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When will I realize I'll never be good enough...

Being suicidal

There is a difference for me. Between the wow I wish I was dead and the wow every inch of my being feels like it's being ripped apart into this shredded mess of anxiety and panic and depression. I've heard suicide referred to as not really an option but more like a glowing exit light. Always there for when things just got bad enough. There for when I just can't take it anymore. Because ya know I don't really wish I was dead. I want to live my life and see what happens and do this shit. But I'm tired and that exit sign keeps getting brighter and brighter and the only thing that I can think is that I'm getting closer and closer to it.

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M Y T H I N L A N D

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I don’t have time to be sick but mental illness doesn’t care.

(via suicidal-dreaminq)

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All my childhood friends got hot and I got mentally ill

He will leave

He will leave. He will leave soon and I can feel it. He will be gone along with all of the I love yous, and the I'll always be there's, but most importantly he will leave with the promise of always and forever. He will leave and it will be all your fault. You couldn't keep yourself together. You couldn't be happy enough. You couldn't shut out the monsters raging in your head. He will leave and you will have lost the love of your life.