"I keep trying to warn them, they never listen."
"I am not a good person. I am a horrible person. I feel like I'm tricking them."
"I don't think you're horrible."
"Well clearly you're not paying attention."
"See? This is what I mean. No one ever listens. I am trying to warn you, I am not good for you."
"This happens every time. One day you'll realize I was right."
"And then I won't feel bad. I warned you, so it's your fault it happened. Honestly, you deserve it for being so stupid."
"I will do nothing but root for your downfall. I will wish you pain, and that's before it happens. Then you'll realize I was right all along and I will laugh at the heartbreak it causes you."
"And now you have nothing to say. I am horrible. I am not being self-deprecating, it's simple fact. I am filled with hatred and rot."
"Please don't talk about yourself like this."
"I have met one person, in all of my life, the thousands upon thousands of days I've been alive, I have only met one person good enough for me. One I know and don't hate."
"But it is. I am fueled by hatred. I hate others simply for being alive. I despise their right to happiness and delight when that joy is crushed."
"The only way to escape my wrath is to never know me. An easy solution no one takes."
"What about that one person?"
"They are like me. We are both moldy and fleabitten inside. That's why we get along."
"Infinitely. We are horrid together. It's nice knowing I'm not the only one."
"The only horrible person?"
"No. Well, that too. It's nice to know I'm not the only person who is fundamentally horrible. I was born like this and I will die like this."
"You clearly don't know what you are talking about, and I said I was a horrible person, not a bad one. There's a difference."
"Horrible is worse. I am not like a bad person. Bad people hate out of bigotry and spite. They can learn. I hate because that's who I am. I hate a heart simply for beating."
"That's what all of you like to think. You tell yourself that because you can't comprehend that someone can be truly awful and have no interest in fixing it."
"What do you mean by 'you'?"
"Good people. All of you are pathetic and weak. It's all back to the 'hurt people hurt people' philosophy. You convince yourself that people like me can't just be like this, be happy like this, because you're too good to see evil. You think there has to be a reason. You think we have to suffer to want others to suffer."
"You didn't have to. I got it all from your tone."
"That's hardly a thing to make assumptions off of."
"All of you are the same. You either think I'm lying or think you can fix me. I'm telling you, I am horrible. When I hurt you it will be completely your fault. And I hope you remember that and I hope it breaks you."
"You can't possibly mean that."
"You can't possibly be that stupid."
"Tell yourself that to make you feel better. Know I will do nothing but pity you."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"I need you to know this. I need you to understand."
"Because, as I've said so many times tonight, if I warn you and you stay you'll know your pain in the end is completely and entirely your own fault."
"Because I am horrible. Fundamentally horrible. So long as I don't become worse, that is all I can do."
"I don't know what to say."
"Then be silent. I don't need you to say anything. Just remember what I told you."
"That's a you problem. I don't care how I make you feel."
"Then go. I won't stop you. Goodnight."
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