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One time I was doing this except I went to the kitchen and accidentally interrupted my dad making a 2am sandwich by shining the light of gay fanfiction directly in his face
One time I was doing this except I went to the kitchen and accidentally interrupted my dad making a 2am sandwich by shining the light of gay fanfiction directly in his face
gonna start with with saying i haven't seen the panel and am going off of the couple dozen posts I saw about this (so if someone has a link id very much like to watch the video) but!
why do people keep asking jensen questions about destiel while knowing his overall stance on it???
Like hes made numerous mentions of how he sees the relationship between Dean and Cas and yet people continue to ask him questions regarding a romantic relationship between them
And then they bitch about his answers knowing full well he doesn't ship them
I seriously dont get it
The actorman's opinion of your ship should have nothing to do with the fics written or the art made. Nor should it stop you from shipping destiel. Do what you want and quit bothering people who dont want the same thing
Hes entitled to his own opinion and boundaries just like everybody else on this earth and that should have no effect on your fandom experience
Long ahhhh Destiel rant (regarding the treatment of queer fans)
This shi is wayyyy longer than I originally meant so if you want to skip my rambling scroll down to the pictures attached to see my actual point lol
Okay so regarding recent events, this whole ordeal has kind of emphasised something that's been irking me for a while now. I've shipped destiel for nearly a decade, and i'm gay, and I am pretty used to the weird way the show has handled queerness in general. I grew up in a very religious environment, and latched on to supernatural as a teen, using it as an escape from the world around me that constantly told me i was going to hell (how ironic) for something i couldn't control. I think that's why the show appealed to me so much, because it portrayed biblical stuff in a lighthearted way, encouraged you to question things and find your own free will. I never at any point expected destiel to be made canon in any way whatsoever, that it wasn't what the show was about, it was something for me to write and read about in secret and never ever talk about.
I lost interest for the show for a while after the hostility towards destiel fans started, it was hard to stay involved when it felt like the show hated me for shit i didn't do- sure, there are always gonna be crazy fans in any community, but it felt like everyone was being lumped together with the people who would send death threats and harass the actors at conventions. It was a pretty clear sign that I wasn't welcome in this space anymore.
So imagine my surprise when years later I decided to tune in to the last season out of morbid curiosity, only for November 5th to occur. Sure, it was comical, a character comes out and is immediately sent to super ultra hell, basically the thing i'd been scared would happen to me for most of my life, and sure the ambiguity of it and Deans lack of any kind of reply made it obvious that they wanted to make sure it could still be seen as an 'i love you, bro' sort of thing by any of the fans that would spontaniously combust if it was an explicitly gay thing.
(I mean, they literally spend most of the show trying to kill the Christian god, but heaven forbid they make one of the main characters gay)
The point is, as diabolical as it was, it was still far more than I ever expected. In fact, it blew my mind. After all of the religious trauma that had me balls deep in the closet for years, it was such a simple but reassuring concept- What if an angel was gay?
But then over the years, it feels like it's always been up in the air whether it was canon or not. I always tended not to really take anything the actors said to heart, as they were obviously entitled to their own opinions, but the way it was treated always felt kind of off to me.
Particularly when people dare to breathe the word 'destiel' at cons are still booed and mocked, and told to keep that shit to themselves. Now obviously I'm not defending people who are being freaks and making others uncomfortable, but it's like people who even acknowledge it or ask respectful questions about it are still shamed publicly because that's not actually part of the show- but the thing is, it IS part of the show now. They literally wrote it in. Even if it was one-sided, its still an actual plot point IN THE SHOW. So why are we shaming people for asking questions about the show????
My main issue comes from the fact that the show continues to this day to pat itself on the back for being so brave for what they did, yet at the same time, it constantly backpedals on itself. They parade around their queer confession, happily accepting the brownie points it scores them, but also ostracising their queer audience.
These are real videos uploaded to the official supernatural youtube channel. THEY ARE TAKING PART IN PRIDE MONTH. Oh, wow how wonderful, aren't they so accepting and brave?
I know it sounds silly, but as a gay person, it feels like a slap in the face.
I wouldn't care at all if it was canon, but the show/actors seem hell-bent on telling us it ISNT. Which is FINE, i don't care if it isn't either, but they need to pick a fucking side, it's either canon or it's not. Cas is queer, or he isn't. His relationship with Dean is romantic, or it's familial. Right now, it's like they're ping-ponging back and forth and still reaping all the rewards of having this awesome gay representation that they can show off like a badge of honour.
I'm not trying to start further discourse or anything by posting this. I'm aware that at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter, and I will happily continue to ship Destiel quietly in my own little corner of the internet. I just needed to word vomit this out of my brain because at the centre of it all, I'm not angry, I'm just disheartened.
Anyways, that's the end of my rant lol go forth and be kind, I'm a multishipper so pls i'm not trying to start shipping wars or anything.
I need more feral/creepy/inhuman Cas represented in this fandom
yes, it's great when he's head over heels for a Winchester, a father and doesn't understand human customs in an adorable way like holding his badge upside down, interrogating the cat, or living with the bees. it's great when he's represented that way, showing his softer side, both in the series itself and in the fandom.
but I miss the Castiel who broke down a barn filled with the runes and learnings of generations of hunters, who put Bobby to sleep with a touch and just smiled when Dean tried the demon knife. I miss the Castiel who thought it was a good plan to beat Dean up to make him take better care of himself, the Castiel who didn't understand why Dean was screaming when he talked, the Castiel that had very questionable morals (on top of not being able to separate himself from the brainwashing).
I miss the Castiel that decided it was a good plan to get into a fist fight with the head torturer of hell, the Castiel that murdered Uriel for treason, the Cas that threw caution to the wind and left an Archangel in holy fire ("you're my little bitch now.''). I miss the Castiel who was intimidating, strange and a bit feral. my boy who looked a bit like he might bite somebody
For someone who was barely active on here until recent years I really do miss old supernatural tumblr like an old friend I once picked apples with in papaās orchard.
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