due for a retheme *explodes*

‼️ Minor‼️ Heavily suspected system, I’m just not in a place where I can get medical recognition, diagnosis or treatment… I’m trying guys

[artful-against-endos]

Want to put this at the top, PLEASE tell me if I’ve done my alt text wrong, it’s a new-ish thing for me so very much a learning experience

Previously known as: opalsagainstendos, anti-willo-artful

mostly reblogs atm my energy is low

ANYWAY!!

heavy suspected sys with several other mental disorders. So I’m unwell . (Trying to seek diagnosis and therapy, not going well atm)

Sign offs are really unlikely because of the way our system works

I’ll keep this anonymous for now so… we use I/me and we/us sporadically and the most you’ll know about me as the host is I use he/him overall and a few neos, and I’m prolly fraynomial but u may call me Artful, Host, OAE, rlly idm what. and other alters tend not to want to identify themselves online too often anyway so idk what they’ll do

DNI-

Endos, tulpas, willows, and supporters of them, neutrals as well, if you’re syscourse unaligned… y are you on this page lol

I’m not really educated enough on Polymindence to have a proper stance on it, but I’d prefer polyminds to not interact, either.

Proshippers/darkshippers, TransIDs (idc if it’s “nonharmful” please look into aldernic its an alternative to lumping yourself in with that group), Radqueers, Xenosatanists, Homophobia/transphobia/racism/Anti-MOGAI/Anti-Alterhuman.. js general bigotry

Trauma comparing (I don’t mean thinking ur own trauma wasn’t ’bad enough’ cause I’ve been there I’m talking “oh this wasn’t bad enough for u to be a system” if trauma is brought up

MDNI accounts

r/systemcringe and r/fakedisordercringe

Before you ask-

I should put out there this blog is run by a minor, nothing NSFW.

This blog is to ramble/rant/vent about anything endo (and tulpa/willow/poly mind if u wish but im less informed on those) because they’re all fucking bullshit. And I’ll say DIDOSDD too, especially romanticized parts and esp lesser known things like P-DID because oh my god there is NOTHING

Trauma/darker topic talk is okay I’ll say just add the TWs to ur ask and I can try to add more if I see anything you missed… but I’m a lil slow cause my triggers are so specific that I’ll never encounter them from an ask lol…

Anyway. I’m fully anti harassment. if you want to send pictures of something endos said that’s fine idc but block out usernames so they cannot be harassed, /srs.

Suspected/self diagnosed (with research) sys are obvi allowed, imo heavily researched self diagnosis is okay (especially if something is keeping you from seeing a professional about it like me) I just don’t partake in it myself

Anons are totally okay, I get it, as long as ur anti endo, and you can claim anon tags if u want (I think that’s what they’re called) but don’t feel forced to in any way !!

I struggle with tone over text from time to time so I deeply apologize if I interpret your ask wrong!!

I won’t answer hate asks unless I’m laughing at them…. I genuinely don’t have the energy to be offended by online hate anymore it’s just funny to me LOL

Also also, I may do something I call “double posting” where I post about the same topic twice on accident, this is because my memory is dogshit, lol

Old Tags:

lowk actually put some thought into these so didn’t want to just delete them

#Opals in the mirror - not an ask, a rant of my own… basically talking to myself lol..

#Opal shards - darker topic talk, accompanied by necessary TW tags

#Opals against endos - answering asks about endos/willows/tulpas/polyminds (for simplicity)

#Opals against… wrong tag - answering asks about DIDOSDD in general

Can you guys tell I like opals…

PFP/header credit/sources:

Pfp flags

Behind the icon- OSDD1b flag, cannot find the original creator because Pinterest barely works for me and Google image search is more than useless, but here’s the Pinterest Post

The little heart- system unity flag, an anti endo flag by @\gloaming-sometimes

Icon- artful plushie from makeship . Yeahh

Header flag: https://lgbtqia.wiki/wiki/Fraynominal

Fraynominal

Fraynominal refers to when the name one uses is more likely to change the more one uses it. For example, one could feel a connection to a na

Oh also I made the dividers… ye . The artful sprite is from the wiki and the divider base is smth f2u I found on Pinterest and edited a tad, threw in some text and outlines and that’s about it

[artful-against-endos]

hey what if I emerged from my grave to give a half assed tutorial on how to block tags on tumblr (for those who use screen readers there are no IDs for the images but there is some instructions in plaintext so that might help? I don't have the energy or really the knowledge to ID these at the moment , sorry.)

This isn't meant to be snarky or directed towards anyone I genuinely forget where to find the filtering at least once a week and I've been on tumblr for a few years now.

Since this is literally just a tutorial, for this post and for this post only, I do not care who interacts with it regardless of my DNI . Take that how you will

First you go to any blog if you have side blogs, doesn't matter which, and open your settings

Click on the one that says general settings

You should see filtering down at the bottom, or you can scroll down to see it better

Better image of where it is if you scroll

After you click on that, it might look different if you don't have any tags filtered I honestly don't remember

I know if you have Tags already filtered it looks like this . Click the blue text that says 'new'

Then you just type in the tag and add it

To me it's needlessly complicated so to anyone who doesn't know how or needs a refresher here take this . Ignore the fact I made it at 2am

[artful-against-endos]

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i meAnt to answer this AGES ago and for got whoops sofdys

banana !!!

[artful-against-endos]

ok I want to say something but I also want to be vague about it so idk have this, scheduled for later so I don't have to think about it anymore and I'll probably be asleep by the time it posts

I . Honestly don't have much clue on what really happened. With like everything. We've gotten enough to paint a picture but it's not one I want to dwell on

we've had small gripes with some things that happened in the server (won't state names or occasions partly out of extreme paranoia of getting harassed partly I just don't remember who did/said what) but we've just been irritated lately as a whole so I figured it was just us being angry over nothing again

I've gotten like 6 sides of the same story and I don't want to pick any of them so what I'll say is this, and this will be my only statement because I don't need the stress.

I don't like the idea of profic/proshipping because that is where my beliefs are, howEVER, from what I have heard, harassing people and sending CSEM and all sorts of horrible things to people over that is NOT okay. Ever. Full stop.

I know there are other things that happened I think so if that's part of it whatever, let me put it this way: It is not okay to harass people nor is it okay to send people horrible things.

I want to get my vague opinion out but I also am really really paranoid so I'm leaving it at that.

Don't harass anyone involved over anything, that's fucked up, full stop. I'm not sure what will happen with this blog at the moment but I do know this is the only statement I will make about this and please don't question me on it further

[artful-against-endos]

genuine question what is going on in the AWV

I’m so deadass I missed all of it can someone fill me in or at least give me some vague info pretty please

I saw like . 1 post from someone? When it was going on ? And idk what’s happening that’s the only piece I have and it’s less than 20 words

My feed is almost entirely my interests so I miss like everything o_o

[amia-ami]

I am VERY anti-endo and it’s offshoots. But can we please, PLEASE support those who used to support and/or think they were endogenic before realizing that they had just forgotten their trauma or weren’t a system at all? When I was first learning about plurality, I ended up with several endogenic friends who convinced me that I was like them. I later ended up remembering more of my past and doing more research on the subject, and I have since revoked my support of them and cut those friends off. It was a misunderstanding. I was younger, confused, scared, and I just wanted to feel like I had it all under control. My page is not welcome to current pro-endos, but it is very welcome to those who are now educated on the subject. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[anti-endo-zacharie]

man seeing the awv sort of like. not quite collapse, but crumble a bit? is really sad.

ill be keeping this and aw gabe up (if he wants me to) and continue posting literally whatever though.

edit if this blog suddenly dies and gathers dust then just assume i died or something. cool? cool

[artful-against-endos]

piggy backing off of this a bit to say I’m still alive just btw . (Not really directed to OP in anyway just saw the post and it reminded me to say this)

I now mainly just reblog posts from energy and life stuff(tm) going on (plus the fact that a lot of the stuff I say has already been said)

but I’m still very much alive and don’t intend to delete the blog regardless of how often I post!

though thinking on this now I may at some point step away from focusing on syscourse on the blog and do something else, who knows.

[antimachuss]

"ㅤㅤNewㅤTGWDLMㅤthemedㅤanti-endo userboxes

ㅤㅤㅤF2Uㅤwㅤcreds,ㅤartㅤisㅤmyㅤownㅤ(ReadㅤmyㅤpinnedㅤpostㅤforㅤmyㅤDNI).ㅤㅤ"

[anti-endo-gwinam]

im fucking crying what do you MEAN IFS is endogenic do any of these people research AT ALL before they spout their nonsense on the internet

[artful-against-endos]

I’m sobbing what the fuck do you mean a therapy method is endogenic 😭😭 do they hear themself speak?

[chaosandmadnesscoll]

HAPPY DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH!

HAPPY DISABILITY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE!

Remember to love and take care of yourself!!

Also remember that not everyone presents the same in their disability! Their presentation doesnt make them more or less "worthy" of having a comfortable life!!

Also also remember that just because someone may not be able to "contribute to society", it does NOT mean that their life is worth less than someone that is!

extra message:

YOUR DISABILITY DOESNT DEFINE YOU! YOU ARE NOT A BURDAN! YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING AND YOU DESERVE TO BE COMFORTABLE, HAPPY, HAVE HOBBIES, ETC! BE KIND TO YOURSELF, EVEN WHEN ITS HARD!

-sincerely, both a mentally and physically disabled person

[whisperingbells]

things that do not mean you're faking systemality:

having a high alter count

having very little amnesia

having lots of introjects

using sign offs and decorating your system trackers

having comorbid disorders

not knowing whether you have osdd, pdid, did

having dramatic switches

being cringe

not being diagnosed

being a teenager

not remembering trauma

experiencing ramcoa or oea

[aris-voidal-bar]

things that do mean you're faking systemality:

Claiming to be willogenic

[k0dzu-ken]

Happy disability pride month to:

Systems living with other co-morbid mental illnesses

Systems with other invisible disabilities

Systems who need/use disability aids

Systems who are physically disabled

Systems who have to hide their disability at work/school/around family

Systems whose disability presents covertly

Systems whose disability presents overtly

Systems who cannot work

Systems whose income comes from disability insurance

Systems who are loud and proud

Systems who struggle to feel proud

[sayoris-yapping-corner]

Made the mistake of going on Pinterest, and..

I legit just saw a pro endo say that CDDs are dissociative disorders, not trauma disorders, so they “don’t require trauma” (somewhat normal endo rhetoric) and then went on to say that the actual “trauma version” of CDDs is.. PTSD. Lowkey implying that you don’t have a CDD if you have trauma/PTSD?? Then had the balls to say “do your own research"??

I can’t tell if I want to laugh or scream.

[artful-against-endos]

I think I saw the exact same comment and yeah dude how . how do you . get to that conclusion

[yourfriendlyfayeking]

Endos are the anti vaxxers of systems btw. That is simply the most concise way of explaining it.

[anti-willo-otis-driftwood]

BTW, DID isn't only about alters

If you look into it, the right definition would be "I'm took overwhelmed so I need someone to replace me" disorder

Also it can be:

A "This thing stresses me the hell out so I no longer will remember it even if I need to" disorder.

A "I don't know who I am most of the time" disorder

A "My trauma is a rotting wound that never heals" disorder

A "I never learned healthy ways to cope so I wake up with scars I don't remember having" disorder.

A "forget everything" disorder

A "Hightened risk of suicide/alcoholism/drug abuse" disorder

A "other parts of my self hate my guts and sabotage me (and themselves too in process)" disorder

A "I'm not sure whether those memories are real or a dream" disorder

A "I thought I was saying the truth but people say I'm lying" disorder

A "did I actually do it or just thought about it?" disorder

A "Being near some people or reading something even briefly mentioning/implying my trauma makes me spiral" disorder

A "I dissociate all the time" disorder

A "how the hell did I end up here?" disorder

A "the world around me doesn't feel real" disorder

A "I'm so depressed I can't get out of bed and haven't showered in weeks" disorder

And strangely enough, you can't have all that without repeated childhood trauma.

[fontainians]

Real quick do you think this is the only feasible reason people would be against endos? Also how fucking black and white do you see oppression. CDDs are already a complex and under researched disorder and there are still people who think it doesn’t exist at all. Obviously a group of people (stemming from hate groups btw) who mock, bastardize, and de-medicalize the disorder intruding upon us is going to harm the general publics perception of us. That is the arguement you are misrepresenting. What a stupid, bad faith point.

IMG ID: A screenshot reading “Letting anti-endos on this post bc I have a genuine question. Has anyone ever actually been denied treatment and/or a diagnosis for a CDD because of endos Has any therapist ever sat down a clearly traumatized patient and told them, "'m sorry, but I don't believe in the diagnosis of DID due to fragmented identities being able to occur without trauma. You won't get any therapy from here on out, and frankly you don't deserve the help either way, because being a system is ONLY imaginary and you're faking if you think trauma is real. You never got traumatized. You're normal." Has that ever happened?? Ever?? I don't want old examples either, keep it in the last 10 years. Because if this hasn't happened, then why are you so against endos? /END ID

[calypsotrain]

We were actually denied an early DID diagnosis back when our diagnosis was UDD by a psychiatrist because of endogenics.

This was back when CDDs blew up in popularity online and when endogenics started becoming an increasingly popular identity label. I was quite literally told by a psychiatrist that he would not look into it because of that. This was less than 7 years ago, when our therapist at the time already started our treatment for the CDD I was getting the diagnosis for.

We were denied a proper diagnosis simply because it was at a time when CDDs were "trendy" and "non-traumagens" jumped at the opportunity to involve themselves. (this has nothing to do with whether they actually ended up having a CDD or not, the fact they used "ntg labels" was still harmful).

Safe to say he isnt my psychiatrist anymore, and now I am diagnosed with DID by someone who actually cared enough to evaluate me. And fuck NTGs. 🔧

[artful-against-endos]

they also don’t realize this happens with other disorders as well? The fuck? People have been turned away because of social media making disorders out to be a “trend”

[anti-willo-america]

I think that children should learn the proper names for their body parts, just in case something happens to the child. They need to know how to tell someone.

[artful-against-endos]

1000 times yes, and also, Stop replacing the “oh so horrible words” with “innocent” ones