Alineko

[feathereddd]

they were my first danganronpa ship. i luv them

[beardedmrbean]

[thehauntedp0et]

I hate that I love so much

I hate that I care too much

I hate that I think everyone hates me.

I hate that I obsess so much

I hate that I check too much

I hate that I pretend it doesn’t kill me.

I hate to be the crazy one

I hate to be so out of touch

I hate myself and my gullibility.

I hate to be the broken one

I hate to be the only one

I hate that everyone leaves me.

I hate that it never lasts

I hate that they ignore me after the initial match

I hate that I thought it to be something.

I hate that I keep doubling back

I hate that my stomach hurts so bad

I hate that you came and left just like that.

//I hate…

[inversedlines]

[brdrlneprsnltydsrdr]

[1introvertedsage]

[lover-or-loner]

I fear I am not worth the effort it would take to love me

[boredasfluff]

I feel like the ugliest dog at the shelter

[thehauntedetheral]

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Warning: Depression, suicidal thoughts, sensitive content, read on your own risk.

Author's note: I Don't know what the hell I wrote. I am just posting it.

Do you ever feel like that you have everything but still nothing? Money, fame, loving parents, good friends. Yet a hole. People call that you are spoiled.  Others would kill to be in your position.  Why be sad? I don't know it's like sadness is my second skin. Always there. Spreading all over my body in a slow beautiful way but killing me in the most painful way. It’s like I am functioned to be sad. I question myself why I am sad? Why? You have everything? Why just Why? I ask this to myself everyday.  I know I can't feel emotions much. Then why do I always feel never ending sadness, like it’s the only one that exist. Everything feels like an illusion that is trying to sabotage me into unending madness.

Am I descending to madness or once again is it some kind of maze that my brain created again?

I don't get any answers. And that frustrates me to no end. I don't like being not engaged because now my mind has spiraled down to this very dark road again. I hate hate hate how dark it is and how dark it feels. I really am searching for lightness even just a tiny minute pixel of light but it feels so out of reach that even if I run to the fullest till my last breath it still feels far away. It feels like either I will drown myself into my sorrows or kill myself with endless crying. I sometimes wished we could cry pearls so that it would look beautiful.  So that crying can be beautiful.  And I can treasure that beautiful pearl with me or might make a necklace of my tear pearls. Either way it's an pieces brought together by my sorrows.  The sorrows that look too beautiful to world but is chocking the oxygen supply for me. Making my throat burn and water my eyes. I guess I might die by being choked by a long beautiful thread of my tear pearls. Atleast It’s a pretty looking dying. Adorned with the pearls made of my sorrow tears. Might even be poetic. 

Let me know through comments what you feel about this.

[sexybritishllama]

one of the most frustrating things about getting a job is that after you go through the absolute hellscape that is applying and interviewing and you finally prove yourself worthy of having employment, you'll end up in the workforce and realise that 90% of the people with jobs are not actually very good at them. so like why was all of that even so hard

[neglectedmutt]

i feel like a puppy no one wants

[memento-meliora]

forced to say “it’s okay!” Instead of throwing a fucking chair at their head

[condemnedbody]

I think bashing my head against a wall will fix me.

[yourgirlinpieces2]

what doesnt kill u makes u want to die all the time

[vanta--black]

finally posting these!! Shang Qinghua & Mobei-jun based on @shanuraru 's gorgeous concept art/character interpretation!✈️❄️

a little bit of ramble + more photos ↓

!disclaimer! 1) tbh I don't really consider myself a cosplayer and some parts of the photos are obviously edited 2) sadly qinghua's costume is still not fully ready yet (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠)

About a year ago I saw these designs and the moment I did I knew I had to make them. There were two main problems - I (then) was very tight on budget and I (then) had no one to be my king... Some time passed, I started taking sewing commissions and met a wonderful beautiful darling who we became besties with and who agreed to be my dawang.

The most time spent on the sewing was during this year's September as we decided to participate in Chinese danmei-themed fest competition in November. The idea was cool, the music was suitable enough but we fucked up big time right on the scene so I'm only showing a few remaining okay-ish photos from there(also yes I was wearing a pair of horribly dense halloween-style yellow lenses, my bad these were the only ones I had at the time)

Personally I consider this to be my biggest sewing/crafting project yet, and the one Im pretty much satisfied with hehe

Anyways we are planning a separate outdoor photoshoot in about a month(with hopes of the good snowy weather ofc) after I add some finishing touches and a few more accessories, so that's not the last time you're seeing these two(⁠｡⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠｡⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠♡

credits:

Mobei-jun💙: t.me/minamirz

Ph: t.me/rometse | vk.com/sagenavphotos | vk.com/shinophoto | vk.com/galaxy_of_green

[allpiesforourown]

pov youre shen jiu and your darling head disciple shen yuan is entering the immortal alliance conference and when you see him team up with that bastard luo binghe who runs after him calling him "shen shixiong" you cant do anything about it.

you also cant do anything when the spirit eagles broadcast to everyone who luo binghe clings to shen yuan at every opportunity. he says "shixiong I'm cold..." until shen yuan gets under the blanket with him and shares his body heat by cuddling him the rest of the night. the spirit eagles show them having their meals together, shen yuan wiping the sauce off the side of binghes face with his handkerchief. them fighting side by side against monsters perfectly in sync with each other.

the immortal masters around you are shipping them. your favourite and least favourite students are everyones it couple. somehow the two of them together have dominated the leaderboards too.

so when everyone finds out shen yuans beloved shidi perished at the hands of the demons, theyre moved to tears on shen yuans behalf. the young man is trying to be so strong about the whole thing. endless gifts are sent to qing jing and shen jiu has to throw them all out. doesn't get rid of shen yuans reputation as a mourning widow whose love everyone saw first hand with each headpat in the arena. theyre the cultivation world's first tragic yaoi.

[wumiings]

Favorite details from the new extras:

Shang Qinghua original body looks like the bullied sadboi protagonist of a high school romance

Shen Yuan’s sister was entirely unsurprised that he “picked up” Xiang Fei in the hospital bc he has a long history of bringing home stray puppies to wash and feed 🥺

SY invited XF home w/ his family bc he knew XF didn’t have anyone looking out for him at home 😢

SY’s older brothers proved that they’d taken time off work when he first fell ill by sending him photos of his own ‘corpse’???

The author warning that it’s always a bad idea to add on to your complete, highly successful story years after the fact… while doing exactly that

Luo Binghe has suspected that SY wasn’t the original SQQ since he was fOURTEEN and just never brought it up bc SY clearly didn’t want to talk about it

SQQ’S RELIEF WHEN LBH ASSURED HIM THAT THEIR SOULS WERE TIED TOGETHER AND HE COULD ALWAYS FIND HIM 😭😭

SY’s dad IMMEDIATELY clocking Bingqiu and aggressively eyebrow-wiggling about it

Shen Tang: “I’ve known since I was little that you’d never get a girlfriend”

Mobei-Jun scaring the shit out of XF by crawling out of his computer screen

REAL Peerless Cucumber fans on the forum know he always loved LBH (and real Airplane fans know he was always a good writer)

LBH: “What is this ‘Proud Immortal Demon Way’?” / SY&XF: “Huh?? That’s so weird, I’ve never heard of that in my life”

SQH wants MBJ to call him daddy soooo bad lmao

SQQ saying that Regret of Chunshan and Song of Bingqiu have better-written sex than PIDW (“Feiji-sensei really does seem to have a seizure when he writes about girls” sjdhsjdk)

G-d the fate of proto-LBH is so fucking tragic I genuinely want to cry. The way trying to change his narrative just spawns new timelines without freeing the OG from his isolation

On the other hand, I can’t believe I was right about SQH being halfway between god and prophet, altering aspects of a pre-existing world. Perhaps I too am a prophet?