Tbh, I'd always been a Ragatha stan, since I'd been hit with that eldest child + Asian parent combo at birth.
Indeed, if it weren't for said mommy (and ig also daddy?) issues, I lowkey would've settled gone for a typical pre-law/pre-med course. Alas I do not have that much balls of steel and I'm doing what technically could count as a pre-med huhuhu
But, this latest ep put Zooble equal to Ragatha in my top fav characters. Ngl, I quite understand Zooble's plight. Ig for me, I've accepted that I'd most likely try exploring my identity with little to no satisfaction. I don't have the energy to deal with all my relatives esp since they keep pestering me abt acads. Anyway, prolly that's what put Zooble under my radar for fav characters since I'm dealing with my own identity crisis the "Asian Way" by shoving it under the rug.
However, I was legit stunned after Zooble exclaimed they wanted to leave their mark in the world. I wasn't stunned that Zooble wanted to leave a mark (since when did any human at any point of their life NOT have a dream where they changed the world?), I was stunned they still had hopes of making a mark despite the circumstances. That, underneath all their "fuck this shit" attitude, they still held on to a dream.
I genuinely felt emotional seeing Zooble grapple with the idea that...they had to abandon that dream. That was a personal gut punch to me. Idt I can cope with the idea of someone saying, "Sorry, you need to abandon your dream." Bc YEAH, ik being a dreamer in this economy and this geopolitical shitshow is laughable and hella difficult, but it's a whole new world of despair when you're confronted with HAVING to abandon a dream bc it's the LOGICAL and ONLY option you have.
Although I am aware of TADC's message, it never truly dawned on me until Zooble said, Ā "I wanted to be able to leave my mark somewhere in the world."
I think most of us are okay with living in a "stagnant" world as long as we have our besties near us. I don't think a lot of us here would be okay with the idea of abandoning a dream where we made a name for ourselves. Surely that's not just an Asian thing....right???
Who here has never dreamt of being recognized for their talents? Who here has never dreamt of being remembered in history alongside (actually decent) historical figures? Who here has never felt excited when someone praised their work? Who here has NEVER felt at least a little bit of annoyance when other people don't see their hard work?
Perhaps that's humanity's pride at work. The need for recognition, for titles, and for validation. The need for grandeur.
And so, I was already teary when Gangle tells Zooble, "You've made a mark in my life." Zooble had always been there for Gangle, and it's so, SO bittersweet Gangle gets through to Zooble because she herself HAD to abandon her dream of becoming an artist.
Still, at the end of the day, no amount of achievement would ever bring as much joy as the joy you'd get from...
...Simply being there for others.
There IS beauty in the ordinary aspects of life. But, oftentimes, we are blind to such wonders around us. Ik for a fact I still have a lot to un-learn about the definition of success and living a good life.
Man, this show has changed me in a lot of ways. Where other shows have pushed for epic battles and adventures, TADC invites people to sit down, breathe, and feel. To fully embrace the moment as is.
To be a human living, not a human surviving.