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ok first off HOLY CRAP i am so obsessed with the way you write bro,, genuinely enchanting stuff i swear to god. (And may i humbly request a germany x reader hc type of thing like the england one you did.. enlarges my eyes at you..)

FIRST OF ALL, THANK YOU. i have been aching to write more ludwig because i am living in germany and studying the language like non-stop so this gave me an excuse to practice my writing (lmfao). also, i love doing deep dives into this man's psyche because good lord does he need therapy (i can fix him). i guess, tw, because mentions of war / war crimes and guilt? yes this man is Repressed, however, lots of spicy mentions of BDSM because i do , in fact, hc him to be part of the community (so sorry if that's not to your taste). fun aestiva fact no. 94795743504958, i used to work as a dominatrix in a dungeon, so i totally didn't write 8 pages of hetalia bdsm headcanons in a hyperfixated stupor not completely out of inexperience. anyway, more bottom ludwig please. thank you! he's such a good boy <3 𝗹𝘂𝗱𝘄𝗶𝗴 𝗯𝗲𝗶𝗹𝘀𝗰𝗵𝗺𝗶𝗱𝘁 𝗡𝗦𝗙𝗪 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗰𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗻𝘀 | 𝗽𝘁. 𝗲𝗶𝗻𝘀 !!NSFW UNDER THE CUT!!

ludwig beilschmidt, personification of germany, is a man built like a cathedral—tall, broad, solid, every plane of him carved from north sea winds and black forest granite and the unshakeable, terrifying will to endure. his shoulders are doorframes, his hands are engines, his spine is a steel beam that has borne the weight of a thousand years of history without buckling, and when he stands at attention—which is most of the time, because he doesn't know how to stand any other way—he looks like he could shoulder the whole continent and still have room for the moon. and yet. and yet. beneath the discipline, beneath the order, beneath the crisp lines of his uniform and the meticulous scheduling of his days, there is a hunger so vast and so carefully locked away that he himself barely knows it's there. he is, after all, a nation of control. of restraint. of ordnung. desire, to ludwig, is a thing to be managed, categorized, filed away in the appropriate drawer, and for a very long time he has treated his own appetites the way he treats everything else: with rigorous, slightly panicked efficiency.

he kisses like he's learning a new manual. the first time you lean up and press your mouth to his, he freezes—literally freezes, every muscle in his body locking as if you've just issued a command he doesn't understand—and for a horrifying moment you think you've broken him. then his hands come up, slow and trembling, and settle on your waist with the precision of someone defusing a bomb, and he kisses you back with such earnest, aching concentration that it makes your chest ache. his lips are softer than they look, and he tastes like peppermint and black coffee and the faint, clean salt of a man who scrubs himself raw every morning out of a fear of being dirty, being imperfect, being too much. he pulls back after exactly thirty seconds—you can almost hear him counting—and his blue eyes are wide and glassy and faintly terrified, and he says, very quietly, "war das in Ordnung? i am... i am practicing."

his inexperience is not a lack of wanting. it is the result of a life—a long, brutal, blood-soaked life—spent believing that he does not get to have soft things. he has been a monster, a villain, a cautionary tale; he has been the thing that goes bump in the night for an entire continent, and somewhere along the way he internalized the idea that tenderness is not for him, that pleasure is not for him, that the only way to be good is to be useful and the only way to be useful is to be hard, tireless, unyielding. so when you touch him—really touch him, your palm flat against his chest, feeling the thunder of his heart beneath the muscle—he flinches like a man burned, and then he leans into it like a starving dog, and the sound he makes is so small, so broken, that you almost don't recognize it as a whimper.

he discovers his kinks the way he discovers everything: through research. ludwig beilschmidt does not stumble into bdsm; he reads about it. late at night, in his sparse, immaculate bedroom, with the curtains drawn and the door locked and his face burning crimson, he researches. he cross-references. he takes notes in his neat, blocky handwriting. he underlines the word trust three times, and then he closes his notebook and stares at the ceiling for an hour, his cock aching and his mind reeling, because he has never wanted anything the way he wants this—this terrifying, beautiful, impossible thing—and he is not sure he deserves to ask for it.

his dirty talk is in german. not because he can't do it in english—he can, he's perfectly fluent, he's read shakespeare in the original and he understands the nuances of every filthy word in the english lexicon—but because when he's aroused, when his control slips, he reverts to his mother tongue the way a ship reverts to its home port. and german, you discover, is a devastatingly effective language for sex. it's all consonants and command, harsh vowels that scrape against your skin like stubble, and when he growls "komm her"—come here—in that low, rumbling voice, you move before you've even decided to, your body obeying him on pure instinct. he doesn't just dirty-talk; he narrates, he instructs, he praises, he begs, all in a running stream of rough-edged deutsch that makes your toes curl: "ja, genau so—gut, sehr gut—mein liebling, mein schatz, du fühlst dich so wundervoll an—bitte, bitte hör nicht auf—ich brauche dich, ich brauche das, ich brauche—" yes, just like that—good, very good—my darling, my treasure, you feel so wonderful—please, please don't stop—i need you, i need this, i need—

he is a switch who leans bottom. this is the thing that surprises you, the thing that surprises him, the thing that took him decades to admit to himself: ludwig, the embodiment of german strength and german order and german iron will, wants to be taken apart. he wants to be told what to do. he wants to be pushed onto his back and held down and made to feel small, made to feel safe, made to feel like someone else is in control for once, someone he trusts, someone who won't hurt him in the ways he's been hurt before. the first time you take the lead—really take it, your hand firm on his chest, your voice steady and commanding—he goes boneless beneath you, his eyes fluttering shut, a tremor running through his massive frame like a fault line giving way. "ja," he breathes, and it's not a word, it's a prayer. "ja, bitte, ich will—ich will dir gehören." yes, please, i want—i want to belong to you.

but he can top, too. oh, he can top. when the mood takes him—when he sees you in something that makes his mouth go dry, when you whisper something filthy in his ear, when you look up at him with those eyes and say please, ludwig—something shifts behind his gaze, and the gentle, nervous giant becomes something else entirely. it's not a loss of control; it's a realignment of it, a focusing, as if all that diffuse, anxious energy has suddenly found a target. his hands stop shaking. his voice drops an octave. he straightens to his full, terrifying height and looks down at you with an expression that is equal parts adoration and absolute authority, and he says, very calmly, "du wirst jetzt tun, was ich sage, nicht wahr?" you will do as i say now, won't you? and you will. you absolutely will.

impact play is his love language. he discovers this by accident—a stray smack to his backside during a particularly enthusiastic moment, a startled gasp, an immediate, urgent "noch einmal"—again—that escapes him before he can stop it. his face goes scarlet. he looks like a man who has just confessed to a war crime. but you do it again, and this time the sound he makes is not a gasp but a groan, low and raw and dragged from somewhere deep in his chest, and he buries his face in the pillow and grips the sheets so hard his knuckles go white. "mehr," he chokes out, and then, quieter, as if the word is being pulled out of him by force: "härter. bitte. ich kann es aushalten." more. harder. please. i can take it. he can take it. he wants to take it. he wants to feel the sting and the heat and the proof, written on his skin, that he is yours, that he is good, that he is being handled by someone who sees all of him—the monster and the man and the trembling, frightened creature underneath—and isn't running away.

he gives impact as meticulously as he receives it. when he tops, he studies your reactions like a scientist: the arch of your back, the pitch of your cry, the way your skin flushes red and then fades, the exact degree of force that makes you gasp versus the degree that makes you moan. he is not cruel; he is clinical, careful, utterly devoted to your pleasure, and he checks in constantly, his voice a low rumble against your ear: "ist das gut? zu hart? sag mir, wenn ich aufhören soll—ich will dich nicht verletzen—du bist so schön, so perfekt, ich könnte dich nie verletzen—" is this good? too hard? tell me if i should stop—i don't want to hurt you—you are so beautiful, so perfect, i could never hurt you—and then his hand comes down again, and the sting is exquisite, and the praise that follows is even better.

he has scars. of course he has scars. he is germany, and germany has been shattered and rebuilt more times than any nation should have to endure, and his body is a map of that history. there is a long, pale line across his ribs from a shrapnel wound in the first war; there is a star-shaped burn on his shoulder from the firebombing of dresden; there is a patch of roughened skin on his thigh that he will not talk about, that you know better than to ask about. the first time you trace those scars with your fingertips, he holds his breath, waiting for the rejection, the disgust, the inevitable moment when you realize what he is and recoil. it doesn't come. instead, you lean down and press your lips to the shrapnel line, to the burn, to the silence, and he shatters—a broken sob, a flood of german too fast and too raw for you to follow, his hands clutching at you like you're the only solid thing in a world that has spent centuries crumbling beneath his feet.

aftercare is his religion. the moment the scene ends—the moment the last tremor fades and the last command is given and the roles dissolve back into two people who love each other—ludwig transforms. he wraps you in a blanket he warmed on the radiator; he brings you water in a glass with a straw, because he read that straws are easier after an intense scene; he massages your muscles with warm oil, checking every inch of you for bruises, his brow furrowed with a worry that is almost maternal. "hast du schmerzen? soll ich dir noch etwas bringen? es tut mir leid, wenn ich zu grob war—ich habe mich nicht genug kontrolliert—" are you in pain? should i bring you something else? i'm sorry if i was too rough—i didn't control myself enough—and you have to cup his face in your hands and tell him, firmly, that you are fine, you are more than fine, you are blissed out and boneless and utterly, perfectly content, and the relief that washes over his face is a sunrise.

he is not a club person. the idea of a dungeon, of strangers, of performing his intimacy for an audience, makes him deeply uncomfortable. his kink is private, sacred, a thing that exists only between you and him in the quiet hours of the night, in the safety of your shared home. the first time you suggest visiting a munch together, he blinks at you with the bewildered, slightly panicked expression of a man being asked to deliver a speech in his underwear. "ich glaube... ich glaube, das ist nichts für mich," he says, and then, quieter, shy: "das, was wir haben—es ist zu besonders. ich will es nicht teilen." i don't think... i don't think that's for me. what we have—it's too special. i don't want to share it.

he has a safeword, of course he has a safeword, he has three safewords and a backup hand signal in case speech becomes difficult, and he made you practice them, multiple times, with the same grim dedication he applies to emergency drills. the safeword itself is "ahorn"—maple—because maple syrup is sweet and northern and reminds him of his brother, and because it is a word that would never, ever come up naturally in the heat of the moment. the first time you use it—not because anything is wrong, but just to test it, just to see the system in action—he stops immediately, pulls back, and searches your face with such naked, desperate concern that you almost cry. "alles in ordnung? was ist los? habe ich etwas falsch gemacht?" is everything alright? what's wrong? did i do something wrong? and when you tell him you were just checking, he sags with relief and then, unexpectedly, laughs—a real laugh, surprised and warm—and pulls you into his arms and mutters into your hair, "du bist unmöglich. absolut unmöglich." you are impossible. absolutely impossible.

his favorite position, when he's bottoming, is on his stomach with his arms stretched above his head and his face buried in the pillow, because it makes him feel exposed and vulnerable and utterly, thrillingly out of control. his favorite position when he's topping is you bent over the edge of the bed with his hand wrapped gently around the back of your neck—not restraining, just holding, just reminding you that he's there, that he's got you, that you're safe. he fucks with a rhythm that is methodical and devastating, all his precision and focus channeled into the singular goal of your pleasure, and he watches your face the whole time, cataloging every reaction, adjusting his angle and his pace with ruthless efficiency until you're sobbing his name and he's murmuring "da, genau da—komm für mich, mein schatz, komm jetzt, ich hab dich, ich hab dich—" there, right there—come for me, my treasure, come now, i've got you, i've got you—

he cries when he comes. not always, but often, especially when he's bottoming, especially when he's been pushed past the point of coherence into a state where all his walls are down and all his defenses are gone and he's just—ludwig. just a man, just a soul, just a creature of flesh and longing and terrible, terrible need. the tears are silent, tracking down his temples and into his hair, and the first time it happens he's mortified, tries to turn away, tries to hide his face in his hands, muttering "entschuldigung, entschuldigung, ich weiß nicht, warum ich—" sorry, sorry, i don't know why i— and you kiss the tears away, every one, and tell him it's okay, it's more than okay, it's beautiful, and he looks at you like you've just handed him the moon.

he loves being praised in german. english praise is fine, english praise is acceptable, but german praise hits him in a place that predates his modern self, a place that is old and raw and hungry. call him "mein guter junge"—my good boy—and he will melt, actually melt, his whole body going slack and his eyes fluttering shut and a soft, shaky sigh escaping his lips. call him "mein tapferer mann"—my brave man—and his chest will hitch, his hands will tighten, a flush will spread down his neck and disappear beneath his collar. praise him for taking pain, for taking pleasure, for taking you, and he'll whimper, actually whimper, and press his face into your shoulder and whisper "danke, danke, danke—" thank you, thank you, thank you—like you've given him a gift he can never repay.the first time you fully dominate him—really dominate him, with commands and restraints and a firm, steady hand—he is so nervous beforehand that he cleans the entire house twice and reorganizes the spice rack by color. but when the scene begins, when you put him on his knees and tell him to stay, something in him unlocks, and the tension that has lived in his shoulders for a thousand years simply... drains. he looks up at you with those blue, blue eyes, and he is not a nation in that moment. he is not germany, not the guilt, not the war, not the monster. he is just yours. "ich gehöre dir," he says, and it's not roleplay, it's a statement of fact. i belong to you.

when the scene is over, when you're curled together in the warm, dark quiet of his bedroom, he will wrap himself around you like a shield, like a fortress, like a man who has spent his entire existence being strong for everyone else and has finally, finally found someone strong enough to hold him back. he'll press his lips to your hair and murmur, half-asleep, a jumble of german endearments—mein herz, mein engel, meine welt, meine seele, mein zuhause—my heart, my angel, my world, my soul, my home—and you'll feel the slow, steady beat of his heart against your back, and you'll know, with a certainty that goes deeper than bone, that you are the safest thing in the universe.

ludwig's collar is not a toy. he has it custom-made by a leatherworker in munich who specializes in historical restoration—a band of black bridle leather, two fingers wide, lined with lambskin so fine it feels like silk against his throat. the buckle is steel, surgical grade, and it fastens at the back with a tiny lock that clicks shut with a sound like a closing door, a sound that makes his eyes flutter and his breathing slow and his massive shoulders drop two full inches. the collar means something to him. it means he is yours. it means he is chosen, claimed, kept, and if you call it by its proper name—halsband—he will blush all the way down to his sternum and duck his head like a shy bride. the only thing that undoes him faster than the collar is the leash: a chain of polished steel links, cool and heavy, that clips to a d-ring at the front. the first time you attached it, he went to his knees without being asked, his posture perfect, his hands folded at the small of his back, his gaze fixed on the floor. "so ist es richtig," he murmured, half to himself. "so soll es sein." this is right. this is how it should be.

the leash in your hand, taut, while his tongue is inside you—this is a scene he has imagined so many times, in such embarrassing detail, that he can barely look at you when you finally suggest it. but oh, does he want it. he kneels between your thighs with the leash trailing up your body, and when you wrap it once around your fist and pull—just a little, just enough to remind him who's holding the other end—he groans against you, a vibration that travels straight up your spine, and his rhythm falters for a moment before he redoubles his efforts with the kind of dedication he usually reserves for state occasions. he wants to be good. he wants to be so good. the leash is not a punishment; it is a tether, a reminder, a physical manifestation of the bond he has entered into freely and reverently and with his whole battered heart, and when you pull it again, harder this time, his hips buck against nothing and he whines into you like a man dying of thirst. he doesn't come until you tell him he can. he waits. his thighs are trembling, his fists are clenched against his own thighs, and he waits. "bitte," he gasps against you, the word muffled and hot. "bitte, darf ich—" please, may i— and when you say yes, when you release him from his vigil, he sobs with relief and grinds against the floor and laps at you like you're the only thing that's ever tasted like forgiveness.

the riding crop terrifies him, and he loves it. you've never seen a man so large be so utterly undone by something so slender, but the crop—supple black leather with a braided handle and a flat, heart-shaped tip—reduces him to a state of trembling, breathless vulnerability that borders on the transcendent. part of it is the precision: the crop is not a blunt instrument, not a paddle or a flogger or anything that spreads its impact wide; it is focused, exact, surgical, and the marks it leaves are clean red lines that bloom into welts and then fade over days, each one a love letter written in a language only his skin can read. he is not silent when the crop falls. he tries—christ, he tries, biting his lip until it swells—but the sounds escape anyway, sharp grunts and bitten-off moans and once, memorably, a cracked "danke" that slipped out after a particularly precise strike to his backside, and then he froze, horrified, his ears burning crimson, and you had to kiss him for ten minutes before he could meet your eyes again.

even better, though, is when he's the one holding the crop. when the switch tips the other way and he rises to his full, towering height, the crop held loosely in one massive hand, his posture military-straight and his eyes gone dark with focus. he doesn't use it carelessly—he would never. he tests the sting on his own palm first, adjusting his grip, calibrating the force, and when he finally brings it down against the swell of your ass he is watching your face, reading every microexpression, cataloguing the sound you make and the way your body responds and filing it all away for future reference. "gut?" he asks, his voice a low rumble, and when you gasp out yes, yes, more he allows himself a tiny, satisfied smile and says "braves mädchen. noch einmal?" good girl. once more? and the crop falls again, and again, and each strike is wrapped in praise so thick and so sincere that you float on it, buoyed up by the sound of his voice and the sting of his correction and the absolute, unwavering certainty that you are safe in his hands.

he punishes you the way he does everything: with rigor, with care, with a devotion that borders on sacred. the offense, whatever it was—a broken rule, a forgotten honorific, a moment of deliberate brattiness designed to push his buttons—is stated clearly and calmly before the punishment begins, because he believes in transparency, in communication, in the absolute necessity of both parties understanding exactly what is happening and why. "du hast mich heute morgen nicht mit dem richtigen titel angesprochen," he says, and his voice is stern but not cold, firm but not cruel. you didn't address me with the correct title this morning. and then he bends you over his knee—his thighs are like marble, unyielding and warm—and he uses his hand, not the crop, because punishment is personal, punishment is skin on skin, punishment is him feeling every flinch and every gasp and every shudder that runs through your body as his palm comes down in steady, measured strokes. he counts. of course he counts. "eins. zwei. drei. du machst das gut. vier. fünf. noch zwei. sechs. sieben. fertig." one, two, three, you're doing well, four, five, two more, six, seven, finished. and then he gathers you up against his chest and holds you, stroking your hair, murmuring praise and gratitude and love, because the punishment is over and the debt is paid and you are still his, you are always his.

you punish him, and he weeps. not from pain—though the pain is there, the riding crop striping his back or his thighs or the meat of his ass with clean, bright lines of fire—but from the relief of it. the absolution. ludwig carries guilt the way other men carry wallets: casually, constantly, an unnoticed weight he's stopped registering until someone takes it from him. when you bend him over the arm of the sofa and tell him, in a voice that brooks no argument, that he has been pushing himself too hard, neglecting his meals, refusing to rest, and that you are going to correct this behavior right now—when the crop whistles through the air and snaps against his skin and he grunts and shudders and grips the cushion so hard his knuckles creak—something in him gives way. "es tut mir leid," he chokes out, and he's not just apologizing for the skipped meals. he's apologizing for everything. for the wars. for the guilt. for being, in his own mind, irredeemable. "es tut mir leid, es tut mir leid, ich werde mich bessern, ich verspreche—" i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'll do better, i promise— and you pause, the crop still in your hand, and you lean down and press a kiss to the reddening marks, and you tell him he is forgiven, he is good, he is yours, and he sobs, great heaving sobs that shake his whole cathedral-frame, and when it's over he is lighter than he has been in decades.

the rope is hemp, because he researched it, and hemp holds knots better than cotton and doesn't stretch and smells faintly of earth and old barns and something that reminds you, inexplicably, of his hands on a winter morning. he coils it himself, meticulously, in loops of perfect, even circumference, and he stores it in a linen bag in the bottom drawer of his dresser along with the collar and the crop and a small tin of arnica cream for the bruises. when you bind him—wrists to the headboard, a neat single-column tie that he coached you through with trembling patience—he tests the knots once, twice, a small, experimental flex of his forearms, and then he exhales and sinks into the mattress and surrenders. "ich kann mich nicht bewegen," he says, and his voice is full of wonder. i can't move. and the relief in it, the gratitude, is so profound that it breaks your heart a little, because this is a man who has been holding himself together for a thousand years, and he is so tired, and you have just given him permission to stop.

his posture on his knees is a thing of terrible, aching beauty. it's not just that he's good at it—though he is, he's phenomenally good at it, his spine a plumb line and his shoulders squared and his thighs parallel and his hands resting palm-up on his knees like a knight awaiting the accolade. it's that he needs it. the posture is not a pose; it's a return to something, a muscle memory that goes back centuries, back to when he was not a nation but a collection of principalities and palatinates, back to when he was young and idealistic and believed in things like chivalry and honor and the possibility of being good. when he kneels for you—when he sinks to his heels at the foot of the bed with the collar around his throat and the leash trailing from your hand—he is not just submitting. he is coming home, to a version of himself that existed before the wars, before the guilt, before everything went wrong. "hier bin ich," he says, and it's not a statement, it's an offering. here i am, just as i am, with all my sins and all my sorrows, and i am yours, and that is enough.

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