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Hi, and welcome to my blog
my name is sirius (like the star), and i go by si for short
im genderfluid, so pronouns dont matter to me, whatever you think fits me best is great
on this blog, i talk mostly about mental health, chronic illness, clothes, and all the many many many ships/fandoms i take part in <3
i firmly believe that advocacy/representation, for health problems especially, is so so so important.
i also freaking love ask games and am open to asks on any of my chronic illnesses
more undercut because i talk to much lol
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More about me:
I AM A MINOR
my favorite colors are: brown, dark red, and green
My aesthetics are: chaotic academia, grunge, rockstars gf, and downtown girl
i love antler moths (hence my user name) and frogs.
I absolutely love everything involving: andrew wyeth (a painter), fydor dostoyevsky (an author), space, and quantum physics.
my main ships/fandoms are: wolfstar, oppenheimer, hollanov, project hail mary, anderperry, patrochilles, wilmon, ford vs farrari, and outerwilds.
i also really love learning different languages to varying levels of fluency. atm its Latin, English, Spanish, Russian, and Greek to varying levels of
fluency.
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my spotify <3
right now, my top 10 songs are
1: sign of the times - harry styles
2: decode - paramore
3: do i ever cross your mind - somber
4: do i wanna know? - arctic mokeys
5: iris - goo goo dolls
6: let down - radiohead
7: gossip - maneskin
8: the night we met - lord huron
9: super massive black whole - muse
10: habit - genevieve strokes
also, the outerwilds soundtrack is great for relaxed studying and the oppenheimer soundtrack for hard studying
and my pinterets is:
sirius <3 | ─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───
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i did start this blog for visibility/ awareness to various chronic illness/mental health issues, so here's what i have. (i've also relatively recently been diagnosed with all these things, so tips are appreciated.):
i have been professionally diagnosed with all these things (i have complicated feeling on self diagnoses):
1: HSD (hEDS)
2: POTS
3: NCS
4: GERD
5: Raynuad's syndrome
6: eczema
7: hypoglycemia
+ mental illnesses and neurodivergence
much more detail on these conditions can be found at: this post
my main chronic illness tag is: chronically ill teen
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i've also struggled with ed behaviour, trauma, suicide, and a sh addicition, so i'll talk about that, but only in a recovery focused way.
DNI:
bc of my mental health issues, my only dni is ass holes, people without nuance, and people who actively post about eds, sh, suicide, or trauma in a not recovery way (you deserve better but i cannot help
you)
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oki, i think thats all, this is so long sry (lol)
thank you so much for reading,
i hope you have the loveliest of lovely days <3
i think people miss how much the place some one lives plays a roll into how sever their condition is. for example, i'm a "normal weight", come from a background of relative wealth, live in a cool envitoment, considered active, and also have accsess to transport that doesnt include physical activity. becuase of this, my pots and ncs (2 of my more disabling conditions) whike having moderatly sever symptoms, dont hugely impact my life, and i was able to get medical treatment relatively quickly. for example, though i faint more frequently than most people, i have certain accommodations (like electrolytes, vns, crutches, shower chairs ect) that cost a lot of money, but help me function. i also live in the suburbs of a cool environment, meaning that i dont have to walk very much. i was in london for a summer trip, and it struck me how much more disabling my conditions woukd be if i was in a big city. its much warmer, much more walking, the paths are less even, ect. even if someone had the same or better symptoms to me, simply living in such an environment would make thise symptoms far more disabling. i feel like people should sort conditions by how sever the symptoms and how much it impacts their daily life, like mine i would say is moderatly sever in symptoms, but with accomadations minorly-moderatly affects by life.
one thing i dont think a lot of people get is that there is no way to be accessible to everyone. for instance, some people's accommodations hurt other people. for example, im in a wheelchair accessible hotel room right now, which means that they have a really big shower but no built in shower chair. i need shower chair becuase without them, as exampled by my latest shower, my avg heart rate is over 120. another example of this are those bumps that are at the end of sidewalks, so people who need tactile warnings are aware the street is going to end. one time, when i was in an insane amount of pain and in a wheel chair, i went over them and the pain was excruciating becuase of how bumpy things were. i see a lot of people getting angry at others for not being "accessible enough" but you literally cannot accommodate everyone, and by accomadating some you exclude others. bothe people have needs, but you cant always accommodate everyone. i also see people getting angry that people dont always put image descriptions, without regaurd to wether that person posting nas the ability to do so despite their conditions. basically, no one can accomadate everyone, and i think thats an important thing to understand
queer friendships are so much better than straight ones because you can just flirt all the time and its normal. if you do that with a straight friend theyre just like "haha dude wtf are you doing" and its not the same
