Doumeki's First (Sexual) Advances :
The Difference between Care and Loyalty
A few months ago personal upheaval threw the last 10 years plus of my life in the air - hence the pause. But for now, I’ve gathered some time for an original post. Hope you enjoy it. Thanks.
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Care
It's no surprise that Yashiro has a warped view when it comes how the people around value him. There's always a caveat, often wrapped in some sort of self-defamation that keeps him from the truth.
And there are so many instances of this throughout the series.
One of these moments that makes me both want to smack Yashiro and hug him - is shortly after he is shot and is being treated at Kageyama Sensei's after he's exacerbated his wounds.
He confuses Doumeki's actions for blind loyalty.
Yashiro starts to touch himself, but is clearly having difficulty owing to his injuries. Only he and Doumeki are in the room when Doumeki gets sick of seeing his boss struggle.
Doumeki settles down to his task first with sigh declaring, "I will do it." Yashiro is surprised by this, but he becomes confused once Doumeki switches to oral sex.
Yashiro is at a loss for an explanation and starts to wonder if this is part of Doumeki's loyalty.
Nope, but it is a manifestation of Doumeki's affection for Y.
Although this is the first time Doumeki initiates sexual contact, he's not doing it out of his own desire. We know that D is supremely attracted to Y and Doumeki is well aware of it at this point. But Doumeki starts doing it because he doesn't want Yashiro to further hurt himself and wouldn't be able to convince Y just to stop.
I also think it's fitting that this is when Doumeki's impotence is fully cured. Care came first and then D's desire was able to resurface without his "misplaced atonement" (remember Yashiro calling it that?) and guilt over Aoi's abuse.
This a turning point on so many levels and not just because Doumeki is the one initiating and performing the sex than ends up in oral. It also lays the groundwork for D and Y's entanglement, unraveling and evolution.
In a later post, I'll explore the scene between Doumeki and Yashiro after Inami is so merciless and violent with Y.
Now let's look at a few instances when Doumeki's loyalty to Yashiro was a dominant factor.
Loyalty
Doumeki submits to one sided oral from Yashiro from the very beginning of their relationship which morphs into a manifestation of D's loyalty.
The Before Cure Oral
During his interview with the Shinsekai, D might have been more numb than loyal when he accepted Yashiro's advances. I do think D didn't want to screw this up because he needed the work and D wanted to have the opportunity to be close to Y.
During all this impotent oral, Doumeki's probably not enjoying this from a physical standpoint. I think it's just neutral (to dangerous when he starts to recover) psychologically.
The (Cop)lay
Doumeki doesn't consider himself a police officer anymore. He might still be able to list off penal codes code, but that ship has sailed.
And yet he goes along with it when Yashiro wants him to cosplay in full uniform even having to head to Kage's clinic still in his dress blues.
Even Kage acknowledges "You have it rough, too."
I mean D was seriously in that outfit out and about for a while!
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Yashiro's Perspective
Yashiro also assumes an artificial divide between loyalty and love. In relationship terms we don't usually say 'loyal, ' its more common to think of consistency and commitment. The only other person who has approached that for our former Kashira is Kage and we know that Kage's capacity for those things with his high school friend was limited.
For Yashiro Doumeki's actions don't compute beyond transactional loyalty. Everything is conditional.
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