loss for a long time now

there are causes for memory loss besides dementia and alzheimer’s, i hope y’all know that. dissociative disorders, trauma, brain injuries, thyroid problems, even just stress and lack of sleep can fuck up your ability to store, process, and access memory. and that’s just a few of the many causes i can think of off the top of my head right now.

please stop treating disabled people like some scary “other” that you might become only in the distant, decades-away future. we are your age, too. you may become one of us sooner than you know. stop acting like memory loss marks the end of a life, when so many of us have so much living left to do!

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

I don’t have DID, but I use Simply Plural for my dissociative states such as depersonalisation. I sometimes feel like I’m this older guy, and use it as such. Same thing I use it to track my age regression and how long it lasts, and track when I’m feeling dissociation of any kind.

Anyways, I dyed my hair bright pink three days ago. I guess dissociated me really really hated it cause this is my new profile pic ?

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

He also changed my profile colour to bright pink, (I think it was yellow before?) and said this in chat :

(Yes my screen is incredibly dirty. I’m sorry okay I’m sick I haven’t had the time to clean my iPad.)

I APOLOGISED to this FAKE VERSION OF MYSELF using /gen after my apology and shit. Could I be more delusional? Probably yeah. But still.

Here’s what I wrote when I came back to myself and found my new profile pic :

Yeah I made a typo I meant to say bitch but I didn’t wanna admit weakness by correcting myself

[actuallyfrenchlestat]

I dont remember saying that but suck my dick dude!! Also stop using DID terms im BEGGING YOU

Dissociated me really thinks he’s a different fucking person huh

Well my therapist says you AINT so take that