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This is for the love I feel for nobody. For that someone who can feel books please find me. ínsta: zeeaxzx

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And one night when the moon would go silent I’ll sing my sad tale to the stars alone.

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For that, the pain caused to my heart and the pain caused to my head. I wish,

I wish they were enough to kill me.

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You broke me, broke me so deeply that the only pieces left in me holds only your essence.

The white circle.

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Maybe this is one of those moments, where all hell breaks lose on you and you become so so damaged and sad that you don’t remember the last time you were okay maybe it was just minutes ago you were smiling and it hits you that you were just pretending all along that nothing was ever right and you pretended too long that you’re okay and you forgot how actually broken you are.

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Did the words mean anything to him ever,

or was it— or was my life just a joke to him.

Like it was to everyone else.

.white circle.

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To the nights that always felt empty,

To the road that are filled with thrones,

To the breeze that shattered me into thousands,

To the bed that ate me alive every night,

To the stars that ran away from me,

To the moon who turned his back on me,

To all the things that shattered me, burned me, caged me within my own darkness, loneliness that filled my life with silence.

I’m counting days till I stop being miserable,

I give up,

I’m all yours.

Always and forever.

[alittlestarbesidethemoon]

She fell in love with him, even in all this chaos and darkness around them. She believed falling in love with someone doesn’t need a place or situation or even how deep in sorrow they both were.

She could fall in love with him all over again even if they’re in hell and all agony in the world fell on them she would still fall for him and love him.

Because it was him for her or no ones else.

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Time is a curse,

It makes u forget,

not forgive.

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It’s easier to hold back tears when you’re around.

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I'm scared, my life is at a point where I might just end it right now and still nothing would change and no one would care.

I'm scared to the point where I only do so much for others and none for myself.

I'm sacred that the little love for myself left inside me that I would stomp it over just to be loved, just to be acknowledged.

I'm sacred, the moment I close my eyes my heart would still be in winter and I still wouldn't know the feeling for warm spring.

I'm sacred that I might just consider ending everything right now would be better then enduring to keep my eyes open.

I'm scared cause I'm dead but I'm still alive.

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[quotemadness]

“Scar tissue has no character. It’s not like skin. It doesn’t show age or illness or pallor or tan. It has no pores, no hair, no wrinkles. It’s like a slip cover. It shields and disguises what’s beneath. That’s why we grow it; we have something to hide.”

— Susanna Kaysen 

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broken are the people who find comfort in their own words.

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I loved you..

And I'll never regret that

no matter how many time,

you've crumbled me.

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And then one night under the moon

everything will go silent-

and u won't know what to do,

whom to go,

you would just cry.

And realize

you're the one left alone,

always.

.white circle.

[alittlestarbesidethemoon]

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I'm crowed with people, and I'm still drowned in my own loneliness.

.white circle.

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And then one midnight, the love between us disappeared.

white circle.