Akemiii

AI GENERATOR ruined my life 💔💔💔

[akemii14]

I don't know what to do...

I don't know what to do. Really don't know what to do.

Everytime when I try to stand up and make a game, doing art commissions or stuff, there's always a way for me to stop and give up.

My sister hit me in 2021, so I need to stop do what I do.

In 2024, I want to restart what I want to do, but my sister got pregnant, so I need to stop again.

This year, everytime I want to continue, peoples around me keeps passing away.

And now, I set time to one week challenge, my mom told me that my second mom is dying.

I am legit reach my limit and tell god that I will not bow down towards them after what they've done to me.

I'm quitting, I'm sorry.

Forget about me making a game or animation, forget about me being exist. I'm completely done with everything.

You can reach for help, but me? I cannot. The psychiatrist are terrible here.

Thanks for the support, and again. I'm sorry. This is goodbye.

[akemii14]

Suck it up...

SUCK IT UP!

Our country citizen just won AI innovation award while we digital artist being treated shitty here!

This is the reason why I have depression in the first place. I was disabled and I can't go to work.

"You need to go to work in order to apply Mastercard! You need to have license so you can open art commissions!"

My mom is not supportive towards me being an artist and now. Even she said "AI is GOOD!" Now.

I hate my country! I wish I have money to leave my country and find somewhere that can help me who is already disabled and struggling with life.

Digital Artists is not lazy! AI art is! AI is!

[akemii14]

Holy shit, Obey Me is alive after what happened to Love and Derpspace did to us...

The art and the voice is SO SICK! I didn't expect Lucifer to scream in the trailer!

[akemii14]

This is my art after teeth extraction:

I never draw synthe before. Also, why is Cress holding Synthe?

One answer, he always change his weapon a lot in game. Polearm, Claymore and long sword. One time, that polearm look like synthe. So, I give him one.

(If you don't realize, I took his weapon design from Eternal Sword from the anime a bit...)

Design reference base on my own design. He does wear armor underneath long sleeve.

I actually forget how to draw. So, I draw him as pratice.

[akemii14]

"Noooo!!! Miharu is not going to make it!!!"

"Nooo!!! Miharu's gonna die!!!"

Me: Green eyes, short haired. I already knew where this is going... She reminds me with Yuu-

You think I recovered after what they've done to my Yuyu!? 😭 PTSD is REALLL!

[akemii14]

YARARARA Asaba Harumasa

Animation is incoming. Maybe.

[akemii14]

Gacha Story official (Lumine) Reed

Reed that I made.

I prefer my art. I respect the official art, but why I feel like my art is better? 😅

If you see the familiar art on Google personality test, they took my art. I drew this.

[akemii14]

I am going to have Wisdom teeth removal surgery tomorrow. Wish me luck.

[akemii14]

My toxic sister being diagnosis with cancer, but uh...

Yesterday, I cried because she have cancer. I want to forgive her and help her, but...

She never appreciate me. She almost off me twice and always bring back the stuff that I wrote, bad stuff while I don't even pose it on Social media that "she won't give birth if she act like that." While that's an old stuff and I barely got out from high school back then.

She even eat delicious food, showing off while I just woke up from pass out due to high fever and starving and she forbid me to eat it.

Today, I was like "I cried and lost my energy for nothing?"

She being toxic again, saying "You eat my foods until it's empty while I have cancer!" Or, "Thank god, I have cancer. I won't dealing with you shit!"

Actually, I eat her food a little bit. I didn't empty her foods.

She hurt me a lot. Maybe this is her lesson for getting cancer. Maybe god listen to my pray, but I didn't pray for her to die. I pray for her to get out from my house and lived happy life. Hmm... It's complicated. Should I ignore her after what she done to me and focus on my stuff or give up on my stuff to make her happy?

[akemii14]

I love Shoto Todoroki, but...

Sorry, kid. You look like your dad now.😅

[akemii14]

I redraw Chester that I drew years ago. Back then, I don't even use Ibispaint.

After -> Before

Nothing changes much. Just the pants and the chest accessories.

And then when I try to draw Cress, suddenly he become masterpiece...

Cress in rebellious teen mode... Lol...

[akemii14]

I'm bored, so I play Idol game and...

Yuujin headcannonly love teddy bear...

[akemii14]

This Sprite doesn't exist in Official...

I actually love Pregame Rantaro. But worry not, I won't remove his thicc ass.

It's obvious that this is not Official. But I tried...

[akemii14]

It is 3am. It's time to sleep.

Few minutes later, I got an idea and I haven't sleep for hours... Now, it's 3pm.

[akemii14]

Today

Mom: Why are you so upset? Crying again?

Me in my mind: If only you understand how struggling I am while being Autism! You forced me to work like I don't have spectrum and when I hit my limitations, you called me lazy and get angry. Also, thanks for not letting me becoming Digital Artists, MOM!

[akemii14]

This guy have TWO DIGIMON!? That's my first impression.

He must be strong to have two Digimon with him. But he's like the NPC of Digimon Beatbreak.

Off topic, but GOD DAMN, HE'S HOT! I can say that because he's 25.

[akemii14]

That one YouTuber: Wow! This is for the first time Digimon doing this! She fall into darkness!? So cool!

Peoples who already watch Digimon since Adventure: ...

Even in first Digimon anime, Yamato himself fall into darkness until Gabumon slap the edgy out of him...

I didn't watch the reboot. Sorry. I knew Taichi fall into darkness, but I wrote base on Digimon Original, not reboot.

I'm sorry if I missed a lot of Digimon characters that fall into darkness. Is Hikari one of them? But she's light, not darkness.