The Virgin Mary's tears

LGBTQ+ friendly | they/them | 18+ MDNI!!! | TW for mentions of trauma and other topics | this is my religious trauma and vent side blog

[archangel-eris]

Who wants to join me in church on Ash Wednesday to relive religious trauma xxx

[archangel-eris]

Religious trauma is actually just obsessively collecting religious items and displaying them for no reason xxx

[exchristianjoy]

Christianity doesn't have a moral monopoly.

I know I'm "preaching to the choir" here, but I was recently reminded of the deep, dark spiral of fundamentalist Christian morality. I'm lucky that I don't get a lot of angry Christians engaging with my content, but every once in a while it happens. I try to treat them with kindness and respond with respect because I remember what it was like to desperately defend my deity. And more often than not, they back off when they realize that I'm not gearing up for the theological fight that they were expecting.

Someone commented on an old post of mine from last Easter, where I said "You are not responsible for Christ's death." So many of us were told that we were-- that if humanity had remained sinless or returned to a state of total grace that the sacrifice wouldn't have been necessary. A lot of what I share here is meant to counteract harmful messages like that.

But hoo, boy, did this not sit right with my Christian commenter. They accused me of thinking that I was a god, that I was sinless, and that I thought people didn't need to be held accountable morally. It was a reminder that the fundamentalist moral framework is so delicately set up that if one piece is removed (substitutionary atonement for example), it would all be in danger of falling apart.

I believe that we are accountable for what we do, but I don't think that accepting human sacrifice as payment makes me more accountable. I try to hold myself accountable for actual harm that I might cause instead of outsourcing that task.

Figuring out our own moral and ethical systems can be incredibly challenging, but also immensely rewarding. Exploring diverse perspectives can help us build a richer, more nuanced understanding of our responsibility. And after doing that work, our moral systems can be robust enough to withstand scrutiny and not fall apart if one piece is taken out to be inspected.

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[archangel-eris]

For years I have resented myself

And tried to wipe away the stains.

My wool has been tainted

By my own blood and dirt.

I wanted to be a sweet and innocent lamb again,

Loved and accepted by all

A relic to be looked at in awe.

But I realised that I still am a lamb,

An innocent and naive one

Who has been grabbed by violent hands

And brought out to slaughter

All "in the name of the Father and his everlasting love" for me.

What Father loves like that if his love costs me my life?

And why are all these dark faces promising me paradise?

[bambiprincesa444]

[archangel-eris]

I despise Sylvia Plath but she was so real when she said "I talk to God, but the sky is empty" like yes girl you get it

[coloradosnumber1dad]

who can cleanse me of my sins? I asked, afraid of the answer falling from his lips. No one. The voice echoed back to me. I swear the reflection in the mirror smirked. It’s all in my head. It’s all in my head

[eggyolkperona3000]

Master doc that contains different resources and support for many countries including Palestine, Congo, Haiti, Hawai’i, etc ((op is underneath the link))

Master Document

Master Document

[xenonsense]

[ID: Tweet by Nanu's eyebrows 🇹🇹❤️🔱… @ Seaweedlagoon which reads: "I'd appreciate if you guys would spread around my master document that not only contains support for Palestine but other countries as well, I'm updating it with resources for Puerto Rico, Lebanon and Trinidad and Tobago tomorrow!" With a link to the above doc/End ID]

[totallynotcensorship]

know what? am actually gonna pin this. this is too good

[lesbiansforhenryclerval]

Don’t get me wrong I absolutely love achillean relationships that test the boundaries of morality and sanity (hannigram, Paul and Julian and etc). But the pure lack of crazed lesbians is starting to get on my nerves. I want to see bloody, murderous, cannibalistic sapphics who are completely obsessed with each other and I’m tired of pretending I don’t.

[archangel-eris]

What I've been saying for ages x

[archangel-eris]

I am just like Ethel Cain except my dad isn't a preacher and isn't dead and he actually loves me, one of my partners wasn't shot, I didn't fall in love with a random guy who drugged me and pimped me out and then killed me and had a psychotic breakdown which caused him to cannibalise me as I'm watching from the afterlife. Other than that I'm just like Ethel Cain!

[october--7]

Don't stop talking about Palestine 🇵🇸

[archangel-eris]

MDNI: Venting about some TMI stuff!

Being a part of the Church meant that I viewed my personal sexual feelings and thoughts as wrong and sinful. Even now I still sometimes feel like it's "wrong" however through deconstructing Christianity I am slowly coming to terms that these thoughts and desires are okay. It's okay to have them as long as you're not weird about it and making people uncomfortable. It's okay to not have them or to only have them sometimes. It is wrong however to see me as "dirty" and "tainted" because I expressed feeling something that's very common.

[maybeilikecocacolla-deactivated]

Eid Mubarak to my Ex-Muslims

You did it. It was hard, it was tough, it was long. But you made it.

Whether you had to sneak food and water in secret.

Whether you had to put up with fully fasting involuntarily.

Whether you fasted voluntarily.

Whether you were able to eat freely without abandon.

Eid Mubarak. You made it. Enjoy, eat to your heart’s content. You deserve it.

I’m so proud of you all <3

[archangel-eris]

Eid Mubarak to you my loves

[sie-sharp-deactivated20250214]

hey pope francis, if god doesn't like gender-affirming surgery so much, maybe he shoulda made me right the first fuckin' time

[archangel-eris]

No longer shall I kneel for a man who turned away from me when I needed him most.

[archangel-eris]

So Easter in the Eastern Orthodox Church isn't until May 5th this year and that means that I have more time to wait for the dreaded day when I'm told that my paganism is "just a phase" and that I will "find some sense and turn back to Jesus" PLEASE OML LEAVE ME ALONE I LITERALLY HAVE AN ALTAR FOR APHRODITE AND OTHER DEITIES LET ME BELIEVE IN MY OWN THINGS AND LET ME LIVE THE WAY I WANT IN PEACE

[archangel-eris]

I don't have any problems with humour like this but for years I really thought I was going to go to hell because I came out as queer and to this day it still somewhat scares me-