Anxiety in recovery

Fighting my mental health problems.Art, studying, traveling, langblr. Bohemian, feminist, INTJ, weirdo. In love with art of all forms and shapes. All photos are mine. Feel free to write me. I automatically block porn.

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Is anybody here able to identify what stone is it? Thanks

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Well I am happy right now and I have been pretty happy for 3 weeks so I don’t care if You exist or not but thank you God. This must be miracle.

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So anyway...

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Well I am happy right now and I have been pretty happy for 3 weeks so I don't care if You exist or not but thank you God. This must be miracle.

[languages-georg-blog]

So I used to have a Russian friend who had a pretty thick accent and like a lot of Russians tended to eschew articles. She would say things like “Get in car.” And stuff.

Well one day this asshole who had been kind of tagging along with us asks her why she talks like that because it makes her sound dumb and I still remember her response word for word.

“Me? Dumb? Maybe in America you have to say get in THE car because you are so stupid that people might just get in random car, but in Russia we don’t need to say that. We just fucking know because we are not stupid.”

[annarcho-nicolesmith]

One time I was proof reading a paper for a Russian student. As I was correcting her paper with her, the many mistakes in her grammar started weighing on her. I asked her what was wrong, and she said, almost sobbing,

“In Russian I am so intelligent and clear. In English I am like [an] idiot”

Respect to anyone trying to master a foreign language. I get so sad thinking about that student.

[pomme-poire-peche]

[lady-byleth]

Full offense but people who make fun of someone else’s accent or belittle their limited vocabulary when they’re speaking a language not native to them are fucking disgusting and are just begging to be punched.

They’re speaking your language because you don’t know theirs. That’s not something they should be made fun of, it’s something that should be commended because learning a language is hard fucking work.

I hate people who do this so much.

[arthoe1999]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Second step

It is still morning and I am already proud of myself (even though I am shaking).

I just made my appointment with therapist and I had to do three phone calls and I did it. I did it!

I am still sad, because I had to fu*k up my relationship first a bit to realise that I really shoukd seek help. Wish me luck with saving it and with appointment.

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Very first step

Today and yesterday were so so bad, awfully bad, that I finally decided to try therapy - once again after years. I won´t tell my parents, nor my friends, just my boyfriend who played very important role in this decision.

Why?

Because it took somebody else to get hurt for me to realise I can´t live like this anymore. 

So I promised to myself that I will take action and I will face my fear of doctors and I will go and fight this. I have nothing to lose. But I can´t hurt love of my life anymore.

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I can't tell the triggers anymore

I am unable to tell the triggers since I'm with my boyfriend and as relationship gets more and more serious I am less and less able to identify things, situations as possible triggers of panic, anxiety attack.

Right now I had it because I felt ignored, because nobody has read my short story. I felt so ignored and my mind kept repeating me the stories that happened to me, like my parents didn't saw me starving, like my friends ignored when I told them I wanna die, time when I got stood up, time when I was ghosted.

He keeps telling me it's not true but I just don't know. I don't know how to deal with it anymore. I burst out crying everywhere when he says things that are not even triggering...

[just-shower-thoughts]

What doesn’t kill you gives you a lot of unhealthy coping mechanisms and a really dark sense of humor.

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Lagblr community -  please give me any tips for learning English on C1 level and any tips where I can do any revision, excercices

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I was born to Christian family, in Christian country, went to Catholic school and that is the reason why I'm slowly becoming atheist.

I've known too many people who talk about love of Jesus and yet they're hateful.

They hate LGBTQ+ people.

They hate feminist.

They told me my mental problems are just that my love for God is insufficient and that if I find God, it'll be all good.

They tell me to respect my man even if he acts badly and not to get divorced even if I suffer.

Sometimes they even speak to me about being slutty, because I am not waiting to get married, or that I'm horrible, because I've been through self harm.

I'm sorry if I did offend anyone, but I just want to tell you - when your community promises you salvation, it doesn't mean it cannot be toxic.

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Thing happens

Me: *don't get anxious

Me: wtf

Me: *celebrates

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Relationship goals:

When you love each other even though you're going through some shit in your lives.

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Intj problem

I'm a party person but I don't like party people and when I say party I mean you and me drinking and watching series.

[haidaspicciare]

Carlo Verdone, “La Grande Bellezza” (Paolo Sorrentino, 2013).

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Let's see what is wrong with world.... (we will rape you if you don't shave your legs)

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Me (intj) and BF (intj) after spending friday night with other couple

BF: I need rest and calm and peace... I can't stand people.

Me: Well, I'm people.

BF: Nope, you're calm and peace.

Most romantic think I was ever told.

(but bf actually doesn't speak English)

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*me and some guy talking about books

He: Finally a girl who loves books, not getting wasted...

Me: Yeah... I love books. But honey, you should see me in a bar.