Kentucky was the only place I felt alive, I might have not been financially stable to do a lot but I was happy and was ok with being alone and single. True I missed my family because I had never been that far from them. I was born and raised in Texas but I never felt that Texas Pride and felt as though I outgrew it, it did not bring me true happiness. But 2 months in Kentucky I never felt more me and just loved my experience, part of me wishes I never came back but I did for my family and although I don’t speak my mind I wish my family would understand and see that I’m not happy here, I spend days on end just going to work and home, I go out with them on occasion to go shopping or movies but it doesn’t not fill this void I feel in my heart. I just wish they could see how much I want to be back in my element and be happy for me and not smother me or see how I don’t like being back at home in Texas. Because being from a Mexican family background they do not want me to be so far away and I understand that but I also want them to understand that I’m not comfortable at home anymore and not happy, I feel myself going back 2 feeling stuck and depressing rather than happy and outgoing.