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is anyone else annoyed that "ai" encompasses both chatgpt and tools we train to do repetitive tedious work for us. and by the ripple effect of articles like "scientists develop ai to detect cancer early" that make people argue for the merit of chatgpt or become anti-medicine. and by the general state of the world and society
i honestly don't really understand why "some people prefer watching gameplay online rather than playing games themselves" is treated as such a taboo when being a spectator is considered a pretty mundane way to engage with most sports, game shows, reality tv or even just like. chess.
let’s be real the pressure to use AI as an adult is exactly what they said the pressure the do drugs as a teenager would be like but the people that told us that caved immediately for the AI and definitely did not just say no
Bro, blocking someone and then using their tag like this is, all offence, weak as fuck. Like all you had to say was, na bro I don't promote pedo protags on this here blog, because I wholly agree with the premise of your argument given contexts (i.e., writing abusive relationships to show the evils, great; writing abusive relationships to show the romance, yikes).
This response is so, so comically shitty within the context of that tag, oh my god.
Something being nasty is not a good reason to ban fiction about it.
If we accept that "something being nasty is a good reason to bad fiction about it" then we give a foot in the door for all the people who truly, genuinely believe that queer people are nasty to ban all queer literature.
This is not about defending bad people this is about defending the freedom of good people from tyranny, you moron.
I think if you take it to its logical extreme. Say, banning people from writing stories of sexual abuse. That could then be said "well ANY talk about sexual abuse is bad."
And from that, you could ban books that talk about it irl. Or books like how to recover after being abuse. If its not something to be discussed AT ALL.
The fact that I’ve seen this post in some form on my dash like 100x and each time there’s new idiots who do not get that you can’t have *some* censorship.
Either you’re for it or you aren’t.
The moment you agree that something should never, ever exist in fiction is the moment that anything can be banned.
Remember a while back how Tumblr banned a bunch of tags, including many popular innocuous ones that even people who are for censorship used and were upset about?
When censorship happens, stuff YOU like can and will be banned. That’s how it works.
Remember how a bunch of people had their accounts terminated here only last year for writing about their own sexual abuse?
When you ban “pedo” topics, say, any talk of child sexual abuse in any form, that means people can no longer write about their own experiences. It means people cannot educate others so they can learn how to protect themselves or get help from these situations.
Censorship is authoritarian. Full stop.
Even if “everyone” agrees something is “gross” and “shouldn’t exist,” that does not fucking matter.
Do you know who generally believes queer people are gross and shouldn’t exist??
The same people who are banning books left and right solely because they have queer characters or relationships.
The same people who attack and kill queer folk for simply exisiting.
This is not just some fandom matter or a case of being chronically online.
Protecting freedom of expression is essential, and if you do not get that, I don’t know what to say to you.
And the people who keep bringing up child sex abuse as a reason for censorship are doing it very specifically because everyone feels like then they HAVE to agree with the person in favor of censorship.
It’s not that there isn’t widespread societal agreement on this. It’s that they want you backed into a rhetorical corner where you feel compelled to agree with them.
Also, like, we KNOW how this shit shakes out in fandom because it's happened before.
In 2007, Livejournal capitulated to the "pedophilia and sex crimes!" cries of (hate group) Warriors 4 Innocence, and you know what communities got shut down? Slashfic communities. Sexual assault survivor support communities. Authors who'd written non-smut m/m fic even got caught up in it. It was DEVASTATING to fandom spaces. I think pretty much everyone knew at least one person whose account was literally DELETED, or were a member of a community that was wiped off the map because they were considerate enough to include topics like "sexual assault" or "BDSM" in the profiles under the badly-named category of "interests" to indicate that posts on said blogs or communities may include discussion of things like that. Even if it was for a SUPPORT group. And it was because a group of religious bigots came to LJ and said essentially "EVERYONE thinks it's gross and that it's promoting CSA, we should ban it."
Like, strikethrough and boldthrough were a large part of what propelled AO3 out of a more unfocused conversation on one person's blog about hosting a site INTENDED for fandom content, into being an actual archive and nonprofit. And it's a large part of why you won't find AO3 banning topics that you find "gross".
Censorship is authoritarian and it will ALWAYS have more collateral damage than you can imagine.
Going to add that fiction which had sexual abuse and communities which played around with it as a writing topic are the very things that protected me from irl sexual abuse when I was a teenager.
I was in a dicey situation, and realized that while my situation did not match up to any of the superficial or textbook cases mentioned in passing (if at all) through school, it matched up a LOT to what I'd learned about irl sexual abuse through works of fiction and the rhetoric of my communities. I got out of that situation and dodged what was, in retrospect, one hell of a nasty bullet.
If it hadn't been for that "nasty" fiction and those "nasty" communities, I would very likely have been abused, and subject to further violence spiraling out from that abuse.
I had a friend. We were 12. We had just discovered fanfiction and were obsessed. We read anything and everything we could get our hands on. One of the stories we read was a "pedo fic." It exposed us to scenarios and language that hadn't ever been touched on in Sex Ed at school or with our parents. To be frank, it "corrupted our young minds with topics we shouldn't have to deal with." It also gave my friend words to finally describe why her neighbor creeped her out so much. "He's creepy and weird" gets a 12 year old scolded and lectured on being nicer. "He's a sexual predator" gets adults asking questions and involving the cops. Her neighbor "moved away."
Censorship is pro-pedo and anti-child-safety. There is no communicating what's wrong if there are no words to describe what's happening. Bad things will happen whether you have the words to ask for help or not. Censorship takes those words away.
"I don't think anyone should be allowed to read or write this because it is disgusting to me" is authoritarian.
Oh yeah let me just make something extremely clear for all my followers because I see your DNIs
I AM A PROSHIPPER. I AM PROSHIP. I AM PROFIC. I ACTIVELY CONSUME AND ENJOY "PROBLEMATIC MEDIA" AND I DO NOT SUPPORT THE CENSORSHIP OF ANYTHING. EVEN IF I THINK ITS GROSS, I BLOCK AND I MOVE ON. GROW. UP.
When I was training to be a paramedic, we had one student ask the instructor what to do in the event of a marijuana overdose. The instructor said "Tell him to take two twinkies and call you in the morning."
Attackers all chose similar victims — and it wasn’t what they were wearing.
In 2025, federal attorney Adeline Dimond published a Medium article called, “Should You Out-Crazy Men?”
When Dimond was out walking her dog, two men catcalled her. Their comments were sinister and guttural. Instead of ignoring it like she had so many times before, this time, she felt rage.
Rage that she couldn’t simply enjoy her walk through the park.
Rage that she was 54 years old and still dealing with this crap.
Rage that we teach girls to carry their keys between their fingers, instead of teaching boys to control themselves. Dimond wrote:
“I remembered the protocol: ignore, walk faster, wrap hands around house keys in case I had to gouge someone’s eyes out. The house-keys-eye-gouging-trick is something that I, like most women I know, learned when they were sixteen. And this fact enraged me too — that I actually know that keys are good for gouging someone’s eyes out, and I have known this for 38 years.”
But Dimond did not put her head down and walk faster. Instead, she snapped.
She walked straight towards the men, screaming profanities and threatening to have her dog (Fish, a pit bull-Rottweiler mix) rip their throats out.
It seemed to work. The men were stunned. Scared, even. Still, Dimond wondered if — while definitely satisfying — her show of female rage was “really stupid.”
The answer, according to scientific research, is a resounding no. In fact, out-crazying a dangerous man could save your life one day.
A study reveals how predators choose their victims
About 10 years ago, the Journal of Interpersonal Violence published a study called “Psychopathy and Victim Selection.”
Researchers interviewed 47 inmates who were incarcerated for violent crimes against women, including assault, kidnapping, murder, and rape. The researchers showed the inmates short videos of women and asked, “Which woman would you choose as your target?”
All of the inmates chose the same few women over and over again — and it had nothing to do with their size, hair color, beauty, or what they were wearing.
They chose their victims based on the way these women walked.
According to the inmates, the women who walked as though they were anxious and insecure (shorter gaits, heads down, arms wrapped around themselves or swinging awkwardly) made the best victims. The women who walked confidently and with purpose did not make good victims.
Why? Because the former seemed physically and emotionally vulnerable, while the latter seemed like they’d put up a good fight.
One tactic works even better than confidence
Guess what it is? Yep. Rage.
Another study in the Journal of Interpersonal Violence found that women who hadn’t taken any self-defense courses felt scared when they were attacked, which made them weaker, more vulnerable, and more susceptible to trauma. Women who were trained in self-defense, however, didn’t feel scared.
They felt anger, and this anger gave them the upper hand.
Female rage is an extremely effective survival strategy because it doesn’t seek to overpower men’s bodies. Rather, it short-circuits their brains.
Evolutionarily, we’re conditioned to fear erratic behavior, which signals danger: A leopard’s sudden lunge. The hiss of a rattlesnake’s tail. A tarantula’s frenzied scurry. These cues shock our brains into panic mode, so when a woman goes feral on a man, he suddenly feels like the victim.
The human equivalent of these animalistic warnings: yelling, cursing, lunging, flailing your arms, making sudden noises, acting generally unhinged…
And the real secret weapon: your eyes
Humans are the only primates with visible sclerae — the white part of the eyes — and they’re a huge factor in emotional regulation.
Scientists found that starting as young as seven months old, babies reacted to the whites of their caretakers’ eyes. If they were thin and curved, like when smiling, the babies relaxed. If they were wide and crazed, the babies panicked.
Adults also react to the size of the sclerae, often subconsciously.
In other words, “crazy eyes” is a real thing (though not in the way men typically use the phrase to shame women), and it’s time we used it to our advantage.
By making your eyes as wide and intense as possible, you could force your attacker’s brain to register you as the threat.
Last but definitely not least, our brains are conditioned to fear unpredictability. And to a man raised in a patriarchal culture where women are supposed to be fragile and polite, nothing is as unpredictable as a wild, enraged woman.
The power of women’s anger
In her TED Talk “The Power of Women’s Anger,” writer and activist Soraya Chemaly talks about how anger is considered a gendered emotion. Culturally, men are allowed to feel it, and women are not:
“No matter how justified my anger has been throughout my life, I’ve always been led to understand that my anger is an exaggeration, a misrepresentation, that it will make me rude and unlikable. […] I learned as a girl that anger is an emotion better left entirely unvoiced. […] Anger is reserved as the moral property of boys and men.”
In actuality, anger doesn’t belong to one gender. It’s a human emotion that signals injustice. It tells us our boundaries have been violated. It “warns us of indignity, threat, insult, and harm,” Chemaly explains.
In my opinion, being unable to walk through a park in broad daylight without fear of getting attacked is a massive fucking indignity. Yet according to Chemaly, while women’s brains are screaming, “Are you kidding me?” our mouths often say, “I’m sorry, what?”
Why do we do that?
Research shows that when women stifle their anger, it’s not because they’re afraid of violence. It’s because they’re afraid of judgment.
Because women are shamed for our rage — because we’re called hysterical lunatics, crazy bitches, angry Black women, psycho Karens, and man-hating feminists — most of us never act on it. Instead, we fold into ourselves. Hang our heads. Keep walking.
Put our keys between our fingers, just in case we absolutely have to save ourselves. Choose defense, not offense.
But when women suppress their rage, abusers benefit
They keep catcalling. Keep making sexist jokes at the office. Keep grabbing without consent. Continue to hold the highest office in the United States government despite 28 sexual assaults (that we know of). Remain immune to accountability and free to abuse more women.
Please don’t misunderstand me: I am not blaming the victim here.
In a fair world, women would never have to consider their body language before they walked through a park. We wouldn’t have to clutch our keys like weapons, and we wouldn’t have to teach grown men what’s acceptable behavior, and what’s not.
But the suppression of our rage is hurting us, one way or another.
It’s teaching men that their predatory behaviors are okay (or, at the very least, free from consequences), and it’s poisoning us from the inside out with “women’s illnesses” like autoimmune disorders, anxiety, and chronic pain.
What if we stopped keeping the peace?
What if we quit apologizing for basic human emotions?
What if we started honoring the rage inside of us and using it as a compass that told us when someone’s actions were unacceptable?
What if we met harassment with shrill voices and wild eyes?
This culture has conditioned us to be soft, sweet, and small, and it’s turned us into prey. Maybe it’s time we held a mirror up to our predators.
Mulan AU where she does get caught by the other fresh recruits while she's bathing but Mushu helps her spin it like the lake is cursed by an evil lizard demon and will turn men into women if they stay in it for too long.
From there it's not actually difficult to get the other soldiers onboard with covering up the fact that poor Ping took one for the team and got afflicted by the vagina curse, especially since it would have been all of them if they hadn't gotten the warning ahead of time. So they agree to help him cover it up, because obviously the army's not going to understand.
Shang is... tentatively glad that the men are bonding and getting along, even if they continue to be deeply weird about it.
Mulan: Uh, what boobs? Huh? Where did these come from?
Mushu: *facepalms and thinks quickly* (speaks from the shadows) I AM THE SPIRIT OF THE LAKE! BEWARE MY CURSED WATERS FOR THEY WILL TURN MEN INTO WOMEN!
Ling, Yao, and Chien Po: Oh no! The spirit of the cursed waters!
Shang: ...is this why you've all been insisting we don't camp anywhere that doesn't have a lake.
Shang: and then none of you actually swim in it.
Shang: and you all keep jumping at shadows.
Shang: wait a second Ping did this happen before or after you became insanely good at fighting?
Shang: did you get better at fighting after you became a woman.
Shang: are women better at fighting than us.
Mulan: ....uh. well. maybe? no one's ever tried to find out.
Yao: [thinking very fast] y'know Captain it's just so hard to find recruits these days.
Chien Po: Real shortage of men.
Ling: Lots of women, though.
Mulan: [catching on] Without marriage prospects.
Shang: You're right, men. The spirits must have done this in order to show us that we should be recruiting women as fighters.
Mushu [from the shadows, seeing an opportunity to do the funniest thing]: EXACTLY, LI SHANG. I HAVE TRANSFORMED PING INTO A WOMAN BECAUSE YOU HAVE TOO LONG OVERLOOKED THE TRUE WAY TO WIN THE WAR.
Mulan [seeing an opportunity to get all the stories straight]: O Great Spirit, is it reversible?
Mushu: WHY WOULD YOU WISH TO REJECT MY GIFT? I HAVE SEEN YOUR HEART, CHILD, AND HAVE ALREADY ALTERED THE MEMORIES OF EVERYONE WHO KNEW YOU BEFORE YOU LEFT FOR THE ARMY. YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THEIR DAUGHTER.
Li Shang: Welp, the spirits have spoken. Ping - wait is your name still Ping if you're a woman now?
Mulan: Uh. Actually, I was thinking of renaming myself. How do you feel about Mulan?
BONUS:
Mulan [climbing out of the eleventh lake the men have arranged for her to swim in]: Yeah no, it didn't work. Still got boobs. [tries to appear dejected].
Chien Po: If it makes you feel better, they're very nice boobs.
