I've been reading a novel for a while now and it truly shows what love means, to be loved and to be protected, without conditions and limits, without being blamed for anything, being accepted and welcomed, feeling warmth like you're being home, but i always refuse to believe that someone will love me this way, i mean what does love even mean for them, love isn't just a few words that someone pronounce so easily, it's a promise, it's a dedication to a person, you can't feel love if you weren't in pain before realizing that this pain is love, love isn't pure love, love is worry, sadness, empathy, care, attraction, it's a mixture of emotions and it's something precious, at least for me, you can't just go around and say i love you to everybody, and you can't just move on from loving someone because once you love someone you'll keep doing so your entire lifetime, you'll try convincing yourself that you moved on but you never did, your heart always belong to that person, i hate the idea of a situationship and benefits because even worse cheating, i mean how are you gonna justify this act. I really want to go back to where love really existed, to where people actually put effort to stay put together, it wasn't as easy as today to say i love you, because i love you was never meant to be easy to say, but it was meant to be reassuring and warm even spontaneous to say to the right person, at the right moment, so to experience love, you have to experience pain, the pain of staying respectful towards each other, to never cross the boundaries, to stay put, to respect the other side's feelings, to be prepared for the worst, until you get the approvement or until you can't wait anymore until you feel your heart burning in pain, when you want to be this person's father, mother, brother, sister, family, friend, protector, safe place,supporter and lover, where you desire to hold them purely and never let them face the harsh life alone, that pure desire that burns into you is what leads you to be completely hopelessly in love, in real love. And then nothing else besides this person's soul matters to you, that's why real love doesn't fade when appearance changes, when people get old, when life gets harsh. Because you want to solve everything and face everything in order to just stay beside each other.