I have such a relationship with The Hand by Annabelle Dinda as a trans guy. Cuz obviously a lot of it is about how men are idolized for everything they do and being a woman feels like youâre existing walking on pine needles and nothing you do is right.
I hate that I do just wanna be a guy who writes the songs and is a sailor and a cowboy and a movie star. I donât want it to be deeper than just being a man but nothing about me will ever be âjust a man.â I donât want to feel like I canât take up space, canât be loud, canât think or feel or do.
And it also pains me bc I feel like I donât have a right to feel anything abt this song. Like I have lost the right to it, because I have separated myself from being a woman, and my struggles arenât exactly theirâs, even if they⊠are. And fuck, I donât want them to be the same or similar, which makes it all the more painful.
i cant even put it into words properly
The feelings that that song gives me
Its so beautiful and heart wrenching