was there any other way to see it? alex asked michael to leave several times, he said please, and michael just ignored alex’s wishes and imposed his will to be with alex above what alex was asking for. i’ve been here since day one and i know things are complicated since alex’s dubious consent in 2x06 but this isn’t romantic. it’s harmful. and i never thought you’d write michael doing that to alex on purpose.
Anon. My darling anon. Stop worrying, and please allow me to explain.
I’ve said this time and time again on my blog because in this era of PC-ness, people seem to forget the value of context, but I assure you; context does matter.
Had Alex been saying no to sex, absolutely. No means no. Had Michael been a stalker and refused to leave Alex because he couldn’t hear the refusal or because he just wanted to harm Alex, then yes again; Alex demanding that Michael leave should’ve been enough to get him to leave.
But who’s our character here? Alex Manes. And Alex Manes is terrible at asking for what he wants, especially from Michael.
We’ve all have had to sit through Michael consistently choosing somebody else. How many times have people, myself included, written metas about the way Michael never fights for Alex, never lowers any of his walls, never says how he really feels and just accepts whatever Alex tells him because it’s easier than trying for him? How many times have we written about the both of them being disappointed with the other for not fighting?
Now. Tell me. You want Michael. To come in on Alex. Seen what he’s done to his house and himself while on his own. And then leave because Alex asks him to?
If Michael did that in season 3, I’d be furious. He cared for M*ria, actually tried to be closer to her, but when it comes to Alex, it’s the same thing every time. Alex wants him to go, so he goes. Doesn’t bother asking to stay, doesn’t bother trying to fight. In my book -- just in mine, it doesn’t matter to me how everyone else wants season 3 to play out, just personally -- I will not be satisfied with Malex getting back together unless Michael pushes. Unless Michael fighting is the reason they got back together. Because that’s the only way to resolve all that’s happened.
In my fic, Michael hears Alex’s words, and they hurt, but he also knows that Alex doesn’t really want him to leave. That Alex is afraid of being abandoned again, and so he lashes out and demands that Michael goes before he breaks his heart again. But Michael doesn’t want to. Not because he wants to ignore Alex’s wishes, but because he knows that what Alex says and what he feels are often different things, because Michael’s the same way himself. It’s because he knows what Alex’s wishes really are. And that bit of context matters.
I want Michael to push. I want him to really try, because Alex is self-sacrificing, and does not believe he deserves love, no matter how much of it he gives out.
The fact of the matter is, if I screamed at someone I loved, that I thought didn’t love me, to leave, if I thought I’d been abandoned, and then he went away in my worst moments just because I asked him to, I would be convinced that that person didn’t really care for me or love me at all. Michael ignored Alex’s pleas, yes, because he loved Alex too much to leave him alone. And I thought the ending depicted Alex’s relief that Michael had stayed, that he’d held on.
All I know is that Michael didn’t push at all in season 2, didn’t try for Alex. I know Alex will probably end up pushing Michael away again in season 3 (and rightfully so, after the things Michael’s done), but I want Michael to hold on with everything he has. After everything, I want Michael to fight for him. Alex will always ask people to leave. I want Michael to be the one who refuses to.
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