Amsel TV

They/Them • Non-Binary • Streamer I Must Scream

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SMPTV The Movie is out now!!

Do you like analog horror?

Do you like The Truman Show?

Do you like Generation Loss? Or other weird internet projects?

Enter SMPTV The Movie!

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I haven't written so much in my life since I was like 13. My mental health is also the worst it's been since 13 so take that as you will

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Just saw someone say if they can't finish a book in a week they dnf it...

I'm going to lose my goddamn mind

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Why does everything have to be gendered!! Theres so fucking reason!! "He or She" They is right there! I just saw a tiktok marketing a knife, a regular ass knife, saying "usually this would be for the men but I love this for the ladies." ITS A KNIFE! Why do you have to separate teams and groups by gender?? Why are we taking family pictures and you want one of the girls and one of the boys? Why?? It doesn't make any sense!! Don't even get me started on Woxers. Woxers. Woman boxers. Boxers for women. Woxers. I can't do it anymore.

Thank you for reading my regularly scheduled crash out that I would usually have on stream but I simply could not wait

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Everytime I want to post something now Tyler catastrophe is in my ear like the green goblin mask whispering in my ear that I'm cringe and destined to be the next lolcow

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There's so much unhinged 18+ things I want to tweet but I can't because of both being a streamer and the fact that literary agents ask for your socials when you're querying so I can't have shit about gooning to goge on my timeline cause PUBLISHERS MIGHT SEE IT.

Anyway I feel the need to remind my audience I am in fact a 25 year old adult, and I may start using my tumblr as a way to say all of the unhinged things I cannot on Twitter.

Or maybe I'll just make an alt no one knows about

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People on the internet say Chappell Roan is evil. I look into it, it turns out be bullshit. A few days later people again say Chappell Roan to s evil. I look into it and again it turns out to be bullshit. A few days later people are back at claiming Chappell is evil and this time they claim they say there is a pattern of behavior. But it's the same bullshit from previous times. And we learn nothing from this and the cycle continues.

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Actually, I lied; I do have one opinion about the Homestuck cartoon: in the unlikely event that it amounts to anything more than a pilot, I hope it sticks to the approximate pacing of its source material specifically so that we can recapitulate the stupid discourse about whether it's worth watching the first couple of seasons before the trolls show up.

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Me while writing half of the time: oh hell yea this is awesome I'm the best yippee!

Me while writing the other half of the time: this is so fucked up what is wrong with me why couldn't I just write something happy?

Me while thinking about my book half of the time: oh god oh fuck I have so much to do to make this not shit oh fuck oh god oh fuck

Me while thinking about my book the other half of the time: Man I can't wait for people to read this I just know they're going to love it

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A compilation of me making myself cry while writing book two in my duolology (so far) Enjoy!

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Big fan of characters who just keep getting slammed with traumatic event after traumatic event and still act like themself but the more the go through the more they forget who they are and so the image they're portraying keeps getting muddier and muddier but they're doing fine actually no need to worry. Until you look at them just a little too long, or ask too many questions, or see past the facade and they break down completely. Big fan of that.

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Brother when I tell you I can SMELL the unholy, godless, fanfic that you fuckers are going to write about the character I just introduced... I can already see it and honestly you're right I give you permission cause honestly me too sis

His name is August Kade btw and he's for the MLM's so rise up homosexuals I've got you.

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Okay but what if I relate to Gabe Goodman from Next To Normal as a trans youngest child who used to be the favorite but changed so much in adulthood that you know your mom is actively grieving who you used to be and when you're around her you feel like you have to revert to who you used to be to spare her feelings so you feel like a ghost haunting yourself...

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My favorite part of writing is when I get to that part of "oh god it's shit it's so shit what do I do now it's so shit my beta readers hate it and are too scared to tell me it's so shit oh god oh god oh god."

It's a good place to be

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I love setting up a traumatic past as completely normal actually. And then as the character interacts with "normal" people the characters can react horrified and they just have to settle into the fact that oh yes they're actually quite fucked up and not okay

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I'm putting this here as a prediction for how the book will be perceived so mild book spoilers ahead.

Orlen is supposed to be pathetic and loser coded. If you look at him with no preconceived ideas you would say "wow what a toxic loser he is." But because he's attractive people are going to be all over him and excuse how shitty he is. (And that's kindof the point) I just know in my heart and in my balls he's going to get baby girl-ified. And you will have proved my point. (If it ever gets a live action version I want to cast Jack Wolfe for this very reason)

There's my prediction. Don't worry tho (would)

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