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[alisonzai]

[barrybjs]

Havind DID is like being in a big discord server and the mute buttons not working

[smilesandexits]

i think that… approximately 100% of the time, parents, teachers, etc… have this misconception that neurodivergent kids & teens don’t know anything about how to handle their neurodivergence.

for years, i suffered through people making suggestions of things that were things i had done, and either weren’t worth the effort or they actually made things worse. i told them this, and if i was still having any issues with the same problem they’d say something about “well if you’re not gonna listen to any suggestions…” when I did. they’re the one who didn’t listen when i told them that doesn’t work for me. They assume that because I didn’t try it in front of them (which is often impossible), I never tried it. I tried doing my homework as soon as I got home. I tried doing my homework at the table, I tried working where I was comfortable. I tried listening to music, I tried working in silence. I tried using a planner, I tried setting reminders on my phone, I tried. I tell people that I have executive functioning issues and they say that I have to work on it like I haven’t been doing that as long as I’ve had to do things and it’s so much better than it was before. I’m as able as I am now because I’ve spent 18 years working on it.

One of my friends has ADHD, and at one point when her grades dropped her parents took her phone, despite her telling them that the only way she can focus on her homework is to listen to music, for which she needs her phone.

I was in a study hall with another friend, who also has ADHD. Sometimes, they would be able to focus and do their work. Others, they would end up being entirely unable to and would do other stuff. The “instructional support” person would start bothering them about it, insist that they try. As if they hadn’t already done so.

I am tired of watching people assume that neurodivergent people aren’t trying, or we haven’t tried. We’re always trying.

[theentropywe]

Hey there! We have an etsy store and we wanted to have your permission to make buttons of your pride flag! We are a traumagenic DID system and we love the idea of having a pride day! Credit and a link back to your blog(s) will be given! Let us know if that's alright! Thank you! -Riley of Our Halftone

That is one million percent alright! I’m excited to see how they turn out! -Wyn

[our-halftone]

They’re live here! 10% of all proceeds will go to PODS (Positive Outcomes for Dissociative Survivors)! ♥

Here are some pictures of them!! ♥

Thank you so much for creating a day for all systems, Wyn and the Entropy System members!

-Riley of Our Halftone

[theentropywe]

I adore this????? -Wyn

[goodbyeworld95-deactivated20190]

Me trying to enter our inner world

[asarlaithe-deactivated20220528]

please remember that in a healthy, adult relationship (romantic or not), you should be able to talk about things that are bothering you. if you are bottling up your emotions and holding it against someone when you haven’t told them what is wrong, you’re not engaging in healthy behaviour. but also, if your friend/significant other makes you feel as though you can’t talk about what bothers you- i.e. has made you feel guilty/gotten extraordinarily angry when things were brought up in the past- they are not engaging in healthy behaviour.

[mothurs]

y’all ever dance in ur underwear while listening to some bops & getting ready??? it’s the easiest way to fill up the serotonin tank

[thedailyzen]

Answers often emerge not in periods of intense activity and searching, but in moments of still reflection.

[screwconsciousnessblog]

[vashito]

I don’t have chronic pain but this artwork is so nice to look at *^*

[ripcatenderbat]

Just because we’re not writhing on the floor doesn’t mean we’re not hurting. We’ve just gotten really good at hiding it and functioning with it, otherwise we’d literally starve in our beds.

[eeyes]

how many DID/OSDD systems do u think are named “system of a down”

[real-pcys-deactivated20190118]

hot take: moms need to learn how to listen to and comfort their daughters without making everything about their own traumas

[real-pcys-deactivated20190118]

a classic example

daughter: hey this thing you do bothers me very much and i wish you wouldn’t do it

mom: well my parents abused me and im not even as bad as they were and i had to sit through it so you gotta sit through whatever i do to you too

[daeranilen]

a common variant

mom: well i’m having a really hard time right now and you know that i’m doing my best and that i didn’t mean to hurt you ergo you are in fact the asshole for asking me to consider your feelings and change my behavior during this hard hard time i’m having

[lierdumoa]

This is a very important post about how to recognize problematic behavior in narcissistic mothers. It is also something we all need to watch out for in ourselves, especially if we were raised by a narcissistic parent.

Because if that’s what you’re used to, you can grow up wrongly believing that this is what sympathy is supposed to sound like.

I have, numerous times, talked about having a bad day, and had a well-meaning acquaintance tell me how much worse their day was, honestly believing that they were being sympathetic – that telling me how much worse their day was would somehow make me feel relieved, or grateful, that my day wasn’t as bad as theirs.

Of course, it did not make me feel better. It made me feel like my experiences were being trivialized, and like my feelings were being invalidated.

I know these people weren’t trying to be cruel. They truly just didn’t know better. They thought they were empathizing.

If you didn’t grow up learning what genuine sympathy looks/sounds/feels like, it’s hard to know how to show genuine sympathy for other people, even when you really do care about them.

[lokiofgallifrey]

Mothers with any child. Not necessarily female. That second bit is pretty verbatim for any time I express discomfort or unhappiness. Or when I ask my mother to please try harder to remember using the right pronouns or not calling me by my dead name.

[systemdiscourseiguess]

hmm so i know a lot of things are signs of fake system but some of the stuff y’all are saying are impossible for people with DID/OSDD aren’t actually impossible, just somewhat uncommon and calling them impossible rather than stating that they are unlikely is very damaging. things like:

recent media fictives. DID/OSDD has to form in early childhood but alters can form after you have it at any age. If you developed DID at age 6 you could get a new alter at 16 or 20 or 35. Therefor recent media fictives aren’t impossible even if having lots of them is suspicious.

controlling who fronts. I don’t know any systems that can always control who’s out but it’s not completely fake to have an alter who somewhat controls who is out and when nor is it impossible to switch on purpose. 

in-system death. while this is technically, yeah, impossible, it can defintely look like it’s happening. if someone in a system thinks another alter is dead or saw them “die” it can just mean that they are now dormant and that their brain’s interpretation of that is to make it look like death.

new alters forming without new trauma. while a truly new alter isn’t going to just split for no reason (if it seems that happened they may be an alter who’s been around a while) you don’t necessarily have to have something severely traumatic happen. it can happen simply from high stress rather than trauma (although i know the line can be quite blurry). some people with DID/OSDD are more prone to splitting. Also the whole “you’ll only get a new alter with new trauma AND when the other alters don’t fill a roll to handle it” is just… purely made up. It’s especially an insult to large or polyfragmented systems. i doubt that all of my like 150ish alters were created to have a unique job that no other alter could possibly fill.

there are others but really those are ones i see really often and it’s… it’s not good. It’s always good to be aware of what about systems is something made up by tumblr (system hopping, endo systems) but its also good to know which things are being said to be impossible when they aren’t.

[fuzzyfishesandscaleymice-deacti]

All of this yep! Dead alters it’s also not unheard of for the to come out of dormancy as ghosts. Controlling switches is never 100% but we are definitely getting better at it. Meds can mess that up though so can being sick easy. Like anything changes slightly sometimes then oh hey switching like crazy or can’t switch at all. Good times.

[lightoverturesystem]

Also for the last bit on the original post, as alters reveal themselves as life goes on, it can /seem/ like they’re appearing for no reason. But if they have always been there without the system knowing, they still technically appeared for a reason.

Often times figuring out your own system can be hellish in itself and even if nothing traumatic is going on in outside life events, things like recovering repressed memories and whatnot can be traumatic in itself and new alters can split off in order to cope with the newly surfaced memory/ies. Just something I haven’t seen clarified too much.

[galgohelder-deactivated20190408]

i feel like a lot of people who have never experienced verbal/mental abuse think it’s having obscenities screamed at you all the time and it can be that but also

someone can be mentally and verbally abusive without ever raising their voice or using a single curse word. someone can insult you, degrade you, berate you, gaslight you, and break down your sense of self and sanity for literally hours at a time without ever slipping from having a genial, even tone. sometimes it’s the victim who finally snaps and screams and tells their abuser to stop or fuck off and the abuser then uses that against them to make it out like they’re the one in the wrong—you raised your voice and your abuser didn’t so you must be the one in the wrong, right? you’re the one who said a curse word so who is really being abusive here?

mental and verbal abuse is not always obvious. it’s not always loud. it’s not always attention-grabbing. sometimes it’s insidious, sometimes it’s delivered with the same tone and inflection that you’d get from someone small-talking with you about the weather at the store, sometimes abusers do it in public—surrounded by other people—and no one even notices it’s happening at all. sometimes when survivors finally tell someone about it what they get in reply is “but i never heard them yell at you” as though breaking someone’s spirit can only be done at a certain volume.

mental and verbal abuse don’t always look the way you think it might look but that doesn’t make it any less abusive or any less harmful to people who go through it.

[traumaticbackstory]

Just PTSD Things

[somuchtrauma]

More like this for the hypersexual/repulsed ones

[spoonieofmayo]

Anyone else not notice their crashing until they take a moment and sit down for a sec? Especially when I’m around other people it’s like “I’m fine I’m fine I’m fine” *sits down and breathes for a sec* “oh I’m not at all fine…”

[13faeinapenguinsuit]

This certainly describes how it works with my RA.

[starfall-system]

Okay listen up

PTSD is caused by trauma. DID is caused by trauma.

These are undisputed facts in psychology at the moment. After years of research this is what they know.

Would you claim to have PTSD but never have experienced trauma? No? That’s ridiculous, it’s caused by trauma, right?

Well so is DID. Don’t claim to have DID if you also claim to never have experienced trauma.

-James

[princesscloudcastle]

Since I see some people calling it “gatekeeping” when you clarify misinformation about a disorder you’re living with. Here are some sources that show that it is caused by trauma: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25670646“ Shared abnormal brain structures in DID-PTSD and PTSD-only, small hippocampal volume in DID-PTSD, more severe lifetime traumatizing events in DID-PTSD compared with PTSD-only, and negative correlations between lifetime traumatizing events and hippocampal volume suggest a trauma-related etiology for DID “https://www.researchgate.net/publication/5810713_Volume_of_discrete_brain_structures_in_complex_dissociative_disorders_Preliminary_findingshttp://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371%2Fjournal.pone.0098795 http://www.empty-memories.nl/science/Vermettenetal.pdf https://www.researchgate.net/publication/221695375_Evaluation_of_the_Evidence_for_the_Trauma_and_Fantasy_Models_of_Dissociation“ there is strong empirical support for the hypothesis that trauma causes dissociation, and that dissociation remains related to trauma history when fantasy proneness is controlled. We find little support for the hypothesis that the dissociation-trauma relationship is due to fantasy proneness or confabulated memories of trauma.” https://www.researchgate.net/publication/261217759_Is_the_Dissociative_Adult_Suggestible_A_Test_of_the_Trauma_and_Fantasy_Models_of_Dissociation “The results consistently support the Trauma Model of dissociation and fail to support the Fantasy Model of dissociation.”

Educating people about a disorder that I am living with is not gatekeeping! Telling us that we can’t educate people on a disorder we are living with because the facts hurt your feelings is ableist!

Would you call autistic people, educating everyone about what autism is and what it isn’t gatekeeping? Would you call people with bipolar who educate everyone about their disorder gatekeeping? Would you call people with OCD gatekeeping if they tell you that having OCD doesn’t mean just wanting everything to be neat? No you wouldn’t So why the fuck would you do that with survivors of chronic childhood trauma?

[hypervigilant]

Source: Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker