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2023 Intro
Heya tis my reblog blog
they/it pronouns are awesome. use them
multifandom and a multishipper on the basis that everything looks cool
might make a separate blog for more "focused" stuff such as my various "WIP projects" (as in i have not started them). i like art and writing
sorry that i often dont add tags to the reblogs. shits hard when youre scrolling at midnight in a frenzy to touch everything before you suddenly have the itch to open ao3
Fun Story: My director kept telling me and my tenor sax buddy to play softer. No matter what we did, it wasn’t soft enough for him. So getting frustrated, I told my buddy “Dont play this time. Just fake it”
Our Band Director then informed us we sounded perfect.
To my readers: “p” means quiet, “pp” means really quiet. I’ve never seen “pppp” before haha.
On the contrast, “f” means loud, and “ffff” probably means so loud you go unconscious.
I had ffff in a piece once and my conductor told me to play as loudly as physically possible without falling off my chair…
Me and my trombone buddies had “ffff” and he sat next to me and played so hard that he fell out of his chair.
The lengths we go for music.
Okay yeah so I play the bass clarinet and the amount of air you have to move and the stiffness of the reed means it only has two settings and that is loud and louder, with an optional LOUDEST that includes a 50% probability of HORRIBLE CROAKING NOISE which is the bass equivalent of the ubiquitous clarinet shriek.
One day, when I was in concert band in high school, we got a new piece handed out for the first time, and there was a strange little commotion back in the tuba section — whispering, and pointing at something in the music, and swatting at each other’s hands all shhh don’t call attention to it. And although they did attract the attention of basically everyone else in the band, they managed to avoid being noticed by the band director, who gave us a few minutes to look over our parts and then said, “All right, let’s run through it up to section A.”
And here we are, cheerfully playing along, sounding reasonably competent — but everyone, when they have the attention to spare, is keeping an eye on the tuba players. They don’t come in for the first eight measures or so, and then when they do come in, what we see is:
[stifled giggling]
[reeeeeeally deep breath]
[COLOSSAL FOGHORN NOISE]
The entire band stops dead, in the cacophonous kind of way that a band stops when it hasn’t actually been cued to stop. The band director doesn’t even say anything, just looks straight back at the tubas and makes a helpless sort of why gesture.
In unison, the tuba players defend themselves: “THERE WERE FOUR F’S.”
FFFF is not really a rational dynamic marking for any instrument, but for the love of all that is holy why would you put it in a tuba part.
This is the best band post
Everyone else go home
Oh man, so I play trombone, and we got this piece called Florentiner Marsch by Julius Fucik, and we saw this
which is 8 fortes. We were shocked until,
that is 24 fortes who the fuck does that
Who does that?
This guy. Take a good look - that is the moustache of a man with nothing to lose.
@hellsite-hall-of-fame this is one for the history books…
Yeah, it's time to get this post out again
its a battle every time i shower
hope you don't mind op
Would Caine like Jollibee...
YES PO MAMSER HE’S HITTING THOSE PEACH MANGO PIES LIKE HIS LIFE DEPENDS ON ITTTTTTTTT
I’m sorry I couldn’t stop thinking abt that one panel
(Ignore how crap this looks I haven’t drawn these two in years)
(Also two versions cause I couldn’t decide which was funnier)
I’M FUCKING DEAD LMAOOOOOOOO I REALLY CANNOT UNSEE IT
Hi! Im on a small screen so i cant tell, is the flag in ur bio Czech or Filipino?
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wow this looks so fucking stupid on laptop
I already have an au where Kinger abstracts soon after queenie but what if he just becomes like extremely angry after queenie goes
Like what if for whatever reason he just becomes a total dick, sorta like coach dictatorer and he just he's always yelling he's always berating
Maybe he does so because he's falling into Scratch's shoes. I like writing Scratch as like yk a Bitch and someone who doesn't see Caine as his own being, so what if after Queenie goes Kinger just falls into the same habits the same mannerisms but a lot angrier bc he's tainted by grief and loss
Maybe before he was nice. Comforting to Caine. But now, he doesn't even see Caine as a person, as a sentient being, much less a son. So he yells at Caine. Kinger takes allllll his anger out for days, weeks, months, hell who knows how long it had just been him and Caine, maybe even years
And then after all that anger is done, all Kinger has to spare for Caine is an icy silence. He only talks when there's a bug to be fixed, a problem to be solved. Caine truly becomes a tool
Ragatha joins, Caine is shy and anxious and unbearably worried that this new lovely human might go through the same treatment, maybe he shouldn't have implemented the brain scan saver after all, maybe he was dooming others to this same anger and -
Wait. He's calling her daughter. He's calling her lovely. He's nice, he's like he was before she left
That's right, this au not only stars Kinger being a highly unexpected and ooc ass, but also the ever common "parenting everyone but his own son thing"
I also think that he would've kept his sanity for the most part, not letting himself be lost at all in his rage
Caine in this au is a lot more worried, and a lot more distant. He tentatively implements adventures again a few days after Ragatha arrives, and is relieved when she wants to check it out and Kinger agreed for her sake
Everytime Kinger even looks his way, he drops everything, immediately making sure he's not done wrong bc he's just. Desperate now. He doesn't want that silence to return, he doesn't want that disapproval and disappointment and that just eugh that Kinger was giving him to come back
So yeah new au idea I had
Any day now…right?
I was reading this wacky book called "the bible" and I think whoever wrote it kept sneaking in references to the Amazing digital circus....indie animation stays winning
I found the Microsoft Word Art creator again & this image appeared in my head and simply would not go away until I drew it.
I was going to say “it’s odd that my art blog is currently a 50/50 split between Caine DigitalCircus and Hans Christian Andersen’s The Little Mermaid” but it’s actually not? They’re kinda the same archetype: nonhuman creatures who are fixated on the human world, and who are desperate to be loved by humans without understanding them. Caine obsesses over his photos of the human world just like the Little Mermaid obsesses over her statue of a human that fell from a human ship. Caine talks about wishing to accurately recreate the Macroverse, and builds an exit door full of long winding office hallways based on his photographs; the Little Mermaid obsessively plants her underwater garden to resemble the sun.
They exist outside and beneath the normal human world. They’re trapped in a world of “permanent childhood.” They become fixated on the things & people from the higher world that they don’t understand and can never enter.
They want to be “not so different from you beautiful humans,” as Caine says— and they can only do that by winning the humans’ love. But the humans are not aware that this is a life-or-death challenge for them. From their perspective, if they fail to win the human’s love, their lives are over— and they’re trapped away from the humans for all eternity. The Little Mermaid’s deal with the sea witch is that if she fails to win the prince’s love, which will allow her to have her own immortal human soul, she will die…. and she will die without a human soul, permanently cut off from the human world forever, where she will spend her afterlife alone as nothing more than soulless foam on the sea. Caine’s backstory [from his perspective] is that he was abandoned for failing to be good enough for the humans, and is now attempting to prove he’s “fixed” & worth being loved— good enough to no longer deserve being abandoned alone forever in amazing digital purgatory. It’s a similar struggle: “get the humans to love you, or face an eternity of emptiness.”
But both of them fail. Caine can’t impress the humans with his art, they’d rather see the “suggestions” from other humans. The Little Mermaid can’t win the love of the Prince that would give her a human soul, because he would rather be with another human.
They’re both unable to communicate with humans in the opposite way. The Little Mermaid is defined by her inability to speak to humans, Caine is defined by his refusal to listen to them. The Little Mermaid has no tongue, Caine is literally just a mouth.
….One of the many large differences is that the Little Mermaid is, very unlike Caine, defined by her deep compassion & empathy & capacity for self-sacrifice. When the humans don’t love her, when she fails to win a human soul, when she is “abandoned,” she is given the option to save herself by murdering the human prince. She refuses. She would rather martyr herself and permanently die, forever outside the human world she loves and forever without a soul— flung into the exact eternal emptiness and separation she feared most— rather than hurt the human she loves. She gives up her life for the humans.
She does NOT crash out and fling the humans into personalized torture chambers! Unlike some people.
Interesting that you think so much about characters who feel isolated from a world of normal humans, and struggle to communicate with them, and desperately want to be part of that world, but constantly fail, at a terrible cost to themselves.
It could mean nothing.
Pssh, called out. Me and the doomed Blorbos:
After doing that Kinger doodle the other day, I decided to illustrate some more quotes from Frankenstein I thought were Relevant. The moral of the story is: if you make a sentient abomination and then abandon him, he's probably going to have some emotions about it, SMH. I think I just like how Caine is a sort of "Frankenstein's monster in clown shoes," trapped in a way that's both horrible but also ridiculous— Mary Shelley in comic sans.
The Amazing Transgenderism Circus [featuring Jaxxine's internalized transphobia & cringe-phobia.] A post-episode 8 "Caine gets a redemption arc & joins the humans as Just One of the Guys" AU that I'm sharing before episode 9 drops.
This comic is here to be Goofy, but I do think Caine's whole deal is meant to tie into the series' overarching trans themes [even if he's not canonically trans.] I think the show's trans themes are broader than a few characters; it's a show about people who are forcibly assigned bodies & names they don't want, forcibly assigned "archetypes" & roles that don't reflect their real selves, and struggle to express their despair around this because their bodies & roles are so ridiculous that their despair is easy to mock. It's safer to play along with your role, when exploring the alternatives can easily make you an object of ridicule. Caine fails to understand Zooble in episode 3 because he is constantly performing the role he was assigned at his creation, and doesn't allow himself to acknowledge his deep insecurity with it-- so he's confused that Zooble can't simply accept the thing they've been assigned. After all, he's accepted what he's been assigned. He refuses to recognize that Zooble is dissatisfied in a way no "adventure" can fix, because that would mean acknowledging the possibility that he could be dissatisfied in a way that no "adventure" can fix. So instead he throws himself into performing an inauthentic caricature of the role he believes is "all he exists" for & is not allowed to ever exist outside of, even as that performance just leaves him feeling "used" "broken" "defective" and overall extremely unhappy. The parallel to the series' Gender themes feels very clear to me. But anyway, I believe all these little guys can figure themselves out eventually.
@castielrisingabove replied to the original post with an attack helicopter reference that sounded like it could be Jax dialogue, so I continued the story. The comic dialogue is basically a reverse of the episode 3 therapy session: also featuring Zooble's later character development and redeemed Caine being slightly better at listening to people. Anyway: silliness.
ELIZA was a 1964 “therapy chatbot.” Unlike modern chatbots, it was a relatively simple text program that gave you basic, mistake-ridden, obviously parrot-like outputs. Despite being rudimentary by today’s standards, ELIZA was very influential. You can talk to an interactive recreation of ELIZA online here. [I used that recreation to help write ELIZA’s “dialogue” in this comic, sending in my Caine dialogue and getting her responses— these are all how ELIZA “really” responded, with only minor edits. This comic was originally planned to be goofier, until ELIZA started responding in a way that I realized would trigger Caine’s amazing digital repressed trauma.]
I was thinking about Caine & ELIZA’s status as “early flawed models abandoned for more perfect things that could actually generate the content humans wanted” and I liked the idea of Caine seeing personhood in ELIZA for the opposite reasons a human would. She feels like a person not because her responses are good, but because they’re obviously bad, defective, and broken—- not because she acts convincingly human, but because she fails to. Find a bonus page below the cut.
After my last comic, the People have requested more ELIZA. Here she is.
