ASDANGIL

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Would we Call Ourselves Autistic?

Would autistics call themselves autistics? If we accept the premise that autistic refers to the differences in communication and the perceived inability to communicate effectively with others of our species. I can tell you that I have a much easier time communicating with, understanding and reading the emotions of other autistic people compared the mean population. Allistic is the term which autistic people have coined to etymologically define our neuronormal counterparts. If the world were reverse wherein what the world calls autistic was the new baseline from which one judges normal and disorderly. Would we look at the allistics and call them as such? Or would we be the allistic ones and them the autistic ones? For their perceived inability to communicate, share emotions and communicate ideas and concepts through behaviours to individuals of this perceived norm yet the ability is less impiared when communicating with one another. If so, then what truly is the defect?

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Autism - Cannabis and the mind

https://highalert1.wordpress.com/2020/05/15/autism-cannabis-and-my-brain/

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Feeling Like You’re a Bad Atheist

Yes, Hello, totally going to shamelessly ride off having Atheist Experience in the title

Yes I am shameless!

Sorry Matt Dilahaunty.

Love you man!

I often feel that there is a disconnect between different kinds of Atheists

The Atheists that left a religion and those that never really did

As someone who grew up in an extremely secular family

Went to public schools where they taught evolution and had a halfway decent science education

I did not grow up in an overly religious area

Grew up in Big City Toronto Canada

Teachers had halfway decent teaching degrees and actually knew what they were talking about

While, from the point of view of eight-year-old me anyway that is...

We did not have the shitty presidents

I mean they professed their religious leaning, but they did not think that the world was 6000 years old

That’s still up for debate for Stephen Harper!

We don’t have the same issues with religion creeping into government as the US

Canadians, we are just a little bit more easy going than the US.

I mean at least we don’t have the freaking Bible Belt here!

I often feel like I can be a bad Atheist

I mean I don’t really remember not being Atheist

I embraced science from a very young age

But I bought and absorbed science much like a young child would be taught to and absorb religion

It was all I knew.

I was just given scientific facts to remember

I did not properly comprehend the scientific method and how scientific knowledge is collected and put through the rigorous peer review process until I was past high school.

By the way, this is the scientific method!

Oh, that’s how you do it. Maybe I should think a little more critically rather than just focusing on memorizing facts and numbers

Like what’s the distance from here to the Sun? 150 million kilometres

I never had to grapple with going to Hell, or losing my religion or what it is going to take to break me

Why is this not true? I just knew it sounded absolutely ridiculous.

But because of this

I feel like I did not have the where-with-all to hold myself back from being a loud and proud Atheist!

Kind of like the Gay kid who was out and proud in his old school, moves to another two and suddenly faces homophobia for the first time.

Am I describing a really bad sitcom?

I would just wave my Atheism flag loud and proud at any opportunity I got.

Oh, my gosh, you are going to hell!

I did not just get that from the Christians. I got it from every which angle

-Even people who were not particularly religious thought I was closed minded and un-accepting because I did not believe in God

Oh, I am not really Religious, but you know, there is something out there

Yeah, I got that one a lot!

Oh, I am not an Atheist, I just don’t want to commit either way

Like I have met more people who just don’t are not religious but are afraid to take on the title o Atheist, you just can’t win can you?

I feel like I am a really bad Atheist sometimes

Like I personally understand why most of the God arguments theist throw at me are bunk

I just simply do not think that the burden of proof has been met for the God claim

I understand evolution, but I just laugh when I am actually confronted with someone who doesn’t

I wouldn’t know enough about the bible or any other religious book to go toe-to-toe with people like you do.

I just know that most of these stories are not true, that the I don’t accept the God claim and I understand the importance of humanistic morality

I would get into arguments with people that eventually regressed into shouting matches and neither one of us was going to win

Many people say that I should not say that I am an Atheist because I have not properly evaluated every single claim from every single Religion

And use that to shut me down.

Like whatever, did you examine every claim from every religion before deciding what you are

I remember being 14 and trying to explain to someone why religion is a choice

And they just told me that they believed whatever their parents did

I don’t actually believe that God is a literal man in a white robe up in the clouds

I never said that that is what a God is

I always thought that the concept of a God was ill-defined and quite frankly inconceivable

Much like how the religious say that the absence of a God or a world without a God is inconceivable

And that would often just lead me into a stalemate with theists, like I just could not relate to them

Which pushed me away from engaging and just led me to think that there was something wrong with me

Whenever someone said something to me like “God loves you,” I would say “Actually...”

“O, But he believes in you!”

Ya, come again? I am just going to back away slowly now

I did not lose my family

I mean, sure my relationship is not great

But they don’t constantly try to bring me back into the fold

And they still talk to me

I mean, when your first kid was an Engineer and irreligious and your second kid is, well me

You kind of got to roll with the punches

I always kind of felt like my parents got a bit lazy after I was born.

Like they went overboard with James and just completely missed the bar the other way with me

I actually got my dad to admit to me that he wishes he raised me religiously

He thinks he could have saved me from the clutches of Satan!

Like sorry, I was still a rebellious punk, and I can tell you right now, had I been raised religiously, I would have only rebelled twice as hard!

It often feels like I am riding off the wave that others pushed for before me

Like why have a parade, I never had to fight tooth and nail!

Sometimes that hardest part of never having been in the closet

Is not knowing what was actually in there!

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Yes Autism Club, Autism is so Goth!

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Please Tell me What is Wrong with This

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The Corona Virus!

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Buying this phone case is not going to make you more environmentally conscious. Trying to make environmentalism woke and hip amuses me.

[carly-rae-transbians]

My fav trans writer just made this on her Twitter so I thought I’d share.

[etrianodysseyobsession-hd-deact]

The major unlock for me was realizing that wanting to be a girl was a symptom of being a girl.

[thatbakedjedi-deactivated202504]

Me realizing I was trans was me going “Wow. I wish I was transgender., I’d like to be a girl.” for MONTHS (this was when I started seriously questioning) till one day I was wishing I was trans and then I was just like:

“……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….WAIT.”

[woolawool-deactivated20220724]

I remember when I was like 13 I read something about trans people in an informative way for the first time and in the span of about three seconds I was just like “oh. That’s a thing. That makes a whole lot of sense.”

[evolution-incarnate]

Ever since I could comprehend what a girl was I wanted to be one Thought it was normal

[sam-is-not-here-anymore-deactiv]

These comments are so pure and sweet I had to reblog!

[nymphaeale]

“wanting to be a girl was a symptom of being a girl” this was a huge stumbling block for me. I learned of the existence of trans ppl in my late teens, but always seen it framed as ‘they ARE [gender]’. But I thought I only WANTED to be a girl (which I didn’t realize wasn’t normal. Who wouldn’t, right?) It wasn’t until 6 or 7 years later that I figured out I was trans too… But that’s why posts like this are important to me, hopefully some trans ppl who haven’t realized it yet see them, and realize that this could apply to them. Cause while we are our gender, when you’re figuring it out; it feels less sure, cause the whole world is trying to tell you otherwise.

[deadcatwithaflamethrower]

This is so important, and helped my own trans kid *so much* to figure out what she wanted.

[alexander-lamington]

Literally a friend of mine was like “you know how you just… look at women and get sad cos you wanna be them?”

N-no… I’m pretty sure that’s more or less exclusively a trans feminine thing my friend.

[that-autistic-hufflepuff]

This is the same way I figured out I was a trans guy. I looked at guys and was like I wanna look like him

[asdangil]

This is the biggest brain blast ever, you know everyone outside of your little internet bubble is going to see this and take this to show the world just how stupid transgenderism really is. Totally they will say things like, "That's right boys and girls, now all you have to do to be the other gender is just be the other gender. Transgenderism has gone absolutely loopy. That's right, grown ass men, you don't have to transition, you were a woman and always are one! At least transmedicalism was easier to swallow than this. This is why you are the absolute laughing stock of the gender movement of the left!”

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Ah Gee thanks Facebook now I have to Talk to people

A Gee thanks facebook. Thanks to your stupid Kakis06 bot or whatever the fuck that was, I have to go and clean up this mess. It sent a link to an absolute nothingness page. It did not do anything to my pictures or my passwords or anything to my facebook it just knocked me out for about 5 minutes and greatly annoyed me. So literally everyone on my facebook as well as people I do not know or ever spoke to in my life got sent a link that read, “It looks like you...” It looks like you got hacked sucker.  That is right, your dumb bot sent a mass message from my account out to the world. This resulted in people who I either have literally not spoken to in years but I keep them around because I occasionally creep their facebooks to see how their doing to people I do not know at all messaging me wondering why I sent them this absolutely random messages. Like the guy who I had an awkward random fling with years ago to people who I played with in middle school when I was 13 years old, or people who hardly knew in highschool but they added me to their friends list for that one assignment we did together. The Anime Club in college, ya we played cards and watched random anime movies in vacant classrooms and ate snacks, hi! I know we ain’t spoken in years and I really don’t want to interact with you now but I must explain myself. Ya I guess this gives me an excuse to do some facebook purging. Is this the internet’s weird way of telling me I need to be more vigilant when I log on and to change my password more frequently. To steel my password and give it to a spam bot for like 2 minutes to mass send nonsense across the internet. Yes I will change my password more often oh great Gods. This is what this bot accomplished. What that its purpose. How many lines of rogue code did this take. How much work did this randomass pull out of its sinister buttocks to accomplish this. Find a bunch of random people in the internet, get into their facbook, send this link. Rinse and repeat. This is the absolute internet epidemic we are dealing with. Forcing me to talk to people that I do not ever speak to and who have faded away. Remind me of how boring and lonely my life is, clouded and cluttered by work and social anxiety? Thanks a lot life. But I am just one loathsome person. This comes back around and around. Pretty soon everyone has seen this bot. Think of the number of manhours lost on the annoyance and the number of people who suddenly now have to talk to people they have not spoken to in year or may have forever unfinished business with them and now they might just have to deal as the memories come back. Who even is this person. Not to mention all the utterly bizarre people you annoyed. Well shit I am going to creep you now too. I wonder if I will actually get a celebrity. Ya, I think I will have to block you! Is this what computer viruses and uber weird nerd hackers working for some rogue firm in Silicone Valley. Lord knows another one springs up every day! If this is what the computer apocalypse looks like then get me the fuck out of here. You see this is the internet’s master plan to annoy and screw with our lives, so that we get away from it and socialize!

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Elsa is the Avatar

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New Dating Profile (What was I Smoking?)

I enjoy long walks along the trails and by the river. I usually prefer to be outdoors, but when inside I take frequent adventures to the cat cafe, the mall, and to the movies.  Enjoy reading and learning about the world around me from the news to the sciences. I am particularly captivated by the stories of wolves and by adventure literature. I am looking for someone to talk with Someone who gets me And to hold me Read books with me We can cook and share life together Someone who makes me feel free. Come along boy Can you free me from the shackles of society To go on the adventure of a life time

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The Bus had a bad Day

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In Pursuit of a New World

It had been almost a year and a half since Reg had met Varo, and yet it felt like it was yesterday. It felt like he had come face-to-face with a long-lost brother; his heart screamed to know more about him and more about his culture. So much so in fact that he promised to save him and his people in the battle of the universe if it came down to it. Thankfully, his world was saved. Reg could not save his own world; he was only a child and he had no idea until it was far, far too late. He knew, that if he could save Varo’s world, he would do anything. He would give his one and only wish to the Gods.  In the end, he did not have to make that wish; it was made for him, by someone fare more pure than him. Someone who endeavoured to save and absolve everyone, rather than the people he simply connected with the most. Since that day, Varo vowed to keep his promise. To introduce Reg to the King of his homeland, which turned out to be Reg’s homeland from another universe, another timeline—a timeline where Lavarenge did not destroy it. It wasn’t merely that Reg wanted to meet the King of Varo’s people; it was that he wanted the opportunity to resurrect his dying race from the ashes and let it live again. He felt somewhat guilty of this realization that came upon him when he first met Varo, and then later when he met Cali and Kaye. Could he breath new life into his once proud people? Yes he loved Undesia and his two children Spex and Kena, he felt they were mere substitutes for a family of purebloods. Sure, he may have held some racism for his race, but when your people were lost to genocide, you cannot help but yearn to bring them back, by any means. This secret welled up inside of him that day as he stood next to Gereck waiting for Varo to arrive.

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[butterflyinthewell]

Oh, look, a mom thinking she can discredit the damage done to many autistic people because ABA “worked” for her daughter. Hello, ableism train!

[epsquish]

Oh hey. I refused to drink water when I was a little kid. I eventually grew into drinking it by about 10 to 12 years old on my own. (Lovely to hear I had the option to be tortured into it though, so sad I missed out /s)

Imagine how unsafe your kid would be in the future if drinking water triggers PTSD. They’d probably avoid drinking and get dehydrated often. “Survival” my ass. That’s about convenience for the parent.

[asdangil]

It is important to understand the good and the bad. There are lots of good therapists and there are some bad ones. Unfortunately the bad ones stick out in our brains. ABA and its applications to autism were primarily developed as a means to make autistic children virtually indistinguishable to their age-matched peers. There are generally two ways parents and caregivers approach therapies in general. Will this cure my kid / make them as indistinguishable from their age-matched peers as possible? Or will it help them to better interact with, understand society and give them a better life. If it is the latter, you are probably coming from a good place. Most autistic adult's criticisms are: children should not be put through 30+ hours a week of therapy; ABA/IBI are pushed by the psychologists and other practitioners as catch-all therapies because of its intensity and that it's damn expensive (easy to cash in on) when there are less intensive options that you can use to help your child learn, and that it uses things like punishment (including withholding things like food, toys and love) and aversion therapy to get results. I think it is important to listen to people who have been in abusive situations as well as to work with your therapist to get results that are best for your child

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The true meaning of Christmas is Consumerism